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[girlontherocks]

Guys! Guess what! I've been ok too!

Eating what I want and not bingeing. Working out moderately every day. This is wonderful. I had one bad binge a few days ago, but I accepted it as part of this process. It happened so that I can learn... I know it is work and a daily battle and I need to stay vigilant. I dont want another food coma. I dont want to see eating as these guilty broken up events, but rather as a continuous flow of nourishment for my body... My body is always at work! Digesting, healing, rejuvenating... This is beautiful! Who am I to hate it? Who am I to harm it? Who am I to tell it I know better? Who am I to feed it things it doesnt even want? My soul is beginning to shine through more, I can feel it. I can feel it bubbling up to the surface. I am on this track for life. I will have to eat for the rest of my life.

Might as well make peace with it now.

[liveweyerd]

Girl, You are RADIANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I ate fast food today...was out and about until I was starved and did the drive-through.
However, got a free pass to an excercise class because of some volunteer work.

Going to do my best to get back into those leather jeans for the concert!

[girlontherocks]

thanks live!

I ate fast food too today... popcorn and a muffin and chocolate! Oh well. I am not beating myself up this time, I dont want to feel like I did before.

Finding out my fullness when eating is the challenge right now. I let myself starve then I dont feel the full signals. It's ok, it's normal, it's part of the process.. Olympic champions train for a long long long time before they even get into the olympics! Who am I to think that I am going to learn this over night?

[liveweyerd]

WOW....thanks for the encouragement and inspiration!

Nina....worried about you...are you okay?

[Nina Kay]

Hello Everyone. Live, thanks so much for your concern. I have to be honest about the fact that I'm not really sure why I wasn't checking in on this thread. I do know that I haven't been doing well at all and I've been so very busy that my head is spinning. I was so tired that yesterday, I slept and slept most of the day, off & on. I can't recall what all I've been doing about my breakfast, but I do know that I have not compulsively overeaten it at all for the longest time. I've not been real good about taking my vitamins and calcium, but most days I have taken them. I do know that I've been getting a whole lot more sunshine & fresh air and I've been having to get up early all week because of my daughter, daughter-in-law, & my grandkids needing me for certain things. They have gotten me up early, kept me physically moving alot more than usual, and getting me outside for alot of fresh air & sunshine. I do know that this is all good stuff. It's just not regulated and it's all very rushed, so that I can't follow any plan of action which always throws me off. I'm still not going to bed early enough, so I'm really tired. It's taken me all weekend long to recouperate from the last week or so.

This morning, I didn't get up until 11:30 am, after going to bed last night around 3:30 am. Still not good at all. I did finally eat my breakfast/firstmeal of the day, about 2:30 this afternoon and I didn't overeat at all. I ate 2 very small breakfast burritos and drank a couple of cups of coffee. I took my vitamins & calcium with it. I've only gotten outside today for a few minutes and I've gotten NO exercise today. I'm also working on coming off of a med. that I take that is causing me to be in a major depression, and it may well be causing most of my other problems. I've been taking this med. for a couple of years again, but I didn't think that I was having any side effects from it except for it raising my blood pressure. I slowly realizing that it's causing me alot of problems that I didn't even realize. It's so hard for me to come off of. I have to come off of it by taking out one ball at a time. It has 300 balls in it. I'm now at 90 balls out. I am starting to see a real difference. We'll see I guess.

I'll try to do better at coming here more regularly, but isolating & withdrawing is what I do best. Obviously even when I try very hard not to do it. I'm sorry about that.

[Nina Kay]

How are you each doing with your plans to improve your health? I would love to hear from each of you.

[girlontherocks]

Today is day 12 without a binge.

I feel amazing physically, I feel lighter, I can move better.... I even think I'm losing weight! And I'm learning to throw out my old beat-me-up messages in my head. So it's good. It's not easy, I'm scared of falling back into the vicious cycle but that fear is keeping me aware and in the moment which is great.

[liveweyerd]

I've not been keeping up at all.
Also had a med change and then a painful issue and yes, I love to isolate and withdraw.
I was really starting to feel great too! dammit!
But I can pick up the good habits starting now, right?

[Astro]

Originally Posted by Nina Kay

How are you each doing with your plans to improve your health?

My weight loss is still going pretty well, although my issue still seems to be the afternoon and nighttime snacking. It's not that I'm eating the wrong foods, it's just the quantities. Can't seem to have one glass of milk, I have three, etc. etc.

Today I did something highly out of the ordinary, at least for me. I went to the doctor for a physical, first time I've gone in four years. Everything went great, blood pressure looks good, I still have to go back for bloodwork and I need some physical therapy on my right arm, I'm having some muscular pain.

That was good news, I usually psych myself up for the worst!

[girlontherocks]

Live-- All is not lost... Dont give up, this is just temporary remember? There are highs and lows we just have to keep going........

[Nina Kay]

Hey Live, Girl is so right about all that she said. And you are also right. You can pick the good habits back up right now. The change in meds are really bad about throwing things off. I'm sorry that you've gone through something painful on top of it all. I definitely can understand about the withdrawing & isolating, perfectly. Just give yourself a break and give yourself some time to adjust to the new meds and time to get through the painful issue and deal with it properly. Don't be hard on yourself. When we are down and in trouble we need someone, but mostly ourselves, to pamper us and console us. Take care of yourself tenderly and when you're feeling better then you can make better choices. And sometimes making better choices relatively, will help us to feel better sooner. Just small better choices, one at a time.
((((((((((((((((Feel Better Hugs)))))))))))))))))

[Nina Kay]

Hey Girl. I am so proud of you. You're like a breath of fresh air. Thank you so much for sharing with us. That's just wonderful. I'm really happy that you're recognizing those bad & unhealthy self-talk messages and seeing them for what they really are; garbage. That's always been a major problem of mine too. Keep up the great improvements. You are showing that you can do this. You are truly an inspiration of hope.

[Nina Kay]

Hi Astro. I'm so happy to hear that your eating plan is still working so well for you. That's encouraging. Keep it up. I'll bet you feel a whole lot better too. It's awesome that you went to get a check-up and then came out with such good news. That's great.

I'm sorry that you're still having trouble with the snacking quantities. At least you're choosing healthy things to snack on. If you're still losing weight and you're not snacking on the wrong kinds of things, then maybe it ain't broke like you think and so maybe it don't need to be fixed. Just a thought.

[Neagrm]

I am up and down a rocky road, but am going the right direction in general. Mostly because I'm working on letting go of the beating-myself-up thoughts and doing better at quickly returning to healthier ways.

My daily exercise plan is sadly neglected, much difficulty with motivation when feeling tired, but I'm doing more outside and that feels good.

My hormones aren't quite balanced and I'm feeling draggy this morning, but I'm here and won't give up.

Thanks for asking, Nina. Wishing you well.

Nea

[Astro]

Originally Posted by Nina Kay

If you're still losing weight and you're not snacking on the wrong kinds of things, then maybe it ain't broke like you think and so maybe it don't need to be fixed. Just a thought.

I'm just afraid of it being a "slippery slope" and a loss of willpower for me, so I'm trying to maintain some awareness about it.

I ate a healthy breakfast this morning, whole grain cereal with peaches. Then it hit me that I was supposed to be fasting because I went in for bloodwork this morning. Doh! I'll have to go back another day for the cholesterol check.

[liveweyerd]

what a wonderful encouraging group! Thank you for being you and for sharing!

We made homemade "gummies" last night. Diet jello with 1/2 cup boiling water and chill.

I really only had one major chocolate/sugar/junk binge....and being 50 years old with hormones....today I understand that it was the hormonal creepies that got me.

Lost my mojo on the exercise, tho'.....

Basic baby steps, that's me.

[girlontherocks]

thanks nina

so today i am sick. this really sucks because it seems to have thrown me off spiritually... and ive been so busy that working out has taken a back seatt.. and now with my sickliness.. oh well. and now i just ate a whole bag of candy. I'm writing this here so I can stay in the truth.. it's not the end of the world. it is ONE bag of candy. The first binge-like behavior in TWO whole weeks! Not too bad.. I should focus on that.

[Neagrm]

"The first binge-like behavior in two weeks!" You're right; focus on that. I think it's wonderful! And you set a good example for me. The important thing is not to give up; keep working at it and you'll get back to healthier goals, just never give up.

I'm really trying to remember this every day, all the time, instead of abandoning myself when I need it most -- just after I've lost my intention (only temporarily!). We need to keep showing up for ourselves, just like a friend would to cheer us on, accepting us just as we are, yes we are human. We can do it again and gradually changeover into better habits for longer and longer times, or more frequently until it becomes easier.

I needed the pep talk this morning! Thanks :-).
Nea

[Astro]

Originally Posted by liveweyerd

We made homemade "gummies" last night. Diet jello with 1/2 cup boiling water and chill.

Interesting. How'd they taste?

I like the honesty in this thread, you all amaze me.

[Cathy31]

Girl, the first binge like behaviour (and it doesn't sound like a MAJOR binge! ) is GREAT progress. Focus on that as you say, and move forward!!!
Well dnoe
Cathy31
x

[liveweyerd]

LOVED our gummies! Yeah, they get rubbery if you let them sit....but I didn't let that happen much.

Lots of fresh air and sunshine today...loved it!

Still not regulating my schedule well at all, but I am getting more things better gradually and have confidence it will, in time, come together.

[girlontherocks]

Hi guys

Your encouraging words are helping me right now.
I spiraled out into over eating consistently for a period of now... 3 days. I ate like 3 bowls of cereal last night on a full stomach, woke up this morning (missed the meeting) wanting to die. That's what happens with me... When I feel this powerless and hopeless I just want to end it. I feel trapped in my body, I feel alone... Your encouraging words help because I can apply that now too. Hey-- 3 days is better than two whole weeks plus 3 days!!! So today can be day 1 again, that's ok. The thing is I KNOW why I am doing this.. I acted promiscuously and now I think I might be hurting the other person and have been avoiding them but I cant for long... I'm so scared about what I'm going to say! It's like I think that if I eat it will protect me, push him away...

[liveweyerd]

(((((((((((girl)))))))))))))))

Returning to old behaviors is what we all do automatically.......
I have been struggling too......tho' mine is more like being absent from healthy eating and
a return of all the sleep issues etc.

I was very busy, very tired yesterday and had not only coffee but also a huge coca-cola....and caffeine for me is a real no-no.
Result...tho' exhausted and sleep deprived....I could not go to sleep normally....
I had a large vanilla shake, as I had only barely eaten in 2 days..........and then fell asleep and slept and slept and slept.

Woke this afternoon feeling shell-shocked! And with a headache and no energy.

I spent all of yesterday afternoon oustside with a group of kids as we learned and worked on starting our garden project.
Being here today has reminded me to take my vitamins.

Glad ro remember that it is all about the NEXT right step!

[girlontherocks]

I did it again

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah

[liveweyerd]

It's a new day!

Up early ---hoorah!

Eating my oatmeal..no sweetners, next vitamins and meds.....

off to a running start and it feels marvelous!!!!!!!!

I get weighed at the Dr's today and daggonit....it better show some progress! LOL