I need a change

[law47]

I made the decision that I'm going to start e-mailing my food plan to someone in OA. I made a commitment to put my food plan in here every morning and I am proud of myself for following through with that. (I have to pat myself on the back once in a while rather then beat myself up) But now its time to do something different. Thats not working for me anymore because its too much for me to get on here every morning, I get too caught up and spend too much time on here. So I am just going to pop in here once in a while, as much as I can. This is all about the balance I'm learning about and struggling with.
I'm still abstinent from sugar and white flour,33 days today. But I'm getting worried. I have been eating chips and crackers (whole wheat) but I'm justifing that they aren't white flour or sugar. I struggled with this before and I ended up relapsing. So I know if I continue with the behaviors of eating in between meals I will slide back into a relapse and that scares me. I will go from the salt to the sugar and then I will binge.
So I don't know if I should restrict myself from eating chips and all snack foods, or just try to eat them during meals. That doesn't work though I tried it and if the snacks are around I will eat them. I even go in my sons bedroom and eat his chips, I had told him to buy his own snacks and keep them in his room. I tried to tell myself that I'm stealing, but it doesn't work. Why can't I take this as serious as I take my sugar addiction now? I remember saying that with alcohol, why can't I take the sugar addiction as serious as I take my addiction with alcohol. I don't know, I guess I'm scared. I don't want to relapse, I am reconizing the pattern and I want to stop it before it is out of control. I appreciate any feedback I can get. for listening.
Lori

[Nina Kay]

If you're too hard on yourself you could become frustrated and relapse on what you've accomplished so far. Ms B

Lori,
I think what Ms B says here is so right or at least it works this way for me. You really should be so proud of yourself for making a plan and following through. And you should certainly be proud of yourself for abstaining from sugar and white flour for 33 days. That is such a WOW!!!!!!! I do understand about you needing to change your plan for now, but I do hope that you will continue to pop in here from time to time and let us know how you're doing and to share your experience, strength and hope.