Seems Impossible Today

[sweetr72]

Addictions grrrrrrrr.........hard to figure out why some ppl have them and others dont. My husband is an alcoholic and has been sober for just over a month and I am now involved with Alanon but found myself looking in the mirror again lately and figuring out how to change myself for good. I did weight watches about 2 years ago and lost just over 100 pounds and looked great. Then I went through some really horrible times afterwards and put just about all my weight back on. I feel horrible and look horrible. I joined WW again a few weeks ago, went to two meetings lost 10 pounds in two weeks and then quit going to meetings. I just cant find the strength in me to do this all over again.
I tell my husband that I wish it was like alcoholism and I never had to eat again like he cant drink again but I DO have to eat everyday. Those times I do eat its totally bingeing. More now cause of the shame I feel of quitting WW.
I am so proud of my husband for doing the hardest thing in his life and now I cant do the hardest thing in my life and lose this damn weight. I have no ambition to get out of bed some days because of it and find myself very snappy with everyone around me.
I think of walking the dog and getting my head out of the fridge and hand out of the cookie jar but something inside me makes me lounge around and binge all day?
I really get annoyed because I have stopped drinking any alcohol because I dont want to temp the husband with it and he really appreciates that, but no one understands why I cant have the chips and cookies and junk food in the house, the temptation is just too much for me to handle alone and I have a thin well built hubby and three kids who I cant deprive food from but they dont realize how much it destroys me when Im trying to stick to plan and they are eating the junk food around me.
Well thats about all for one day lol if anyone has any ideas for me please let me know, even if you can just relate to what im saying just drop a line or two.
Thanks, Dawn

[Pony]

Welcome Dawn......please know that you are NOT alone in this. I know it may seem like that because you feel surrounded in your home, but there are plenty of us out here that struggle with many of these same issues...and more.

The fact that you have achieved weight loss before just proves that you CAN do it. Maybe this time you need a bit more of a boost, but you do have it within you. Have you ever looked into Overeaters Anonymous......it uses the same 12-steps and traditions and sponsors; and has wonderful support from people that face a variety of food issues.....just as in Al-anon. You could continue to use the food plan of WW and get the support from OA ! Just something to think about.

I, too, live in a home with a thin SO and child that have their snacks and foods that have to have....you know what I mean. It's basically a choice I have to make.....eat that stuff and die (eventually) or eat the healthier stuff, exercise and get on with living. My body tells me when I haven't made those good choices by slowing down and not feeling up to doing.......but when I am on my program, I really have energy and a good attitude. I, also, live with an alcoholic (but he is currantly drinking) and at present our relationship is not good.....so he doesn't support me and that makes it difficult at times to keep a good attitude, but with outside support from here and friends I get through those times and move on in my program.

For the snack thing....get some things that are within your program that you like and when they go to snacking and you feel the urge to join in.....you have those choices there to go with. Read the Power links above and see if any of them help. Hope this has been of some help to you.

The only time we have lost is when we quit, give up, and never try again! Until then we ate all still a "work in progress."

[Runnerchick119]

Its hard ,I know and I go through the same things, food is always there, always around and your jealous of the people who can just eat and move on with their lives. I am just learning myself to deal with binge-eating aftet two years of struggling. I am making progress, but I still fail, like today, and I must learn to get on with my life. Having strength to keep going is difficult, especially when you still have mono like me!! Sometimes I am so tired I just don't care and give up, I know I can't though. Please have faith and try to go on. This website is awesome for when you want to share your thoughts and feelings. keep sharing! love ~Kristin

[sweetr72]

Thanks to both of your for responding to my post!!! It is truely the most difficult thing to go through since you do have to eat but I have to try and move on and get out there. Does anyone know if there is Overeaters Annonymous in Canada? I have never heard of it before? Thanks again for the responses ><

[Pony]

http://www.oa.org/all_about_meetings...ry=CANADA#intl

Try the link above to find one close to you. Let me know if you don't find one....I can ask around some more.

[sweetr72]

Thank you thank you thank you Pony, I didnt even think OA existed in Canada and what do you know there is one 30 minutes from here! I belong to Alanon and that is such a wonderful place for me to be. When you gave me that link and found OA in my area I actually cried. I am soo happy and I cant wait until Wednesday to go there and meet the people there. I love the AA and related programs and have met such great ppl at the meetings that I cant believe I havent found it before now. This is a great day for me, again THANK YOU!!!

[Pony]

I am happy that I could help ! But you deserve credit for having the desire to go and the actions to follow through. Let us know how you are doing.

Hugs