Coping with loss of bf to speed - by getting myself healthy

[caughthiminject]

I am in such a grieving process over my AXBF injecting speed. i am now a couple weeks away from him and trying to piece my life back together. i miss him so much but the only way i seem to be able to cope is trying to lose weight. i was getting so depressed and over-eating with him. and now i just want to do something that will result in me feeling better. i saw a doctor and have had some pills prescribed to help with the initial boost of weight loss so now have gone from 181 pounds to 173. my goal is 140 so i am feeling better each day. i know i have a tendency to suck down chocolates and sweets and junk food like an addict. i have never been less than 150 pounds in my adult life. i've been off all sweets for over 1 week now and the cravings have stopped. eventually i would like to stop coffee as well. i don't drink or smoke and i absolutely hate drugs, even more so now that i have seen what they did to my ex.

i see now that food is my drug of choice. so i hope i can break my cycle of eating and depression.

[Nina Kay]

Hey caught, I'm sorry to hear that you've been through so much heartache & horror. I could have written all that you said except it is my Son that is doing what your bf is doing. My top weight is 189 & I too am a sweets addict. I am also an emotional eater. I definitely understand all that you are saying. It does sound like you are handling all of it very wisely. I'm happy for you about the weight loss & the absence of cravings & just your all-round more healthy feelings. If I were you, I'd think about waiting a while to cut out your coffee, as it might be just too much at first. It's your call of course, not trying to tell you what to do, I just know that I always go all gun-ho on trying to better my health & end up throwing in the towel. So at my older age, I'm learning to make small changes & get them critiqued before I take on another hurdle. I wish you lots of good progress towards better health. I love that you conciously chose to take a positive healthy direction towards feeling better while dealing with such an awful loss, rather than letting it take you down. I really wish I'd have done that 16 years ago, when my world came crashing down around me. Better late than never for me, I guess.

Keep up the positive work towards a healthier & happier YOU.