Relaps or slip?

[Ginger]

Good morning all,

Yesterday evening I felt empty inside my stomach and thought okay, I think I am hungry now but I will not eat, I will drink water instead, so I did.
Drinking water for 2 hours and the empty feeling did not go away..hmm, still hungry I thought, okay I will have a walk with the dog maybe the feeling will go away and my mind will have something else to do.
I came home after 40 minutes and still hungry, I thought this is not good, I delayed but now I am having some yoghurt because I really began to feel bad, like headache also.
The first spoon with yoghurt tasted like heaven for me, the second bowl of yoghurt still tasted good but the feeling in my stomach told me its not enough, you need more to get a satisfied feeling.
French cheese, french cheese on bread, a bar of chocolate and then went to bed. After two hours I woke up, needed more food, 2 slices of bread with a salad on it and the rest of the salad to complete it.
Oh my, how did this happen, what did I do wrong?
Well first it is clear to me now after two weeks with OA I really am a compulsive/obsessive overeater! This for sure helps me to continue to go to the OA meetings because I know also I can't do it alone!

I was looking back to what happend that day what could have been the trigger for my relapse/slip?
Well, when zapping in front of the television I saw Dr. Phil talking to people who have overweight. Dr. Phil told a man that he could loose 60 pounds next of May when he followed the program. I thought wow, that is exactly what I need to loose to have a 'normal' weight again. I already was thinking about the result and next what happend you can read above.
I don't really understand how it works and for sure I did not know what to do to keep on the right track.

Is there anyone who can tell me what I could have done to not overeat last night, I still need a lot to learn and I want to do it the right way.

Thanks for reading.

Hugs,

Ginger.

[Pony]

Well Ginger, a thought came to me when readingyour post was that maybe you originally waited to long to eat a meal. If you are feeling truely hungry and you haven't eaten in a long span fo time, then chances are that you really needed to eat when you felt hungry. If you had just eaten only a couple of hours before then maybe the feeling was just habit.

Maybe you could put yourself on a time eating schedule. Like setting a time when you will eat you meals and a couple of snacks...spaced out of course. Then maybe you can get your body onto a regular routine with eating. Then you will know whether or not it's true hunger or just habit.

The best thing is that you recognized your eating habit at that time. That's good.

[Paulie]

Well I know for me (sometimes this works...not always) I call someone. Yes you did things to distract yourself, but sit down and journal and try to figure out what it is that you are feeding. For me I can only be son hungry and when I get past that point of being full and continue to eat I am feeding something other than my appitite.

It is awesome that you come here and talk, you helped me alot thanks.

[Ginger]

Pony and Paulie, thank you both for your reply, this really helps me.

I am learning a lot these days about myself and I just joined the OA program, its great.
One of the things I learned as silly and little it may seems I do have eating habits. I'm starting to look at myself in a total new way and all because of the program and the great people in it.
One of the habits is after 3 good meals a day I am used to eat late in the evening also and that is not because I am hungry, I used to thought I was but its not.
I use that food to cover something and now I can change something about it. I need to learn myself to listen what it could mean, write about it, meditate and call someone of the program. I call my sponsor everyday but I never called her or anyone else when I was in a difficult situation. I still need to learn a lot about how the program works for me the best way and I am very much willing to explore this.

Maybe this sounds a bit haleluhjah but I truely feel I have a chance of a better life and I find that awesome!!! For the first time in my life I want to belong somewhere and that's also a change for me, always thought that would scare me off.

Thanks for reading.

Hugs,

Ginger.

[Pony]

This is great Ginger......The path to getting healthy is an adventure full of discoveries. You will be finding out lots of stuff about you and what habits have gotten you to this point. You will recognizing what you are feeling when those habits kick in and learning what changes need changing and how to make those changes. Never consider them silly or trival. These are important and lots of hard work goes into making a lifestyle change. Be happy, be excited for yourself and what you are doing.....that's what will help you get over those rough spots along with the support from the group and your sponsor.

Good going. Keep it up !! Keep letting us know how you are doing. Sharing with us helps all of us too.