food, food, food

[alcoholicson]

Ok, I came to this web site for other reasons (note my name) but I came upon the eating disorder page by thumbing through the different threads. I have had what I call an eating disorder all my life. Most people who see me and talk with me don't agree because I am not over weight per se. I have never tipped the scales any heavier than 160 lbs. That was my highest weight this past year. I have been on WW and any other diet that you can imagine most of my adult life. I lose weight, get all happy about how I look, and then get sloppy with my eating and then after several months find myself back in the same boat I was in before. My ideal weight (for me) is 140 lbs. I feel better at this weight, I look better, I can breathe, etc. I am just all around happier at this weight, but..... I am lazy and I love food. Any food. All food.

My children, and no I am not really blaming them, I am at fault for letting them get to me, keep my anxiety level up so high all the time. I am a nervous eater. Well basically I can eat whether I am happy, nervous, upset, sleepy, bored, it doesn't matter but the worst is upset/nervous. I am currently on the WW program, if you want to call it that. I have the books, I know how to do it, I am concious of everything I put in my mouth, but I still eat it.

I don't really know where I am going with this thread. I just wanted to get it off my chest. My "common law" husband just doesn't get it. He tells me just don't eat it. Well when he is "eating it" I feel like I can too. Well anyways, you probably will be seeing me here more often. Just so I can vent or whatever. Thanks for reading even though there was no point to this. lol

[roxiestone]

Welcome!

I, too, understand using food as a means to calm and soothe. I've done it for years. I'm now maintaining a 100 pound plus weight loss and have learned new coping mechanisms and strategies instead of relying on food. I try to look at solving my anxiety at the root, rather than surpress the symptoms with food.

You will find supportive folks in this thread. Take a look at the 100 Obvious Sweets challenge. I post regularly in that thread and use the ESH of others to help me avoid using food in an inappropriate (and unhealthy) way for me.