Growth spurts are painful sometimes!

[law47]

I think God has really been working in my life lately, since I'm feeling more connected. Its kind of a scary thing for me too. I am discovering feelings and emotions and learning what to do with them instead of binge. Its amazing! Its a slow process for me but I'm learning. The other night I was at my gym, they are doing this weight loss challenge and I was all for it, until now. I have decided not to put myself through this. For one thing I put too many expectations on myself as far as the weight loss and the other is, I went to the meeting we have every week and I came out of there feeling very uncomfortable, like I was on this emotional high and it didn't feel good at all. I didn't know why I felt that way at first and the next day I called my sponsor and let it all out how I felt, it was amazing what I realized about myself and I didn't have to binge over it. In the past I would have binged before I felt the feelings. Everytime I felt uncomfortable I would binge whether it was good or bad. What I came to realize was that I want people to hear me and understand me and accept me and I don't feel like they do outside of OA and AA, I feel like I have to prove myself to them and I also feel like I have something to give and its just not the right place to talk recovery, I left there thinking I should have said this and I shouldn't have said that, (the commitee inside my head). So until I can feel stronger about that and more comfortable with myself and my recovery I have to stick with my AA and OA fellowship. They understand and I feel comfortable knowing they have been through the same stuff. So my sponsor helped me to see that. Thank God for sponsors.
Thanks for listening,
Lori

[Paulie]

But once we get past the pain we realize what a gift it is to grow!!!

[Nina Kay]

What Paulie said !!!!!!!!

[sugarssweetpea]

Amen. I love it when God reveals the growth to me. It is almost like I can see the lightbulb.