New Journey

[hopealwayz]

I have to start over again. My eating just took a turn for the worse. I have put on even more weight over Christmas and the beginning of this year. I just went on a long food binge and I have just once again realized the horror in the consequences of my actions. I feel badly about the weight I put on and I have noticed that my self-loathing has been starting again. I need to get back on track.

A part of my mind says to start today but the other part in my mind says that I have already messed up my eating for today so it doesn't matter. I just want to get healthy and I cannot do that with my binge eating. That is just another way to destroy myself and I need to fix these crazy eating patterns.

I need to look in the mirror and love the person that I am now. My self-love should not be based on a number on the scale.

I just need to stop beating myself up for past behaviors because I cannot rewrite history. So here I am getting back on track.

I pray that I can stay on the path.

Hope

[sugarssweetpea]

HOpe,

I, too went WILD over the two weeks I had off for CHristmas break. I ended up gaining a bunch of weight, & got up to 1 pound away from what I weighed when I delivered my second baby 8 months ago.

I have started a new plan also. It is on the afraid to post this thread. It is going well. I have given it to God this time. I am really relying on Him to get me through the cravings & temptations. I have also given Him my anxieties & fears that underly my overeating. Ever since I quit everything else, my eating had gotten way out of control as I used food to replace the other stuff. I do not want to be trapped there anymore. I finally want the freedom that believing in Jesus Christ is supposed to bring us. I am tired of living like this.

I know that you can do this, hope. When we are weak, He will make us strong. I will be praying for you.