The food part, easy???? - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Aibreanowl · 10-04-2003, 09:29 AM

I'm starting to feel like giving control over to my HP every day is getting easier, and the food thing is less and less of an issue. My cravings are not gone, but when I have them and feel like a binge, it is getting easier to pray or write or call or read.

This doesn't mean that I'm not reluctant to actually do the steps though. So that is where I am. I've got money for a workbook and a 12x12, but I don't want to spend it on that. Sigh. Here's where my control is coming in: If my food isn't a mess and I'm turning that over to my HP, then why do I have to do the steps???

Of course, I know this is just my alligator brain trying to trick me into doing this the easy way. What is that about thouroughly following our path???...ack. I don't wanna.

But, I'm willing to be willing. So I guess I'll pray for the strength to be willing to JUST DO IT!

I am sick today. I had contemplated skipping out on my meeting. I haven't called my sponsor in two days. Ummm, yeah, I guess I need to go anyway. I'll try not to cough on too many people, but I need my meeting.

Urgh.
AO

Aibreanowl · 10-04-2003, 10:08 PM

I went to my meeting today. I remained abstinent. I talked with my sponsor. I bought the books.

I'm still sick. I'm going to bed. I'm going to pray for the strength to remain abstinent.

**Pony** · 10-04-2003, 10:46 PM

Good for you in getting to your meeting and talking with your sponsor and all.

Hope you feel better tomorrow.....take care of yourself.

Pony

10-04-2003, 09:29 AM	#1 (permalink)
Aibreanowl Paused Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: BC Canada Posts: 20	The food part, easy???? I'm starting to feel like giving control over to my HP every day is getting easier, and the food thing is less and less of an issue. My cravings are not gone, but when I have them and feel like a binge, it is getting easier to pray or write or call or read. This doesn't mean that I'm not reluctant to actually do the steps though. So that is where I am. I've got money for a workbook and a 12x12, but I don't want to spend it on that. Sigh. Here's where my control is coming in: If my food isn't a mess and I'm turning that over to my HP, then why do I have to do the steps??? Of course, I know this is just my alligator brain trying to trick me into doing this the easy way. What is that about thouroughly following our path???...ack. I don't wanna. But, I'm willing to be willing. So I guess I'll pray for the strength to be willing to JUST DO IT! I am sick today. I had contemplated skipping out on my meeting. I haven't called my sponsor in two days. Ummm, yeah, I guess I need to go anyway. I'll try not to cough on too many people, but I need my meeting. Urgh. AO

10-04-2003, 10:46 PM	#3 (permalink)
Pony Forum Leader Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: trail of discovery Posts: 2,480	Good for you in getting to your meeting and talking with your sponsor and all. Hope you feel better tomorrow.....take care of yourself. Pony __________________ "Failure is an EVENT, it is not a person â€“ yesterday really did end last night, and today is your brand new day..." .........unknown The sun always rises, and a new day begins.

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10-04-2003, 10:08 PM	#2 (permalink)
Aibreanowl Paused Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: BC Canada Posts: 20	I went to my meeting today. I remained abstinent. I talked with my sponsor. I bought the books. I'm still sick. I'm going to bed. I'm going to pray for the strength to remain abstinent.

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