Sick

[Nina Kay]

I haven't overeaten today. Does it count even if I'm sick. My neck and glands are largely swollen and because of that my throat hurts. I've stayed in my PJs today and lived on tylenol and lots of water and some juice. I have eaten healthy too. I definitely don't feel like getting any exercise. I just wanted you all to know that I'm still doing the best I can one day at a time, to not compulsively overeat. I hope that you all are well and doing well with your recovery program.

[Nina Kay]

Well, guess what. It is now 10:30 pm and I just binged big time. All day I didn't have an appetite because of being sick and then night gets here and all of a sudden I decide that I just must eat. I ate goodies that my son and daughter brought in last night that I ate some of. Tonight like I said I ate lots of it. Last time this happened, I decided to get it out of the house. I guess from now on I will have to make a rule that they cannot bring it into my house. Obviously I cannot trust myself to have this under my nose and stay away from it. Also, I know that I should have gone on to bed earlier or at least when I felt this overwhelming urge coming over me. I've just got to get a handle on this. Surely I will feel better tomorrow, so that I can start once again with renewed strength. Actually, I think that having so many binges lately is making me more determined to become more steadfast in my recovery program. I'm really angry at myself for letting this happen. I've just got to stop this. Sorry that I'm going on and on. I'm really just thinking out loud. I will report tomorrow night how I've done, right before I go to bed.

[Pony]

Nina, sorry that you have been feeling sick today. Not eating all day would make you ravenously (sp?) hungry. that has happened to me at one time or another when I haven't eaten all day because of whatever .......By then your body was truely hungry which probably set in motion the eating disorder.

Hope tomorrow is a better day!!

[Nina Kay]

Thanks for your reply Pony. I'm still very sick today, but better than yesterday. I woke up this morning with a much better attitude. I think that all of this trouble lately with last night topping it off, has really been for my good. I've been saying how it just won't click with me to really commit to my program and now it has. I feel so much more grounded and know what direction I am going in. I am still going to take everything one day at a time. Today, I've decided to work way down on my caffiene intake. I usually have at least 3 cups of coffee in the mornings and sometimes more and all day I drink caffiene sodas and tea with caffiene and New International Coffee. I've decided that my first step to cut down is to drink my small 3 cups of coffee in the mornings, no more, and I will change my soda to Diet Sprite (no caffiene). I will cut out my tea throughout the day. I will only have one cup of the New International Coffee in the afternoon or evening. That cuts it down a whole lot. I'm going to do this for 2 or 3 weeks and then I will progress, just a little. That's my plan and I'm sticking to it, so that I will become more and more healthy and energetic.

[Pony]

That's great Nina. I hope it works for you....I tried cutting down on my caffine.....well, guess my willingness really wasn't there....LOL

You sound really committed and that's great. I am going to get myself moving back onto the exercise path. I have let myself fall away from it and it has to stop. So today I am going to do something....not sure what just yet but I will check in later with my progress with it.

Have a good one.

[Nina Kay]

That's great Pony. I'm glad that you're gonna get back to exercise. Looks like we are both starting to do something healthy for ourselves. I'll being looking forward to hearing what you did.

[sugarssweetpea]

Nina,
I have not had any caffeine (except what is in chocolate of course) for almost three years. It will take your body a little time to get used to it, but you will end up feeling better in the long run. Once you are off of it for a little while, even too much sugar will give you a rush. Hope you are feeling better. Stay strong in Him.

[Pony]

Well, Nina, besides the normal walking that I get in around the bus yard...my work....I did get some up and down the stairs at my apt. outside. That was about it for today.

It's a start anyway. I'll work on it.

[Nina Kay]

Pony,
I would definitely say that this is a good start for you. I've heard that stairs are one of the best cardio exercises and stairs are one of the best ways to burn more calories.

As for me, I didn't get any exercise today because I am still sick, but I did do good with my plan to cut down on caffiene and I ate moderately today with no obvious sugars. So all in all, I'm proud of both of us for today.

[Nina Kay]

Well, I'm still sick and very tired of it. I ate healthy and moderately today. No sweets. I got no exercise because of being so darned ill. Maybe tomorrow things will be a lot better. I sure hope everyone else is well and doing well on their recovery program.

[Pony]

Nina, you sound like you are doing well....at least with the food part (sweets). I sure hope you feel better very soon. I know how tiring it can be to have a long illness.

I didn't get any extra exercise outside my daily work routine, but I did do pretty good on my food. Well, with the exception of eating dinner late.....I had music rehearsal and it ran later than I planned. Because it was so late I had a peanutbutter and jelly sand. but it was at least sugar free jam. Smuckers makes a very good line of sugar free jams and jelly's. Anyway, then I had a cup of coffee and then I am off to bed. I needed a warm drink for my throat.....2 1/2 hrs of singing....my throat needed comfort...lol

So all in all, not too bad either. I am proud of both of us also. Thanks Nina for being here.

[Nina Kay]

Pony,
You sing?! 2 1/2 hours?! What kind of singing? Christmas Carols? That's impressive. I love singing, but don't have the voice for it, so I have to be restricted to singing with the congregation at Church or just singin' in the shower.

Anyway, it sounds like you are doing good with your program, so far. I am too, under the circumstances. I still have swollen glands, but not as big and I'm doing much better otherwise. I think that I might actually get well from this, one of these days. I was beginning to wonder, ya know. I have eaten very moderately, maybe less than that today. No sweets, either. I didn't get real exercise, but I did pace around the house today as much as I could, without overextending myself. Alot more movement than I have for this last week. I don't want to have a relapse. I hope to be enough better to be able to get out of the house tomorrow for the first time in a week. I hope you and everyone else that posts here are staying well and working their program.

[Pony]

Hey Nina....singing in the shower is fun....I love the acoustics ! Yeah, I don't know if you know that I drive a school bus.....well I do ...and.... well, we have a little group which basically consists of another driver and I....an aide from one the schools (then another driver joined us for our last two programs---- and now we have a teacher from one of the schools, who we have sung with last year, and also now another gentleman that Mike (the other driver) met recently and turns out to also work for the school district as an aide for one student, has also joined us. Ok, this explaination is getting long winded...lol , anyway....we sing mostly for the disabled children and adults in the area. But this next program is for a retirement center. I am looking forward to it.

We have done more than christmas....some folk type songs for the kids...they love it. But Christmas is my favorite.

As for my food program....well, it is coming and going..lol...I do good to a point. Not that I have overeaten, but that I am not a regular routine eating with 3 meals in the day and maybe a snack if needed. That's healthy....what I have been doing lately is totally skipping meals. Not on purpose....just my schedule for work and then get busy at home and I end up skipping it and then being really hungry later.

This morning I got in shopping exercise. I walked around the store with my mom (she's in a scooter shopping cart) for about 4 hrs. That's got to count for something!!!!

We'll see how tomorrow goes. The plan is to stay home and clean up.

[Nina Kay]

Pony,
Your singing group sounds like so much fun and so rewarding. You all are doing some really important and uplifting things for some really needy people. I'm sure that they so appreciate you all. I'll bet that it is the most fun at Christmas. I just love Christmas Carols and Children's Christmas Songs. They are probably one of my favorite parts of Christmas. Have fun !!!!!!

I can sure understand what you are doing with your meals. I've done that alot in my life too, depending on the circumstances, like when I was doing a Daycare in my home. I had so little time to eat, that I would actually forget until I would start to feel really shaky and irritable. I would have to make myself eat then, but I would also eat more at night. I guess that I had more room if I wanted to eat more than I needed. Of Course that is a really big self-deception. I'm learning ever so slowly.

I've done well, the last couple of days. I think I am almost completely well. I haven't compulsively overeaten and I haven't eaten sweets and I have been working up slowly, since being sick, on my walkin, in pace and time. All in all, I am doing so much better. I did walk the last 2 days that I didn't post. Not real fast, but about 20 min. each day. Hope to hear how you are doing soon.