new and just need to vent

[ineedanangel]

I am new to the eating issues forum. I have actually been talking on the families of alcoholics forum. I am an anorexic/bulemic who is having marriage problems. My husband's drug of choice is alcohol and I can't take it any more. I think I am finally ready to leave the marriage after dealing with these issues for 15 years. My nerves are soooooo bad right now and all I can think of is eating(food is love, don't you know) and eating and then purging. Either that or I know how horrible I will feel once I've eaten everything, so I almost don't trust myself to eat hardly anything. Then I wouldn't feel so horrible/full. I haven't had any of these feelings in years(since having my two kids). Before having my kiddos, it got pretty bad. My weight got to 87 and all I could afford was outpatient(that wonderful insurance coverage). How do I find a happy medium on my eating????? I need to keep a level head while I'm trying to deal with the marriage problems and give my children everything they need.

[Nina Kay]

ineedanangel, I want to Welcome you to the Eating Disorders Forum here at SR. I'm sorry to hear about your marriage problems. Sad to hear that your eating disorder has resurfaced. I don't have any answers for you, except to just try to hold on, even if you have to go at it by just getting through five minutes at a time. You know you can do this because you've been doing this for a while as you've stated. Don't let him win by dragging you down with him.

I hope that you'll keep coming back here often and keep posting your feelings and read as much here on this site as you can. There are some informative stickies at the top of the page of this forum that would be well worth your while to search out and read. I'm glad that you've come here. Keep coming back.

[cali]

I just want to say welcome, and keep posting!