Finally, feeling back on track

[Paulie]

Today is day 9 for me not eating sugar or flour, the white stuff. I have not cut off all sugar, I still have my nonfat vanilla creamer in my coffee LOL. And there is sugar in the cottage cheese and things like that. but the processed stuff. I have eaten more veggies in the last 9 days than I probaly have in my life. . I have lost 5 lbs in 9 days. I have exercised 6 out of the 9 days. FINALLY I feel like I am back on track.

My body is no longer craving those yummy carbs I love so much LOL. You know the good ones from the pasta and stuff like that.

Just wanted to share. I have had friends over the past few months as I have struggled to get back on track tell me if I just let go of most of those carbs (not aktins completley) and don't eat 3 hours before bed I will get back on track. Well the 3 hours before bed is getting easier, that was just a habit. And the low carb thing is even getting easier to. After sunday I will introduce some grains back into my system, like brown rice and whole wheat pastas, just a bit to give myself a treat once in a while.

I bought the South Beach Diet book, I am not following it perfectly, but just reading the information in it helped me learn alot about what I am doing to my body.

And reading that a scoop of ice cream is better for you than a piece of white bread LOL, that amazed me. And I made sure to tell my H that as he sat there eating PB&J on white LOL.
then I remembered, attraction rather than promotion

[Pony]

Yayyy Paulie. I am so glad to hear that things are better for you. I like to read up on all the little things about each diet out there. Just like program....take what you can use and leave the rest ! I am still of the opinion that there is no one perfect eating plan out there for every body. Everyone's different, but some things, like how food works in the body and what exercise fits best with what target area....stuff like that you can learn is helpful in health education.

good for you girly.......I am always inspired by you (it's that attraction vs. promotion thing....lol)

Thanks for coming and sharing with us here......lots of hugs......very proud of you!

[bikewench]

Paulie...

what I am doing to my body.

Coming out of denial around what food addiction is all about is the first freeing steps.

So... You rock on gurl... !!!!

Marvelous... simply marvelous..

[Paulie]

thanks guys. This book is actually written so I can understand it. I mean when he says something like white bread is like eating straight sugar. ICK I wouldn't eat straight sugar.

And yes Pony, learning about all different ways gives us so many different tools to use.

It just feels better, I mean 5 lbs isn't alot. I have like 30-35 more to, but it feels good. I feel better just not putting so much stuff in my body that is not good for me.

[bikewench]

Paulie...

I have always found it counter productive to focus on pounds. It would always hint to me that some day... when I was such and such a number... I would have it made and I could resume old ways of eating. Plus.. I always had expectations around what the scale was going to reveal to me... and I generally ended up feeling crappy about the results. This was a gold plated excuse to say to hell with it and resume old eating habits.

But.. I have an eating disorder as well as being a compulsive overeater... so my triggers were many. I haven't weighted myself in over 5 years. Have absolutely no idea what I weight.

What I focus on instead is the process of self care and let the results reveal themselves to me in looser clothing... and a sleeker feel to the old bod.

Good food self care... one day at a time.. ;o)

[Paulie]

I understand what you are saying, and I agree. But for me I still need to see the scale move with the smaller numbers like a pound or two here or there, that is how my mind works. You know like, okay I am doing this for something I see results.

Last year I lost 40 lbs, but more important I lost over 40 inches, I did that with exercise. I understand today that the number that I weigh will never be what I want it to be and it shouldn't. I do measure big results by the way my clothes fit and even more by the way I feel. I just learned that last year. Than I hit a wall, stopped losing and started gaining, emotions of my wedding being over and then the holidays it all hit me hard, I picked up my old habits and put 10 lbs back on.

Today I posted this not so much because of the 5 lbs but because I feel back on track. I am eating healthy again and it shows in the way I feel. I am happy with that today.

But I don't think I couldn't weigh myself for 5 years LOL.

[bikewench]

But I don't think I couldn't weigh myself for 5 years LOL.

lol...

Yeah.. I use to feel the same way.

What really drove it home for me though was my daughter.

Watching her day after day... going through the control/relapse.... letting the scale dictate what kind of a day she was gonna have. Letting the scale dictate what she was going to eat that day... and it was ususally on the detrimental to her side.

And she has never been probably more than 5-10 lbs over at any given point in her 19 years.

She was in the beginning stages of food obsession... and I had to intervene.

So... sledge hammer to the old scale.

Very cathartic.. ;o)

Even the food addict programs suggest one weights at least once a month... to keep oneself out of denial... but... even that was to much for me...

My daughter might weigh herself once a year now. Plus... she goes to a gym regularily cause she got tired of me cranking on her about the benefits of exercise as well...lol

She also use to rant to me about her body shape...and I finally had to tell her to stowe it cause she was triggering me all over the place. lol

I just really needed her to be aware of how much food obsession can destroy a life. And most people minimize the impact of this addiction wayyyyy to much.

[bikewench]

double post...

[Paulie]

Good for you for catching yourself and helping her.

Sledgehamer to the scale....oh I have felt like doing that few hundred times

[Wolfstarr]

Paulie--Great! that you are back on track.
It took me a long time but I am doing well. Doing the same as you with the South Beach but it is a model to follow, no exact science. I fail when I put myself on "diets"
Thanks for your inspiration! I am down 13 lbs and still going.
I hate the scale. I only weigh once monthly! It's finally working.
Thanks, too for this site. Now I want to step up the exercise...easier said than done.
Proud of you Paulie! keep it up the great work!!

[Paulie]

That is great Wolfstarr!!! support helps so much.

[Pony]

I don't even go near the scale except to move it out of my way!!!!! lol

I can tell my progress according to my clothes. That works so much better for my attitude. I also go by how I good I feel. The exercise sure does get ya going! Lately I have noticed that my jeans are starting to feel lose again and that means that I am doing something right. I just have to keep reminding myself that it going to take time to get where I want to be, but it will be all worth it.

Great thread!

[smoke gets in my eyes]

Originally Posted by Paulie

And reading that a scoop of ice cream is better for you than a piece of white bread LOL, that amazed me.

I must have that book.