Food and I

[tobstah]

hi

Food and I have a love/hate relationship. It all started before i can even remember. when i was in grade school id always be the last to finish eating in the cafeteria while all the other kids went playing outside. I remember praying that i wouldnt have to eat at school. but when puberty hit, i suddenly was the first to finish. and i would eat everything i could. then i discovered wonderful drugs. at first they seemed like a wonderful way to cut the hunger which they did. I started popping speed and E and going to raves and dancing it all off. (altho i wasnt fat in reality) But i still felt like s-h-i-t. i was still a blob in the mirror. but i could eat all i wanted and then just pop the pills and it would go away.

that stopped working after a while. So i went for crystal meth. i lost crazy amounts of weight in short periods of time, then id binge and go get high for a couple days again. but i felt like utter s-h-i-t on the inside. anyway...

i quit drugs and alchol 3 months ago. and now im back to that place i used to be where i eat uncontrolably. ive gained 20-30 pounds. i occasionally make myself throw up. i dont know what kindof eating dissorder this is. i think i got it from my mom. ill try to starve myself, but then ill eat big amounts of food. and sometimes ill make myself throwup. and then sometimes i can eat healthy, but other days im all about the junk. i dont know wtf is wrong with me its gross.

-help-

[Paulie]

You are taking the first step to help, you are talking about it and reaching out. Keep talking and it will get better. I too gained weight really quick when I stopped using, that is what happens alot.
Make a plan, I do much better when I plan what I am going to make/eat for at least a few days, or even just in the morning. And what about exercise. I have been slacking latley, working on getting back in my routine. But a few months ago I was exercising on a regular basis and I felt better than I have ever felt in my whole life. It does make a difference.

So how about a plan?

[tobstah]

yes! a plan! this morning i went to a cafe and picked up a fitness magazine.

i found lots of great tips. here ill type up a few

-walk instead of taking the bus
-eat with chopsticks, it takes longer to eat and youll be more aware of what you put in your mouth
-be consistant with your exercise plan
-try losing 5 pounds,taking it one day at atime, and treat yourself to a peice of clothing when you acheive your goal
-keep a food diary
-switch from cream to milk in your coffee
-DONT BEAT YOURSELF UP
-make a eating schedule
-brush your teeth after you eat, you wont want to eat more cause itll taste gross

thx paulie for the feedback

[Paulie]

Those are some great tips, thanks for sharing them. Chop sticks....I would skinny as a board

consistency, logging food, replacing things like cream with milk, all those little things add up.

A friend of mine has helped me become concious of fiber, checking the fiber content in things is really good to.

[tobstah]

wait.. fiber is good or bad?

[Paulie]

Fiber is your friend

Fiber helps clean our system out (among other things).