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blkbutterfly · 12-01-2002, 06:32 PM

I'd like to introduce myself. I am a compulsive overeater and a newcomer to the program. I am over 100lbs overweight. I was laid off my job; recently, my unemployment stopped(right in time for Christmas,LOL). I have definitely hit rock bottom with no where else to go. I was watching Oprah, the show with the 300lb women. And something hit me. The woman said "You have to surrender to God". And I knew that without God, I will not make through this. I was giving up, before I heard that. And I still do not know how I will make it, but I do know that I feel hope when I go to a meeting.
This my story. I am here because I have no choice. I want to get to know you. I want you to teach me everything about this board and this program. Can I join you?

Paulie · 12-02-2002, 09:36 AM

Yes, you can join us - Welcome!!!
I am not sure what I personally can teach you, but I can give you support and fellowship. I am a recoverying drug addict who over the past 2 years has used food instead of drugs to numb what goes on inside me, I am currently picking myself and working a better 12 step program than I have in a while.

Since you do not have drugs involved in your life have you considered OA, it is also a 12 step program. The steps and people in the fellowship and my relaitonship with God (which I got throught the 12 steps) saved my life from drugs. I stopped working a good program that is why things have not gove well for me the last few years, I know what I need to do to get better. It might be something that you can think of also. Try calling OA in your area or check out there website.

God Bless and keep posting, we are all in this together!

blkbutterfly · 12-02-2002, 09:48 AM

Thanks Pauline
I am currently attending OA meetings and I found this website through their website. I am so happy to be a part of the program. I just read your post and it is not only your story but everyone's story. I know that I suffer from low self esteem and I'm asking my HP for help with this. I will check for the OA board. I thought this was it. It is so wonderful to hear my problems are the same as everyone in this program. I really did feel alone.:shades:

Paulie · 12-02-2002, 10:12 AM

We are not alone - we have to remind ourselves of that every day!!!!

Lets do this together...remember everyday that WE are worth it!!

**Pony** · 12-02-2002, 02:10 PM

Hello blkbutterfly and welcome to this forum. This and many other boards that deal with food issues a great places to be for support; as well as the OA meetings. We have a great bunch of people involved here on this particular forum and the rest of this web sight. WE are NOT here to judge anyone in any way, just here to support, listen, and share in our own experiences in hopes that it might help others not to feel alone.

I, too, am at the very least 100 lbs. overwieght; but I am working on it as a daily routine. It is a challange, but it is one I must do if I want to live a healthier life with my family. Not for them, with them- for myself! It is a daily struggle with food issues and getting myself into the gym, but so far so good. It has done wonders for my self-esteem.

Well have to go now........back to work! Keep coming back and posting. It's fun also!!

Pony

blkbutterfly · 12-02-2002, 10:07 PM

Thank you Pony

You are an inspiration, along with Pauline. I am taking this one day at a time. Today has been a hectic day. Just when I thought things couldn't get worse, they did. But you know what, I am going to look to my HP for help. Without this program, I don't know where I would be. I thank God for all of you.

**Pony** · 12-02-2002, 10:36 PM

butterfly,
I am sorry to hear that you day wasn't so good, but as I always say..........The sun will come up tomorrow and a new day begins. It's always great to have new beginnings...however many we need!

Even when your day goes seems to be going down, try to pick out something good and positive that you can grow from.

Pony

blkbutterfly · 12-03-2002, 12:56 PM

Thank you Pony

Paulie · 12-03-2002, 01:17 PM

So simple, yet so profound -

The sun will come up tomorrow and a new day begins!!!

Amen to that!!!!

Hang in there butterfly, let's take it one day at a time!!!

blkbutterfly · 12-05-2002, 12:57 AM

I'm still taking it one day at a time and I know it is because of this program. I don't where I would be without it. It was raining, now it is pouring...but the little things, like this board, is making it all worth it. I know God will take care of me. I read step three and I'm depending on my HP. Thanks!!!

Paulie · 12-06-2002, 12:53 PM

Hey butterfly -

How ya doing????
Pop in and drop us a line, thinking about you lately!!!!

blkbutterfly · 12-07-2002, 01:52 AM

Ok, I will be attending a meeting in the morning. I am really looking forward to it. How are you, Pauline?

**Ann** · 12-07-2002, 06:59 AM

Blkbutterfly

I also want to welcome you and tell you that the 12-step program can work wonders for you as it has for so many others.
OA is a great program and there are 12-step workbooks that can help you work through the steps, slowly and thoroughly, one step at a time. At the top of the Al-anon board is a 12-step study thread, and if you just change the word in Step 1 - "We admitted we were powerless over food, and our lives had become unmanageable", the rest will fall into place.

Like any other addiction, it takes time and work to find and maintain recovery, but I promise you YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!

Good luck and welcome to our family.

blkbutterfly · 12-08-2002, 06:02 PM

Thank you. I do have AA big book and an OA 12 step book. However, I don't have a workbook yet.

Paulie · 12-08-2002, 06:09 PM

Butterfly -

I am okay, thanks for asking.

I have started work on my first step (again, but I don't say they negatively, this is a realy good thing for me) and as Ann said I am including the word food, for me along with drugs. Lately Ihave been using food as my drug and I have some work to do around that. It is very exciting actually.

Keep posting, lets do this together!

blkbutterfly · 12-14-2002, 04:13 AM

I haven't been on a couple of days, thanks for your support. Yes, let's do this together. I love reading all the posts. This is so encouraging, just knowing that we are not alone. I've been alone for so long. My husband and son don't understand and through this disease, I have isolated mysef so much. I am happy that I have a place to go that others understand. I felt like was the only one suffering and I was just weak. Now, I realize that I can't but God can. I am going to have to get a workbook, I'm ready to work these steps. That is great you're doing step one. It is much better than step 0

12-01-2002, 06:32 PM	#1 (permalink)
blkbutterfly Paused Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: California Posts: 9	Newcomer!!! I'd like to introduce myself. I am a compulsive overeater and a newcomer to the program. I am over 100lbs overweight. I was laid off my job; recently, my unemployment stopped(right in time for Christmas,LOL). I have definitely hit rock bottom with no where else to go. I was watching Oprah, the show with the 300lb women. And something hit me. The woman said "You have to surrender to God". And I knew that without God, I will not make through this. I was giving up, before I heard that. And I still do not know how I will make it, but I do know that I feel hope when I go to a meeting. This my story. I am here because I have no choice. I want to get to know you. I want you to teach me everything about this board and this program. Can I join you?

12-02-2002, 09:36 AM	#2 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	Yes, you can join us - Welcome!!! I am not sure what I personally can teach you, but I can give you support and fellowship. I am a recoverying drug addict who over the past 2 years has used food instead of drugs to numb what goes on inside me, I am currently picking myself and working a better 12 step program than I have in a while. Since you do not have drugs involved in your life have you considered OA, it is also a 12 step program. The steps and people in the fellowship and my relaitonship with God (which I got throught the 12 steps) saved my life from drugs. I stopped working a good program that is why things have not gove well for me the last few years, I know what I need to do to get better. It might be something that you can think of also. Try calling OA in your area or check out there website. God Bless and keep posting, we are all in this together! __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

12-02-2002, 10:12 AM	#4 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	We are not alone - we have to remind ourselves of that every day!!!! Lets do this together...remember everyday that WE are worth it!! __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

12-03-2002, 01:17 PM	#9 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	So simple, yet so profound - The sun will come up tomorrow and a new day begins!!! Amen to that!!!! Hang in there butterfly, let's take it one day at a time!!! __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

12-06-2002, 12:53 PM	#11 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	Hey butterfly - How ya doing???? Pop in and drop us a line, thinking about you lately!!!! __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

12-02-2002, 09:48 AM	#3 (permalink)
blkbutterfly Paused Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: California Posts: 9	Thanks Pauline I am currently attending OA meetings and I found this website through their website. I am so happy to be a part of the program. I just read your post and it is not only your story but everyone's story. I know that I suffer from low self esteem and I'm asking my HP for help with this. I will check for the OA board. I thought this was it. It is so wonderful to hear my problems are the same as everyone in this program. I really did feel alone.:shades:

12-02-2002, 02:10 PM	#5 (permalink)
Pony Forum Leader Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: trail of discovery Posts: 2,480	Hello blkbutterfly and welcome to this forum. This and many other boards that deal with food issues a great places to be for support; as well as the OA meetings. We have a great bunch of people involved here on this particular forum and the rest of this web sight. WE are NOT here to judge anyone in any way, just here to support, listen, and share in our own experiences in hopes that it might help others not to feel alone. I, too, am at the very least 100 lbs. overwieght; but I am working on it as a daily routine. It is a challange, but it is one I must do if I want to live a healthier life with my family. Not for them, with them- for myself! It is a daily struggle with food issues and getting myself into the gym, but so far so good. It has done wonders for my self-esteem. Well have to go now........back to work! Keep coming back and posting. It's fun also!! Pony

12-02-2002, 10:07 PM	#6 (permalink)
blkbutterfly Paused Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: California Posts: 9	Thank you Pony You are an inspiration, along with Pauline. I am taking this one day at a time. Today has been a hectic day. Just when I thought things couldn't get worse, they did. But you know what, I am going to look to my HP for help. Without this program, I don't know where I would be. I thank God for all of you.

12-02-2002, 10:36 PM	#7 (permalink)
Pony Forum Leader Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: trail of discovery Posts: 2,480	butterfly, I am sorry to hear that you day wasn't so good, but as I always say..........The sun will come up tomorrow and a new day begins. It's always great to have new beginnings...however many we need! Even when your day goes seems to be going down, try to pick out something good and positive that you can grow from. Pony

12-03-2002, 12:56 PM	#8 (permalink)
blkbutterfly Paused Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: California Posts: 9	Thank you Pony

12-05-2002, 12:57 AM	#10 (permalink)
blkbutterfly Paused Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: California Posts: 9	I'm still taking it one day at a time and I know it is because of this program. I don't where I would be without it. It was raining, now it is pouring...but the little things, like this board, is making it all worth it. I know God will take care of me. I read step three and I'm depending on my HP. Thanks!!!

12-07-2002, 01:52 AM	#12 (permalink)
blkbutterfly Paused Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: California Posts: 9	Ok, I will be attending a meeting in the morning. I am really looking forward to it. How are you, Pauline?

12-07-2002, 06:59 AM	#13 (permalink)
Ann Forum Leader Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: By The Lake Posts: 25,191	Blkbutterfly I also want to welcome you and tell you that the 12-step program can work wonders for you as it has for so many others. OA is a great program and there are 12-step workbooks that can help you work through the steps, slowly and thoroughly, one step at a time. At the top of the Al-anon board is a 12-step study thread, and if you just change the word in Step 1 - "We admitted we were powerless over food, and our lives had become unmanageable", the rest will fall into place. Like any other addiction, it takes time and work to find and maintain recovery, but I promise you YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!! Good luck and welcome to our family. __________________ “Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” ~Winnie the Pooh~

12-08-2002, 06:02 PM	#14 (permalink)
blkbutterfly Paused Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: California Posts: 9	Thank you. I do have AA big book and an OA 12 step book. However, I don't have a workbook yet.

12-08-2002, 06:09 PM	#15 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	Butterfly - I am okay, thanks for asking. I have started work on my first step (again, but I don't say they negatively, this is a realy good thing for me) and as Ann said I am including the word food, for me along with drugs. Lately Ihave been using food as my drug and I have some work to do around that. It is very exciting actually. Keep posting, lets do this together! __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

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12-14-2002, 04:13 AM	#16 (permalink)
blkbutterfly Paused Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: California Posts: 9	I haven't been on a couple of days, thanks for your support. Yes, let's do this together. I love reading all the posts. This is so encouraging, just knowing that we are not alone. I've been alone for so long. My husband and son don't understand and through this disease, I have isolated mysef so much. I am happy that I have a place to go that others understand. I felt like was the only one suffering and I was just weak. Now, I realize that I can't but God can. I am going to have to get a workbook, I'm ready to work these steps. That is great you're doing step one. It is much better than step 0

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