Seriously crashed

[RAKEeat2mchCAKE]

I have hit an all time low. Although I managed to not snack for a week, the last 2 days I have cleared the fridge and the cupboard. I have eaten, 4 chocalate bars, 10 choc biscuits, 3 cheese pastys, 2 huge cheese rolls, lots of pasta, more than 30 biscuits and a swiss roll! You've probaly guessed already I'm depressed at the moment, if I tell my mum she will only suggest I take pills (surely there's better options). I must start resisting temptation to eat, I find unless I am busy doing something, I want food wether I'm hungry or not. I can't let this addiction rule me, It is emotionally difficult to have a healthy diet right now, I feel that I would do better when I'm in a better state of mind. I need to pray more, and find a hobby so I can enjoy myself (not eating ).

[best]

What I try to do is keep healthy foods around *that I like* and keep the chocolates out of the house. Eating 4 bananas is better then eating a box of cookies. Until I get things fully under control, I keep looking for the cookies but when they are not there, I am better off for it.

There is no food in the house is said often. There is no room in the freezer for more food but still I look and think there is no food. A little effort and a little planning is a start at growth. For me, keeping the foods I shouldn't eat out of reach, I better control my intake. One day, I will have the habits that will allow me to buy cookies for others and stay away from them myself.

[Nina Kay]

Rake,
I am sorry you're so depressed. Believe me when I tell you that I understand. I do believe that you need to be proud of yourself for not snacking for a whole week. That took alot of commitment toward recovery.

I have done what you did with the horrific binge more times than I could possibly ever count. But you really don't need to beat yourself up for it because that will only be detrimental to your progress. It is good that you hold yourself accountable by coming here and sharing this honestly with all of us. Then you look at it and you learn from it what you got out of it and what you didn't get out of it. Then you realize that you are only human with a disorder and you had a big slip. Now you recommitt yourself to your recovery. One step back and two steps forward. Progress, not perfection is one of the OA slogans.

I definitely agree with you about the pills. I also agree with best and have had the same experiences, as far as having the unhealthy foods or my binge foods in the house with me. If they are in the house, readily available, I will eat them all for sure. If I have to go out for them, I have a better chance of getting a grip and a little time to think about it and maybe use some of my recovery tools that I have learned, to stop myself.

I started reading some of my OA books alittle and came across the Twelve Steps. They are the same as in the other 12 step groups, but the wording is a little different. Really just two of the words are different.

Step One: We admitted we were powerless over food - that our lives had become unmanageable.
After so many wars with myself over food all of these years and so many battles lost, I have come to admit that I am powerless over food. Also I have always realized that the problems that I have from trying to control my food intake, have in so many ways caused my life to become unmanageable. I we can admit this, then we are ready to reach out for help.

Please keep posting and reading other posts and stickys. We are here for you and for ourselves as we are going through what you are, and we do need each other to walk this road to recovery together.

[RAKEeat2mchCAKE]

I probaly should buy a dietplan that I can follow. I like some healthy foods but because I live with my family who eat junk food sometimes, it makes it much easier and tempting to snack. It's not an excuse that the food is available because I havn't talked about my problem with my mum and I try to not be seen snacking.

When I visit my dad, I don't snack that much at all because he has little food for himself to eat, he doesn't mind that because he has only an pertite for drink. If there is a big reason why I've got to stop bingeing now, it should be because I've seen how my dad's life has turned out because of an addiction.

I'm really glad I found this site because I know that I can overcome this disorder so I don't rely on what I know is bad for me. It is great that I managed to go a week without snacking, it has proved that I can diet. The problem was most of the time I was hungry, I should have eat a few types of fruit and nuts as a good snack so it would have been easier to get through the times when the idea of overeating was tempting. (sorry, I write about my life too much, I think it's a way of convincing myself that I can change my ways)
I hope that everyone who has an addiction can help themselves by thinking about the times you have eat healthily/gone without a thing addicted to, or exercised/done anything good for you more than the times that you may have gave into the addiction. I think that makes sense, it's about time I started taking my own advice

[Nina Kay]

Well, Now I've seriously crashed for the two days. Today, I've not eaten much and it was healthy, the little that I did eat. I'm not trying to skip meals, my tummy is torn up from the binges.

[hotwingeatter]

counting calories and setting goals is an easy way to get started. Go on line figure out how many calories you need to lose weight healthy. Map out a 2 and 5 mile route to walk in your town. count your calories, when you have a crving for sugary food go for a walk or grab a ounze (hand full) of nuts drink a ton of water. Almonds have become a great snack for me and has saved me many times. I keep extra meat cooked and a 5 lb bag of vegis in the freezer ready to go for a quick meal. You can do this and once you get going and seeing the weight drop off you will not want to binge.

Grilled buffalo wings mm mmmmmm

[kitbradley]

I keep hearing about how great almonds are at helping you feel full and curbing your appetite. I've tried it and they just don't seem to work for me. The dry, non-salted almonds, IMO, tastes horrible. I've forced myself to eat them but they did nothing for my appetite. The salted almonds are even worse because I end up eating way too many of those. Most of my success for the past 7 days has come from making sure I eat a little something every 2 to 3 hours. And of course, the water.