It´s all about self-image, isn´t it?

[Lilya]

I´ve been feeling old, fat and ugly lately. I believe it´s because of a persistent flu I´ve been fighting, but before that I wanted to loose 7 kilos (around 14 pounds?) and put myself on my regular diet and exercise. I felt so well and the kilos started dropping, but since the flu I haven´t been able to exercise and have to eat toasts and Chinese noodle soups and chocholate - for three weeks- it´s been like a recipee for fatness. And I´m enjoying that meal late at night!

I tried on a tight dress I wanted to wear at a big party next week and was alarmed when I couldn´t even get it past my hips!

Then I thought: Why should it matter so much, and why am I making such a big deal out of it? Maybe I´m mourning my youth prematurely - I´m 45 and on a good day I feel I´m 10 years younger - but when feeling low, I feel old and wourned out.

I´m adding this obsession with weight on my 4th step list of defiencies I´m making for the 100th time. It´s just not healthy. Having that inner glow I sometimes manage to keep alife can last me until my nineties - and it should be all that matters.

It seems lately that I need to be on a trip in the Far East, visiting a buddist temple to experience serenity. It shouldn´t be that way. I need to work on my everyday goals. I´m just having a bad week-end and I hope someone feel - or has felt the same way.

Use adversity

[Juls]

Lilya,

I know how you feel. I'm 48, and most of the time I feel good, but my body doesn't let me forget that I'm 48 sometimes. LOL Getting older and wiser is o.k., but that aging stuff with it's aches, pains, sags, bags, etc. is not to my liking.

I try to keep it at bay by taking care of myself as best I can. I have lost some weight lately, and it really makes a difference in my self-confidence and how I feel about myself.

I hope you are better soon, and can live your life again.

Juls