#9- 100 Day Goal - Abstinance from Obvious Sweets - Want to join? Please Do!

[californiapoppy]

Hello everyone I'm back and OS free and what's more down two pounds more. Boy does that give me incentive !!! I breezed through the posts, looks like everyone is doiing really well. Good work guys, keep it up !

[Fubarcdn]

I know Jack will be back some time today but I am going to do the chart and give him a break in case he gets back late.

Nina - 3/8/2009 - 52 Days
Cali - 4/1/2009 - 28 Days
Astro - 4/10/2009 - 19 Days
Fubarcdn - 4/13/2009 - 16 Days
Poppy - 4/13/2009 - 16 Days
Rowan - 4/15/2009 - 15 Days
Jack- 4/16/2009 - 13 Days
Pony - 4/17/2009 - 12 Days
Dave - 4/19/2009 - 10 Days
Bamboozle - 4/19/2009 - 9 Days
Cathy - 4/24/2009 - 5 Days
Neagrm -4/24/2009 - 5 Days
Roxie- 4/25/09 - 4 Days

Still OS free. I am going to my old neighborhood for a nostalgia tour today. This usually included beers at the Black Swan and baklava at the Greek restaurant but due to my two abstinences it will include neither this year.

[smiling jack]

Thanks, Fub, I appreciate all the you do. Too much fun and not enough sleep. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. Grateful to be home...and getting back into the routine that allows me to listen to a long weekend's worth of great music without losing sobriety. Life is good. Take care all.

[cali]

Jack-it's so good to have you back! Hope your time off was enjoyable!!

I am so grateful that I again woke up today willing to make a conscious decision to stick with a food plan that works for me ***to the very best of my ability!!

I was a little dissapointed that I am not seeing more of a difference on the scale, but I have to remember it took me months to pack it back on, I am going to have to work at it and be patient!

Have a great day everyone!!

[smiling jack]

Wow...~ an hour to go read all the posts...Congratulations Nina on the 50 days! and welcome to the newcomer(s) to the thread. As Dave said, Cali, thank you for all you've brought...and Dave, to me, ...the most meaningful part of the long runs have been the last 5 - 10 minutes...when I'm dying and just looking for someone to talk to...to get me out of myself and my misery...and when I talk to someone else ...I get huge energy from that. Do the half...you'll remember it for the rest of your life.

Thanks to all who post. I am grateful to be part of this thread.

[Astro]

Originally Posted by Rowan

I've been binging too, Scott. I'm still sick, but mostly depressed because of life events. I ate a whole bag of sugar-free biscuits but they tasted like cookies so I feel like I cheated. And I had three sugar-free chocolate pudding cups today. Nothing else. I've been home sick in bed again. This will pass, it always does - but I am very discouraged right now.

I honestly don't know why I binge Ro, other than the fact that I'm an addict with everything else so I guess it comes naturally. I binge when I'm depressed, bored, excited, the only time I don't is when I'm too busy to shovel food into my mouth. Hang in there, we'll do this together.

I'm back on track today, didn't binge last night and like cali mentioned, I took the time to pack a bag of healthy goodies for work today, I feel great and my weight is heading back down. cali, you shared some great stuff, wasn't TMI at all.

Oh, and the frozen fat-free yogurt is a new favorite of mine, had it last night with blackberries and oat bran sprinkled on top. I ate that when I got home from the kids games, also had a few bites of chicken breast and that was it for the evening. Perfect!

Jack, welcome home!

[cali]

I was thinking as I am reading your posts Rowan.......I see that you have been eating a lot of "sugar free" foods...I have to tell you that I have to be very careful because there are certain ingredients in sugar free candy etc that make me feel really sick. I'll never forget eating a small bag of "sugar free" Rossel Stover's jelly beans a few Easter's ago...I think I shared about it here becasue I was part of this thread and felt like I needed to tell on myself for bindging on them but also to maybe help someone else. The effects for me were gastro-intestinal so I am like really careful now.

You may now be bothered at all by this but I just wanted to let you know what happened to me

[Neagrm]

I must start over again. I totally lost it and binged on oatmeal chocolate chip cookies today. It was like suddenly a crazy person entered my brain and wouldn't leave <big sigh>. :-(

I'm not letting it discourage me for long. I'm getting right back on. I can see the positive. I went the longest I have in ages with no OS and I can do it again.

I began an exercise program this morning, walking on my treadmill for 10 minutes. I plan to work up to 45 minutes 3 x's/week or more.

Nea

[dave47]

Familiar with that one Neagrm, and that's where the progress not perfection has to come into play for me. When I look at those moments of madness and see that over a period of time, they are much less than they used to be, then that gives me some comfort.Best wishes with the exercise, I can't believe how positive it makes me feel-even if my body aches.
Don't really know what to say about the sugar free stuff Row. I just try to avoid anything that sets the alarm bells ringing in my head because I will scoff it all. Some of those treats sound pretty good, so I think that I had better not go there either. Hope you are feeling better soon, thankfully today is my first good day since Sunday.
Congrats Nina on your 50+ days and for all you offer.
Jack, great to see you back and hope you are well. Incidently, I went for a run this lunch time and it was sweltering. I desperately wanted to get out having not been too good the last few days, and it damned near destroyed me. If anyone had spoken to me all they would have got back would have been gasps. Still, I soldiered on and that's another thing(as well as yourselves) that has helped me eat well and without OS today.

[Rowan]

Thanks all for the encouragement, and congrats Neagrm for getting back on the wagon right away. There were so many treats lying around the office today i.e. cookies and apple crisp but I got through without picking up. Drank lots of water, ate berries and yogurt, and had sushi for lunch. Feeling a little better today. At least I am upright and made it to work. Taking a couple more days before I try to exercise again - don't want to experience a major setback.

You guys all inspire me so much. Thanks!

[smiling jack]

Undisciplined and defiant...are character defects I have to watch out for in me.

When my OS cravings start, I will continue to believe that I can look at OS's, that I can take just one and have no more.

Sometimes I feel like I never want to surrender to this addiction...I don't care if I never recover...I don't care if I never get well.

But those feelings pass, if I am patient with myself. I need to come here...read your ES&H...just keep trying one day at a time...and believe that progress occurs in you and me.

Nina - 3/8/2009 - 53 Days
Cali - 4/1/2009 - 29 Days
Astro - 4/10/2009 - 20 Days
Fubarcdn - 4/13/2009 - 17 Days
Poppy - 4/13/2009 - 17 Days
Rowan - 4/15/2009 - 16 Days
Jack- 4/16/2009 - 14 Days
Pony - 4/17/2009 - 13 Days
Dave - 4/19/2009 - 11 Days
Bamboozle - 4/19/2009 - 11 Days
Cathy - 4/24/2009 - 6 Days
Roxie- 4/25/09 - 5 Days
Neagrm -4/30/2009 - Day 1

[Fubarcdn]

[QUOTE=smiling jack;2211915]

When my OS cravings start, I will continue to believe that I can look at OS's, that I can take just one and have no more.

This is exactly how I feel but I am not ready to try moderation again so yesterday and today I remain sugar free.

[roxiestone]

I don't know that I will ever master the art of moderation in terms of processed/baked goods/junk foods, SF or not, so I have to just leave it. To do anything else, for me, is folly. I've tried "cheat days", etc only to find them triggering me to eat more. Such is the way of the disordered eater.

So I must treat all of those foods and their substitutes as off limits. Sometimes I am more successful than others.

These are my truths and my truths only - your mileage my vary.

May we all live in peace.

[cali]

Wow....I am having a tough day...not with food, but with things that typically lead to me acting out with food....the "silent" acting out.....I am in recovery today, this means I have to be aware of my additude....I will NOT hurt myself over people places and things, as I do not have control over those things. I do, however, have control over me.
What a gift!!

[Astro]

Originally Posted by Fubarcdn

This is exactly how I feel but I am not ready to try moderation again so yesterday and today I remain sugar free.

I know what that word means, but my alcoholism is the biggest clue that I have no idea how to effectively practice moderation, so I'll continue to abstain from OS's!

At my daughter's game last I enjoyed the frozen yogurt and berries once again, had a small bag of raw veggies too. I did have some milk and corn nuts just before bed. For some reason I'm craving milk lately.

Thank you all for your support and sharing.

[Nina Kay]

Hi Jack. I'm so glad to see that you are back. Are you getting caught up on your rest after playing so hard on your trip?

When my OS cravings start, I will continue to believe that I can look at OS's, that I can take just one and have no more.

I'm sorry Jack but I just don't feel that you really said what you were thinking. You do know that you can't touch any of those desserts without losing control. You will never be able to continue to eat just one of any of those sugary sweets. I think that you wrote that statement wrong. I thought that I remembered you saying that you know this about yourself before. Now the next statement is the one that I have thought before and acted upon it between the time that I was on this thread before and the time that I came back to start again. That is the stinkin' thinkin' that leads us right into a hell of our own making. The "WHATEVER" attitude. We always end up seriously regretting that one, don't we?!
I hope that you and I will continue to be patient enough with ourselves to wait for those feelings to pass, before we act out on them.
(((((((((((((((((HUGS Jack)))))))))))))))))))

[Nina Kay]

I am still OS free, just for today. However it is more miraculous than I can put into words. Yesterday was my Grandson's 9th Birthday. We went to his house to celebrate. Of course there was plenty of cake & ice cream. We had had a very busy day and was on the run continually all day, so that I didn't have time to eat anything since Breakfast. This is an evening party. I was starving and shaking and there was the cake. I could see it & smell it & I was starving. My stinkin' thinkin' started in and I was positive that I wasn't going to be able to resist eating some of the goodies. I was already thinking how I was gonna have to come here today and confess that after 50 something days of being OS free I would have to start over. I just had no doubt about it and I knew that I wasn't gonna be able to resist. Then everyone was being asked if they wanted cake & ice cream and how they wanted it to be served and I heard myself decline. I was so surprised with myself. And then I felt stronger and I made it through the rest of the party without a problem. Later I'm in my car heading home and I realize I actually am on my way home and I'm still Obvious Sweets Free. I didn't eat any. I'm like, "How did that happen?" I just can't believe it. It's like I just had a miraculously unexpected survival from a certain demise. I still can't get over it. Well, this evening my kids & grandkids were at my home and my son begged my daughter to go and get the cake and bring it here cause he desperately wanted some. I told him No and he tried to talk me into it, just for him, and I insisted that I didn't want them to bring it here. He then wanted to buy himself some ice cream and put it in my freezer until he went home and I again told him NO, I don't want it to ever come into my home again. He was surprised that I was so adamant and that he wasn't able to talk me into it. I have not been having any trouble or even any cravings through all of these days until this happened last evening and this evening. I can't believe that I am still OS free, but I am. Together we can do this.

[smiling jack]

Nina - WOW on the birthday party! Thanks for your story!. For what I wrote..stinkin' thinkin' on my part...

I want to remain OS sober today.

Nina - 3/8/2009 - 54 Days
Cali - 4/1/2009 - 30 Days
Astro - 4/10/2009 - 21 Days
Fubarcdn - 4/13/2009 - 18 Days
Poppy - 4/13/2009 - 18 Days
Rowan - 4/15/2009 - 17 Days
Jack- 4/16/2009 - 15 Days
Pony - 4/17/2009 - 14 Days
Dave - 4/19/2009 - 12 Days
Bamboozle - 4/19/2009 - 12 Days
Cathy - 4/24/2009 - 7 Days
Roxie- 4/25/09 - 6 Days
Neagrm -4/30/2009 - 1 Day

[Fubarcdn]

Strong work and strong will Nina. There has never been a 100 day person on the list since I joined so I am pulling for you to be the first. I hope that isn't too much pressure to put you under.
I am still doing well and won't have another big test of my will power until I go on holidays in two weeks. I will take that one one day at a time.

Congratulations on 30 days Cali.

[cali]

Wow Nina! Your post shows HUGE strides and growth!! So many parts I wanted to "quote"!!! You just said "no" in like sort of an "outter body" type experience---that is staying OS free no matter WHAT!!!

Thank you SO VERY much--I really am SO happy for you!! I must say that I will be referring to that post of yours for encouragement for myself, I'm sure in days to come when things are tough!

I will remain OS free today for sure!!!!!

[roxiestone]

Brava Nina!

[dave47]

Normally when I start to think like that, then it is too late Nina, so congratulations.
Been good and busy and off to bed soon, best wishes all.

[Astro]

Way to go with the birthday party Nina, now that's some strength and determination, good on you for standing your ground!

I'm doing well, and the best part is that I'm only 1 1/2 lbs. away from my target weight. We'll see how I do over the weekend.

[Fubarcdn]

Congrats on almost reaching your weight goal Astro. I still got about 5 pounds of belly fat to get rid of. That is one accurate scale that you have if it is accurate to the half pound.

[Astro]

Digital scale. Maybe it's innacurate and I'm too gullible to know it?