#8 - 100 Day Goal - Abstinance from Obvious Sweets - Want to Join? Please Do!

[Nina Kay]

I need to start back on the count too if I could. It's good to see everyone still coming here. Pony, I'm sorry to hear that you've been in the hospital & had surgery. I want to wish you a speedy recovery. I too, have just learned that I am Pre-Diabetic. Last Wednesday I was told by my Dr. I don't think that I've let it properly sink in yet. I have been Obvious Sweets Free for at least a week now, but I think that my count should just start today, 16th, since this is the day that I've actually made an appearance here. I wish success for each of us.

[smiling jack]

Welcome back, Nina, it's a treat to know that you're back. You've given much to this thread, and have helped me many times with your ES&H

If you don't mind, I'll put you at 3/8/2009. I've taken others when they say their start day/dates is...and I'd like to be consistent with you, too.

Take care all. I want to be OS sober today.


Fubarcdn - 2/17/2009 - 27 Days
Roxie-2/27/09 - 17 Days
Cali-2/28/2009 - 16 Days
Mike - 3/8/2009 -9 Days
Nina - 3/8/2009 - 9 Days
Dave - 3/8/2009 - 9 Days
TigerLil - 3/10/2009 - 7 Days
Pony 3/13/2009 - 4 Days
Jack-3/16/2009 - 1 Day

[Fubarcdn]

F-3 and counting. I can make it.
Does beer count as an OS? I consider it does so if I had a beer I would have to start both my counts over.
I would rather have fudge than beer anyways.
I hope this doesn't offend any of you OS folks. It is just that my wife won't kick me out for having fudge.
I am whipped but not that whipped.

[roxiestone]

Nina Kay, Pony - glad you are here.

Peace.

[Pony]

Thanks for this thread. I am hanging in here. Not posting much right now cause I am uncomfortable sitting up typing.... but am reading and grateful for the support. Still on the mend from surgery so no exercising yet. I am staying on my food plan.

[smiling jack]

Congrats to all for OS sobriety...ES&H...How can I believe I can change others when it is so difficult for me to change myself?

Fubarcdn - 2/17/2009 - 28 Days
Roxie-2/27/09 - 18 Days
Cali-2/28/2009 - 17 Days
Mike - 3/8/2009 -10 Days
Nina - 3/8/2009 - 10 Days
Dave - 3/8/2009 -10 Days
TigerLil - 3/10/2009 - 7 Days
Pony 3/13/2009 - 5 Days
Jack-3/16/2009 - 2 DayS

[Fubarcdn]

Good morning all. I hope everyone is enjoying their coffee with Splenda as I am.
It is F-2 today.
Jack, whayt does the title of the thread mean?
Was the original challenge to be 100 days? I am not ready for that yet but who knows.

[roxiestone]

Good morning, all.

Hanging tough, but I did have a hard time passing up Irish Soda Bread with Kerrygold butter yesterday. It's easier for me to say no to the first serving than it is the second. Damned disordered eating

Peace.

[smiling jack]

The challenge is 100 days. I picked up the idea from a different recovery thread that has the 100 day challenge as one of many different accountablility circles.

The gauntlet can be picked up. Maybe you are ready, Fub!

[cali]

Pony-hope you are feeling better. I feel like I am headed in the pre-diabetic direction too...I am finally scared and I think I had more than enough "signs" lately. I am so afraid of smoking (finally) and I am grateful for that. I made the 3 year mark last week. Food WILL KILL ME if I don't get that same healthy realistic fear going on about what I am doing to myself. I have said it before but it bears repeating-I heard it said to give my addictions up in the order that they will kill me". The drinking was 1st, and is "arrested/remission" today as is the smoking....now the food...I am setting myself up for huge health complications...I don't want to die from______(fill in the blank) the long list of health factors that over-eating/poor eating brings to the table......
Please restart me--today will be my 1st full day without sugar!!

[Nina Kay]

for being so welcoming as to receive me back on the thread so graciously. :ghug I'm still OS free. It's so good to see how well everyone is doing so far with this area of their eating disorders.
Thank you Jack for giving me credit for the week before I came back. Before that I had been on a sweets binge that was out of control, but getting worse everyday. I didn't even seem to care anymore at first, but then I decided that I just didn't want to feel so awful anymore and that sweets just really wasn't worth going through all of this feeling so horrible all of the time. I also felt like I was probably already diabetic, because I felt so bad. Then of course, later I had the appointment when my Dr. told me that I am pre-diabetic. I've had problems with hypoglycemia for years and if you're not careful with it, you can cross the line in to being a diabetic. Of course, I never got it under control, so here I am crossing the threshold into diabetes.
I do so appreciate everyone that is here and so supportive of each other.
I'll keep coming back.

[smiling jack]

I hadn't thought about diabetise. Take care of yourselves.

I felt like a junkie last night...rummaging through the ice box trying to find a fix. I found it. I can be defiant to the very end...I don't need to discipline my late night eating habits....I'll be ok...

I would like to hear from others what you do from ~7PM to bedtime...if you get hungry..then what do you do? Thanks.

Fubarcdn - 2/17/2009 - 29 Days
Roxie-2/27/09 - 19 Days
Mike - 3/8/2009 -11 Days
Nina - 3/8/2009 - 11 Days
Dave - 3/8/2009 -11 Days
TigerLil - 3/10/2009 - 8 Days
Pony 3/13/2009 - 6 Days
Jack-3/19/2009 - Day 1
Cali-3/19/2009 - Day 1

[Fubarcdn]

If I get hungry in the evening I eat either peanuts or popcorn, sometimes with a Coke0, which is sugar free.
F-1 and counting.

[roxiestone]

The truth is, I don't get hungry after dinner. I get bored, I get pissed, I get "deserving", I get rebellious, I get many things, but actual hunger isn't one of them as my meals are enough to satisfy my hunger.

I try the geographic solution - I go to a place in the house that I don't associate with eating. The distraction that I'm trying now is what I call the "me book" - it's my written journal that I go through and add pictures/sayings/slogans that I've seen or cut out from magazines, or printed from my computer. It's both zenlike and an esteem-boosting activity all rolled into one.

Peace.

[cali]

(((((Nina))))) big hugs for you!!

Jack I would ditto what Roxi said. I had a nice well balanced dinner last night-and an apple for dessert. If I stay downstairs, I will subconsciously entertain the thought of "snacking". I can talk myself into believing that i am hungry when in fact I had my meal and I am really fine.

One year ago today I was in NH with my father who was in ICU, slowly slipping away from smoking....he was never able to get the gift of being smoke free and it killed him. I had started this thread up again last Feb 28th 2008. I did not eat any OS's during my father's illness and eventual passing and continued to remain OS free for 6+ months. If I did it then, I can do it now!!!

[dave47]

Good to see so many here, and welcome back Nina and Pony.
Have to be working on 1 for Friday Jack, it was my wife's Birthday a few days ago and eveything slipped.
Congrats with the smoking Cali, I have lost a couple of friends in the last few years due to heart attacks and they were only in their early forties and try to be much more health conscious than I used to be. But sometimes at the sight of a bit of chocolate or cake or ice cream my guard slips, if it were in moderation that would be fine-but that's not the way I am.
Take care all.

[Nina Kay]

I am still OS Free today.

Jack, I certainly understand what you mean about acting like a junkie when looking for an evening snack. I've been there, done that, too many times to count. For me, sometimes I am really hungry, but most of the time, I just want to release myself by eating something and I start out with thinking that I'm hungry, but it's an extreme craving to EAT. I enjoy everything about eating, except for the fallout. I use it to wind down and relax. It's part of "relaxing & resting," for me. It fills me up and helps me to feel like I'm okay. I guess that you can tell that I'm having the same problem as you are, right now.
Anyway, when I did have some success with dealing with this problem, I like Fubar, ate lots of popcorn and drank Diet Pepsi. That worked great back then, but the last few years I couldn't have the popcorn because it drives me into a hypoglycemia attack. Now the Dr. told me that I can't have sodas because they have tons of sodium and it drives my blood pressure up. It's real high and out of control again for some reason.
Other times, I've noticed that it helped alot to go and journal when I had such cravings. I definitely can't let myself go near the kitchen and if none of that works, I make myself go on to bed for the night. It also works to call someone for a distraction. Those are some of the things that have worked for me at times in my struggle.

Cali, I'm sorry that you lost your father a year ago today. I do remember how rough that is. Besides that I lost my brother, that was only 20 months older than me, to lung cancer due to smoking. He was barely 49 yrs old.

[roxiestone]

Wasn't able to follow my own plans yesterday.

Jack, please reboot me.

[cali]

thanks Nina-and I am so sorry about your brother. Actually my dad died on 3/22 but I was with him for about 8 days from 3/15 until he passed away on the 22nd. I am saying this because this whole week has been saturated with memories of everything that has to do with him--from childhood to his death bed.

Dave:
if it were in moderation that would be fine-but that's not the way I am.

Dave that is totally me too!!!

Also it's been on my mind that I used to justify smoking, saying that it was better than drinking or "eating too much"...that's a LIE....I don't want to listen to the lies anymore. I always said I was only an alcoholic but I am an addict plain and simple. Getting my eating under control completes my triangle.

I want to be able to say what Eddie Vedder said at one of his concerts that I have on DVD:

"It's the best life I've ever lived"

[Nina Kay]

Hey Roxie, I hope nothing that I said triggered you. I do sometimes worry about that with my shares. If it did, I am so very sorry. You can do this thing. I know this because you have done it before.

Thank you Cali. I also lost my Daddy to extreme emphysema and heart disease after years of suffering for him. He died 11 years ago and I still go through the memories thing you're talking about. He was my hero all of my life and I took it for granted that he was invincible. He wasn't. I miss him desperately. It doesn't ever get much easier, you just get a little more used to it, I guess. His was also due to smoking and working hard labor all of his life. I believe that nicotine was all in his veins that caused all of the gunk he breathed while working hard to clog up his arteries and cause his heart disease. Strokes, heart attacks, etc. Smoking caused him to have the serious lung disease for sure and both organs finally gave out one day at the same time. There were many years before that when we were told he was going to die. His little brother died at 36 from lung cancer caused from smoking also.

[roxiestone]

Oh, Nina Kay, you didn't trigger me at all. It was my own crosspatchedness that just reared up and slapped me upside the head. No one's fault but my own.

I'm doing better and trying to learn from each step and slip.

Peace.

[smiling jack]

I didn't get here til 7PM Chicago time...so if I missed on the list, please let me know. Congrats, Fub, on reaching your 30 day goal. You've added a lot in your posts and I hope you continue to stick around regardless of your OS plans. My thoughts go to all who post...knowing we all have struggles beyond OS...believing we are all doing the best we can to lead better lives in recovery.

I enjoy everyones' ES&H. I talked to a friend who is addicted to gambling. He put a couple "affordable to him" bets on the NCAA Basketball Tournament. He doesn't feel good about it...he owns up to it...he is not taking money that the family needs...but he is not happy with himself for not being continuously sober.

Today, my opinion is the OS addiction is similar. I will try to manage this addiction. I cannot manage it by myself. I do not trust my rigorous self-honesty. I need to come here and own-up to my struggle...and receive your ES&H. I believe this helps me manage this addiction, even if I don't ever achieve the 100 days. It is about progress...I find out more about myself and others...and I am willing to keep coming back.

FYI, I will be out of town 3/22-3/29. I hope to have internet access, but if someone would take up the list from this Sunday to next Sunday, I'll take it when I get back. Thanks to all.

Fubarcdn - 2/17/2009 - 30 Days
Mike - 3/8/2009 -12 Days
Nina - 3/8/2009 - 12 Days
TigerLil - 3/10/2009 - 9 Days
Pony 3/13/2009 - 7 Days
Jack-3/19/2009 - 1 Day
Cali-3/19/2009 - 1 Day
Roxie-3/20/09 - Day 1
Dave - 3/20/2009 -Day 1

[Fubarcdn]

Well I will be away tomorrow but I will be back on Sunday at day 1 again.
I am going to start a new challenge for myself but it won't be a 100 day one just yet since my birthday is coming up and my daughter-in-law, the chef, is making a special dinner for me.
When I check in Sunday if nobody else is doing the chart I will take it over for the week.
Have a good break Jack.
Is it going to be an OS free break?

[smiling jack]

Truthfully, Fub, I don't try to deal in too many tomorrows. I haven't started packing. I am reminded that no one is guaranteed tomorrow...but... I do buy milk by the gallon.

I will try to take care of today. As of Saturday, 3/21 the list is:

Fubarcdn - 2/17/2009 - 31 Days
Mike - 3/8/2009 -13 Days
Nina - 3/8/2009 - 13 Days
TigerLil - 3/10/2009 - 11 Days
Pony 3/13/2009 - 8 Days
Jack-3/19/2009 - 2 Days
Cali-3/19/2009 - 2 Days
Roxie-3/20/09 - 1 Day
Dave - 3/20/2009 -1 Day

[dave47]

Went to a family party yesterday and steered clear of anything sweet, so that's two days free.
I went out for a run this morning and will try to behave today as well,
best wishes all.