chocolate....chocolate....chocolate!!!!!!!!

[Pony]

OK, coming clean......

I have had a very bad chocolate relaps. Years ago I gave up eating chocolate.....at first it was kindof hard not to reach for that candy bar but then it became where I didn't even care about tham anymore. It didn't bother me to see it. Once is a while I might have had a bite and it didn't bother me that it was only a bite.....that was enough.

But recently in this last week I have been indulging in chocolate candy.....bought some, took from my little's stash, and from anyone who offered some!!!!! This has not been good.

So it's time to detox from chocolate. I know this might sound funny to some, but chocolate is one of my trigger downfalls, and one that could lead me right back to putting back on the weight I have already lost.

Water.....water....water, need lots of water to help flush my system out. Then lots of writing and getting myself busy with my positive things around here and keep me away from the chocolate that is hiding around here just calling out my name!!!

[Wolfstarr]

Pony,

My trigger is chocolate, too. I have been doing sooo good up until Saturday. Was fixing the basket for my granddaughter (oops I mean the Easter Bunny was fixing it) and I had some. Now I have slipped. I did pretty good today till my younger granddaughter came over and the Easter Bunny left a basket for her, too.
Ok, I read your post and I am drinking water...
The left over candy is going out the door...I can't have it laying around.
It knows my name, too!
So good to know you are here, your post helped me to corral a certain eating relapse...thanks so much.
Hugs,
Wolfstarr

[Pony]

Well I did real good today......not one piece of chocolate....

it was not easy either. I have it all over this place from my daughter's Easter and her daddy keeps a whole drawer full for his sugar binge (he does not really have a weight problem). Now normally none of this bothers me but this week it's been very bad. And today I had to literally walk away from the rooms that have it in it. I kept myself busy doing laundry (running up and down the stairs to the laundry room) and spring cleaning my bedroom.

Tonight I have done real well....had a piece of chicken thigh and a medium white potatoe.....I have had lots of water today.........and many trips to the bathroom..lol I will have more water tonight and stay in my room....lol well, except for coming to the puter!!

thanks Wolfstarr for coming in here....I am not alone

[Paulie]

Nope Pony, you are not alone.

I had a bit of chocolate on Easter also. I let myself that one day. The couple (our dear friends ) that have been doing the low carb thing with us, well they came to Easter at my moms and they were taking the day off of low carb to and they brought a cake called.....Death by Chocolate. OMG. I did not have a piece of it because I was the one who cut it, and of course everytime the knife went through it, I wiped the knife with my finger....it was definately close to an entire piece LOL.

I endulged just a big on Sunday with have a small spoon of my favorite things, not like I normally do on Easter where I am so stuffed at the end of the day I can't move. I was really proud of myself. And then yesterday, back on the low carb no sugar kick.

The problem is, my step kids are still here.....so of course my mom sent them home on Sunday with a ton of stuff and yes I bought them stuff from the EB too. Last nigth I wanted chocolate so bad....but didn't do, stayed out of the kitchen completley.

When they leave tomorrow EVERTTHING sweet goes with them (their mom just loves when I do that ).

So back on track, working towards my goal.....and no sweets until my bday in a few weeks.
It really is getting easier.

[Pony]

Very good....proud of you. I am normally doing just that....just a spoon of things that I desire and then it's good enough, but this past week....it may have even been half into last week also when I caught myself....I have been weak and in self pity.

but now it is time to stop....pull out of it before I destroy all I have done so far. I keep walking past all that chocolate that is here.....but now I tell myself...."yuck" and try to remember how I was feeling being on that chocolate high (which was fat and crummy) and that my pants got just a smidge snug this last week. It really does effect me fast!

The water is doing good at getting through my system. I am keeping a full glass nearby and everytime I think about the candy or eating, while I am not hungry, I am taking a drink. so far it is working fine. It funny how I can drink my reg. pepsi and eat my pasta's and still lose but eat chocolate and there it goes! Everything else I choose is usually fat free or sugar free.

[Pony]

I made it through another day without chocolate. I was working all day but, the temptation was offered to me by a friend that was having lunch with me.

Another driver and I were out on a field trip together and we had lunch together. Well, she buys this really great fancy chocolate from Trader Joes market and offers some. I turned it down without a problem. The problem comes in when this very sweet, well meaning person says....."Oh come on, one bite won't hurt" ...She is aware of what I have been trying to accomplish the last two years and still tries to tempt me.

I'm ok with this, but for the moment I really felt annoyed and depribed that I had to say no so many times. If people could just accept "NO" the first time it is said it would be so much easier. I mean, I wish I could be like everybody else...Like her and her daughter (that was there) thin and normal and not have to think about everything I eat, but I do. Just like that first drink.....I can't take that first bite. NO, bites!!!!

[Paulie]

Some people don't get it Pony, that is just a fact.

Well everything is gone out of my house...I am sure my step kids mom was thrilled to see that I sent all the candy and stuff home with them again.

But.....listen to what happened the other night. Now always, whether I am dieting or not I go shopping the day before the kids come and buy them all kinds of snacks, the stuff I know they really like. but then of course I get annoyed cause all they want to eat all weekend is junk.

So Tuesday night I am sitting at the kitchen table doing some end of the month mailing and my 10 year old step son come into the kitchen. He says "I am gonna have some Cheetos and then some ice cream". He grabs the bag of Cheetos and sits down next to me. I explained to him that if he is still hungry at the Cheetos he can have some strawberries, well of course then he starts arguing with me. I say "All you eat here is junk" he looks me in the eye and says 'Well you are the one that buys it".

Ummm hello....sounds silly but a huge light bulb went off in my head. Yes I know it sounds obvious but it was right then that I realized (I can be a little slow LOL) that what I have been doing for 8 years since I met them is just trying to please them when they come here with junk food. So I said to him "you are right, and that is gonna change. All the junk goes home with you tomorrow, so be prepared next time you come I will only have good snacks for you".

He was funny then he started promising to only eat one cupcake a day and stuff like that. And when he told his 15 year old sister she comes out the bedroom and makes a salad for a snack , I was rolling laughing. I told her good try.....but it isn't gonna work. We were laughing pretty hard.

I explained to them both that I know it is my fault and that I want us ALL to be healthy, not just me and their dad.

It will be interesting when they come back week after next.

Just thought I would share that little moment I had.

[Pony]

Excellant Paulie!! You are so right and hurray to them for filling you in!! LOL

I try to do that around here, but "the dad" buys her snacks now and no matter what I say (because of course I know nothing....I'm fat) he does whatever. She is gaining weight and I am not happy about it. I am trying to be the example so she may see and learn by example...but well, .........I'm still trying! My only hope is to get her exercising more!

[Paulie]

Yep....we gotta keep them moving. My step son is filling out so quickly, he does nothing but sit in front of the video games and TV. So yesterday I took the roller skating, he fought me all the way, until he got out there with me and we had fun.

[Zain]

I am not alone with my "romance" with chocolate. Besides my husband, and kids........CHOCOLATE is the next best thing in my life. I have learned once I start eatting it, it becomes very difficult to stop. The more I have the more I want.

[Pony]

Well, still having trouble kicking this love affair with chocolate.....so.....

I am compromising at the moment with sugar free/fat free choclate stuff. Until I get it out of my system..I guess!

[Nina Kay]

I have learned once I start eatting it, it becomes very difficult to stop. The more I have the more I want.
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Zain

Hey Zain, I've really noticed this alot with myself, too. I really react this way with any sweets. The only thing that ever helps me is to not take that first bite.

Pony, In my own personal experience, the sugar free will keep me craving it, just like the sugar filled. I Love to eat it too & I know that it's hard, but when I really want to stop a particular binge, I have to go to a f2f or online meeting or call my sponsor & I have to make the firm choice out loud to myself or someone else that I'm giving this up for now, one day at a time. Get it ALL out of your house, car, or office. Start journaling exactly what you are feeling deeper down inside, when you have that craving for that next bite of C. And try to never say the word out loud. Ha ! Good Luck!!! And I do totally understand from much experience !!!

[Pony]

I do allow myself the sugar free stuff, because I don't believe in totally depriving myself......that always sends me runnning for everything that "I can't have". It's less detrimental to my plans and satisfies the craving.

I have to learn to live with it in the house because I am not the only who lives there. I cannot expect others to live without just because of me. But thanks and I do understand the advice.....just wouldn't work around here. Actually.....until a couple of weeks ago, having it here never bothered me. I had really not wanted it. And I am heading that way again. I can feel it. As long as I have other ways of satisfying the chocolate crave......I don't think about the real stuff. (normally) What I do need to do is really pinpoint why I went for it this time around. Been working on it!

[Paulie]

I cannot expect others to live without just because of me.

Well I agree, or agreed up until a few weeks ago. , I do expect them to live without it, I mean my step kids. I think I already told you about my conversation with my 10 your old step son about eating nothing but junk when he is with us. he looked me in the face and said 'well you buy it'. And he is right. I told him, not anymore, he loves pringles so I have some of those, but other than that, I am not buying any sweets like I usually do when they are coming. Normally I would go to the store today before I pick them up this afternon and buy cookies and cupcakes and stuff like that for them this weekend. Today i am gonna buy strawberry's and apples and good stuff for them. I will buy some stuff to make strawberry shortcake I think, but the cookie jar on my counter that is usually FULL of Little Debbies....is EMPTY and is gonna stay that way.

It might not be easy, but they will get used to it. I realized that my H and I are trying to change out eating habits and create a healthy life only indulging ourselves on special occasions and only a litle, so I should be teaching my kids the same thing.

that is just me and my little ol' opinion. And it works right now cause my H is doing it to. If he wasn't that would be a different story...like yours Pony.

Oh and for me, I do the sugar free jello. but whenever I have a pudding or something like that with sugar alcohal or malitol in it, it makes me crave sugar more so I have to be careful. And for me, to much sugar free stuff (which I over do it) is just as bad and the stuff with sugar. It is about moderation.