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[Aibreanowl]

I'm finding this process interesting.

This week I am practicing "just noticing" what I do. I'm also committed to go to any lengths to remain abstinent.

I hit 3 meetings last week. I called my sponsor NEARLY every day. I've done writing, I've done reading, I pray, it seems, ever hour or so.

I'm really working this program.

This does NOT mean that it is easy! It isn't, not by a long shot.

My insanity is showing itself in many ways other than eating. It is coming out at my husband and children and inside my brain.

It's very interesting to see all the emotions I've been shoving down with food.

It SUCKS!

I hate looking at all the crap I've done because of my disease. It's just really crappy. But I am committed to Face Everything And Recover (F.E.A.R.), because, frankly, my only other option is jumping off a bridge.

I'm trying to give up my judgements and let god let me know what is the truth and to light my path.

It's working. One day at a time.

I've been abstinent for 21 x 24 hours. That alone is a miracle. I have hope for the first time in a long time. And the faith that tells me this program works grows every day.

I'm so grateful...even though this is hard and scary.

Thanks,

Aibrean Owl

[Pony]

You doing fine. It's great that you are becoming aware of the feelings and emotions and trying to deal with them instead of stuffing them away. I agree it is definately hard to face day by day, but well worth it when you get out on the other side. Keep going and see it through. WE are all here, you are not alone!

Pony

[QTpie]

I understand where you are coming from I too have seen some of the emotions that I have been stuffing come out. I am haveing a hard time dealing with them it helps me to write letters to the person or the feeling that I am having them about then to burn it ( safely of course in the fireplace) seeing them go up in flames helps me to make the feeling pass. It is good to know that someone else is in the same boat.

Good luck and we are here for you any time.

Colleen