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[pieczarka]

Hi Everyone, I've never been a part of any message board. I guess I feel helpless and tired of my constant struggle with food, of eating my life away. This constant fighting for a day of regular, healthy eating is making me feel exhausted. Every morning I promise myself I'll be good, every morning I look in the mirror and try to feel good about what I see. It lasts a few hours, sometimes a few days if I'm lucky. I fail day after day after day. I feel like such a loser, burden on my family. Sometimes I wish I could just disappear.

I don't remember eating healthy. I became bulimic when I was 14. I went through addiction to diet pills. I've been depressed for the last 5 years. 12 years of my life lost to obsession with food. I've been clean and not bulimic for the last 3 months. Trying to go to the gym...but stuffing myself until my stomach can't take it anymore afterwards.

Last night I decided to find an OA group next to me and I came across this message board. I read for a few hours amazed that there are people who experience the same pains as I do. There is so much hope and good in some of the letters. I think I'll stick around. Thanks.

[Pony]

Hi and welcome. Yes, please do stick around. All of us together support one another and share in our experiences....that makes us feel that we are not so alone in this.

Check out some of the links above. They may also have some interesting and helpful info for you. There is an OA site as well to check with for more support....but do seek out that OA meeting in your area....you can find one in that site.

Please share some more and let us get to know you.

[pieczarka]

Thanks Pony, I've been feeling really low most of my life; it's time to do something about it...how many times have I said this before? I'll check out the OA like you adviced. Thanks, Maggie

[Pony]

Hey Maggie......don't worry about how many times you have said this before. Life has it's ups, downs, in's, out's.....I'm sure I didn't really have to tell you that. But just know that your not alone is that cycle. Many of us here...ME....have started over and over. What counts is now....today.....this minute. You are making choices today to do something. Congratulate yourself on that. Coming here was a step towards that.

We are here ! Have a great day!! Do something nice for yourself.