Checking in....

[Pony]

So I have been keeping up with getting to the gym. The last two nights I have increased some of my abs and legs work with the weights. Also a bit more on cardio. Last night one of the trainers there at the gym stopped to talk with me about my workouts and was encouraging my to keep going. She also offered some help in what might be more effient for me to work my target areas. The members get two free sessions with a trainer and she wants to help me out too. She said that she was impresses with my committment to getting to the gym and working out.
So that was cool.

I had been getting really down on myself...and letting those commitee voices lead me to believe that they are right...that I am some, getting to be middle aged, pathetic women, ....... blah blah blah....But I feel little differently now. basically I had a rough couple of days and was having a great pity party. In some respects it's still going on but I am trying very hard not to listen,

The food hasn't been too bad, except I ate a chocolate donut earlier today at work.

[historyteach]

Pony;
The fact that the trainer noticed you and your efforts says alot. It's great she offered some advice and do take advantage of the free sessions. My gym has individual and group personal training. I'm waiting for a group to be formed at a time I can make it; the individual sessions are too expensive. But I did have a free session. After I'd been going to the gym for @6 weeks, I ached so dang bad! LOL! Gosh, imagine if I hadn't been going!

Those dang committee members. They interfer with my well being too. And since I've been dealing with a bunch of garbage lately, they've been rough on me. I'm seeing my counselor today, thank goodness. And I know I have to leave my job. But, the exercise does help even out those bad thoughts; keeps them muted as I leave the gym after a good workout feeling so good!
So, ignore them suckers! They're nothing to feed into. And ya know what else? A chocolate donut once in a while is not the end all, be all.

Keep up the good work, Pony! You deserve all that is good, and you are working towards the best gift there is; the gift of health!

Shalom!

[law47]

Hi Pony!
It sounds like you have a great workout plan with a personal trainer and all. I had a free personal training session also and it was very helpful to me, especially after my injury in my neck, she was very helpful. She helped me to consentrate on the core muscles and relax the rest of my body. When I do my work out now I am so much more conscience of that.
Don't let that committie waist anymore time in your head. Isn't something how we get ourselves into those funks. Its so hard some days to get out of that. I think I try too hard sometimes then I become more aggravated with myself. I guess the key is to just get quiet and meditate and maybe do some self-affirmations, tell yourself how special you are and how much progress you made. Take a look back at how far you have come in your recovery. And just be grateful. You seem to have a lot of wisdom, and you carry a great message. I really appreciate that. :Valknees:
Take-care,
Lori

[Nina Kay]

Pony,
I am so impressed with how you have continued to be committed to working out at the gym regularly. I know that it must have been so encouraging for the trainer to want to work with you and to give you a few pointers and then to also acknowledge that she has noticed and was impressed with your sticktuitiveness. You are doing great in the exercise department. And you are doing great to work on a character defect that most of us who are compulsive overeaters have and that's the act of actually continuing to carry out our plans. We usually do real good for a while and then drop off. I have noticed a real growth in you in this area.

That committee in our heads are truly our enemies. They are outright liars that has only one goal and that is to bring us down and destroy us from the inside out. That committee is the very thing that got us into the trouble that we are having to deal with now. You know that. Don't let them win. You really know the truth. Don't let those voices manipulate you into negative actions. I use those pity partys to sort things out and to vent kindof like a release valve that's been opened up. Don't forget to close it back when you're done. I always think of that committee in my head like those commercials or comedies with the little devil on one shoulder arguing with the little angel on the other shoulder. When that little devil starts to tell you negative things, you've got to realize who your dealing with and then just flick him off of your shoulder because he is just so full of bull. I see alot of good qualities in you and I don't even get to see the whole picture, so just imagine.
(((((((((((((((Special Hugs))))))))))))))))))))

[Pony]

Thanks, you guys are all awesome. I only had a few mins. to pop in here today...until later tonight that is.....and you all made me smile!

Off to finish out my work day!! Hugs

[Jelling]

I do the same thing, the voices in my head are discouraging and I can get so I really feel sorry for myself. "Why do I have to deal with this and others don't?" Why ME? When I get like that I know that I am soon going to get out of control... it is just another excuse to eat. I have been honoring the promises that I make to myself, if I promise to exercise, even if it is only 20 minutes, I do it. I would say that is one difference in my recovery. Today, I didn't have time to really plan my food plan, I had things right up until 8:30 pm last night, and now I got tapped to do one more day of work for some research, so I normally don't work on Thursdays, but I will for about 8 weeks. I am excited by the new challenge, but I love my routines. I had some cereal for breakfast and I have some sugar-free jello in the fridge, but I will have to go out for lunch. I can't do fast food as that is a huge trigger for me, so I am thinking of trying this new japanese place. I mean, I know I won't over eat there. Gotta run, Hang in there

[Nina Kay]

Jelling,
It sounds like you are doing good under the circumstances and it seems you have things in proper perspective. Enjoy the new challenge. I've never eaten Japanese food. Come back and tell us what you ate there and whether or not it was good. Keep on keepin' on. Progress, not perfection.