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roxiestone · 01-30-2009, 10:32 AM

Way to go, Jack. My partner's daughter goes to school in Chicago - I know it's been a brutal winter there.

My restart date is 1/29/09, so today I have one day under my "belt".

Just for today I will make healthful decisions that enhance my life. Choosing to live and eat in abstinance allows me to live in abundance. It is not deprivation. The things that I choose to let go of are not good for me in mind nor body. Just for today, like others here, I will pass. I will live in the moment, even if in some cases, that moment is uncomfortable.

My sincere gratitute to all who post here.

Peace.

smiling jack · 01-31-2009, 05:13 AM

I want to be sober in all areas of my life today. I am happier, overall, with me when I am OS sober. I can convince myself that warm fragrent sweets will make me happier than being sober. But the consequences will always be that I feel bad because I cannot stop at one or two.

I want to healthy in all areas of my life today. My addictions tell that they are the way to happiness...and sometimes I absolutely believe what I tell myself.

Addictions are not the way for me to find happiness. It is in my rational self-interest to find happiness in sobriety.

smiling jack · 01-31-2009, 11:40 PM

It's after midnight in Chicago, so I am going to post for Sunday. I was waiting to be served cake at a family birthday...and I passed it the piece...and waited for one of my own...but it didn't come. So, I will take another 24 hours, though I was very willing to have a piece of cake just to be like everyone else at the party, I guess.

cali · 02-01-2009, 03:25 AM

Completed 24 hours as of the end of 1/31/2009:

Roxie-1/30/09 2 days
Dave-1/30/09 2 days
Jack-1/24/09 7 days
Cali-1/30/09 2 days

Ananda
Cheese
GG
Nina
Mike
Pony
Spacecat
Others

I really got a lot of what you two posted Jack+Rox over the past couple of days. Thanks so much. I am making a commitment to walk hopefully once a day to start-at least 4x a week. I was going that in the summer, before my reunion, and I felt great. I see now that I had a "contained" goal....I wanted to reach it for a specific reason, and I had...however I did not mantain it and like anything else, if it's not maintained it wears down eventually.

Now don't laugh, but I got the "Dr. Phill" 7 keys to weight loss on CD from the library. There is some pretty powerful stuff on it. I need that constant positive reinforcement at least to start and get back on track. It really IS all in my power and my choice. I had an awesome food day yesterday-I went shopping at the grocery store and bought NOTHING junky then went to that orchard market and found tons of fresh fruits and veggies. I went to work yesterday and cleaned out my desk.
I don't want to have a heart attack. I want to live!!!!

smiling jack · 02-02-2009, 05:00 AM

Oops.

smiling jack · 02-02-2009, 05:04 AM

Today is Day 9. "No, thanks." to offers. Look away from sightings. Cravings will pass if I am patient enough to let them pass. I can control my second thought.

It is in my rational self-interest to be OS sober today. I have a good program. When I am resentful, I can rely on my program not to give in to my addictions.

I can come here. I can work with others who are trying to get better, like me.

The truth is, I want to healthy in all areas of my life today. My addictions tell that they are the way to happiness...and sometimes I absolutely believe what they say.

The truth is it takes strength, that I sometimes don't have, to want to be OS sober. Take care all.

roxiestone · 02-02-2009, 07:15 AM

Good Morning.

I had a successful weekend. It seems that my weekends have been my downfall recently. I had been slipping into "sneaking" behaviors. When my partner would walk over to the neighbors for a chat, I'd hit the Food. Not a good thing.

So this weekend, I put a plan in place to go to my yoga/mediation space every time he left. Soon, I'd find myself reading and the urge would pass. I am grateful to have survived a weekend with no disordered eating.

My thanks to all who post here.

Peace.

cali · 02-02-2009, 11:02 AM

Completed 24 hours as of the end of 2/1/2009:

Roxie-1/30/09 3 days
Dave-1/30/09 3 days
Jack-1/24/09 8 days
Cali-2/2/2009 working on day 1

Ananda
Cheese
GG
Nina
Mike
Pony
Spacecat
Others

nothing changes if nothing changes. I am glad I have kept coming back however this is simply rediculous. I have to move forward and just say NO! when it comes my way.

GoldenGutters · 02-02-2009, 07:45 PM

I'll give her another go too.

smiling jack · 02-03-2009, 03:11 AM

Great to read your posts! I am trying to refine what makes sense to me. I am grateful to come here in Chicago's wintry early AM.

Today is Day 10. "No, thanks." to offers. Look away from unhealthy sightings. Cravings pass when I'm patient. I can control my second thought and my first action.

It is in my rational self-interest to be OS sober today. I have a good program. When I am resentful, I can rely on my program not to give in to my addictions.

I can come here. I can work with others who are trying to get better, like me.

The truth is, I want to healthy in all areas of my life today. My addictions tell that they are the way to happiness...and sometimes I absolutely believe what my addictions say.

The truth is recovery takes huge strength, that I sometimes don't have, to want to be OS sober. Take care all.

cali · 02-03-2009, 04:20 AM

Good to see you GG! Glad you're back. I don't feel worthy to do the count because I keep choosing insanity. I won't walk away now though...I can't...that's the old "MO". I am here this morning to take responsibility for my actions, as being part of this count. I have about 10 hours right now.

Completed 24 hours as of the end of 2/2/2009:

GG-2/2/09 1 day
Roxie-1/30/09 4 days
Dave-1/30/09 4 days
Jack-1/24/09 9 days
Cali-2/3/2009 working on day 1

Ananda
Cheese
Nina
Mike
Pony
Spacecat
Others

roxiestone · 02-03-2009, 07:46 AM

Cali, thank you very much for your service. GG, glad you are here.

I'm choosing sanity today. Please join me.

Peace.

cali · 02-03-2009, 08:11 AM

This morning is going very well-I had a protein shake to start the day. I am trying to "shut off" the internal negative chatter in my head the second it starts.
I absolutely can do this. I have to be prepared and plan for the day as far as meals etc. Today is planned through dinner!!

GoldenGutters · 02-03-2009, 08:09 PM

I'm back to working on one. I did really good until I got home from work today and ate my partners leftover oat meal that he loads with sugar which started my cravings. It wasn't a total binge out so I'm not sitting here feeling like a total hypoglycemic mood swinging cow.

Anyways, I'm ready to try again!

smiling jack · 02-04-2009, 05:36 AM

a sober day yesterday...but difficult now. Was in a flow yesterday...felt like all the stop lights turned green as I approached...people were there who I was supposed to see...people listened when I spoke.

I don't feel the same today. I will need my program to stay sober.

roxiestone · 02-04-2009, 06:59 AM

Today I am in "people pleasing" mode. Last night I defined my feelings/boundaries with my partner and he was hurt/disappointed. As a codependent, I'm struggling today with the uncomfortableness of it all and food, in the past, has been my DOC push back the feelings and provide comfort.

Today I will just sit with these feelings. I do not have to take action to try to stop them. Feeling uncomfortable won't kill me. I will learn and grow stronger from these situations.

Today I will defend my boundaries and I will sit in the uncomfortableness of the feelings. I will recognize the feelings for what they are.

I wish us all peace.

cali · 02-04-2009, 10:25 AM

Completed 24 hours as of the end of 2/3/2009:

GG-2/4/09 working on day 1
Roxie-1/30/09 5 days
Dave-1/30/09 5 days
Jack-1/24/09 10 days
Cali-2/4/2009 working on day 1

Ananda
Cheese
Nina
Mike
Pony
Spacecat
Others

cali · 02-04-2009, 10:31 AM

I packed all the right food for work today. I have to look at harmful foods the same way I do alcohol and cigarettes.

I don't drink "no matter what".
I don't smoke "no matter what".
I don't eat harmful foods "no matter what".

despite eating something yet again last night that I shouldn't have, I am amazingly optimistic!! The cd's are helping. At every turn, I have to look at "me" and my choices, period. At the end of the day, I either did, or didn't.

I really have to fight for my OS sobriety.
I know that I am WORTH IT!!!!!

cali · 02-05-2009, 03:42 AM

Completed 24 hours as of the end of 2/4/2009:

GG-2/4/09 1 day
Roxie-1/30/09 6 days
Dave-1/30/09 6 days
Jack-1/24/09 11 days
Cali-2/4/2009 1 day

Ananda
Cheese
Nina
Mike
Pony
Spacecat
Others

cali · 02-05-2009, 03:47 AM

I did very well yesterday-last night, I planned out and prepared my food for today and tomorrow at work. I won't buy icecream for the little ones anymore-because it's never really all for them. If I don't buy it I can't eat it!!! I am learning how to do things differently not just for a quick weightloss, but for a commitment to fuel myself properly for overall health and wellness. I want that today.

I don't drink "no matter what".
I don't smoke "no matter what".
I don't eat harmful foods "no matter what".

smiling jack · 02-05-2009, 06:24 AM

Today is another day. "No, thanks.". Look away. Cravings will pass. I can control my second thought and my first action.

It is in my rational self-interest to be OS sober today. I have a good program. When my character defects are starting, I can rely on my program not to give in to my addictions.

I can come here. I can work with others who are trying to get better, like me.

The truth is, I want to healthy in all areas of my life today. My addictions will tell that they are the way to happiness. I don't have to believe my addictions' lies.

The truth is it takes strength, that I sometimes don't have, to want to be OS sober. Take care all.

cali · 02-05-2009, 09:45 AM

I feel hungry a lot-it's going to take time to "reprogram" my self in general-mentally and metabolically. Jack I relate to two things you said big time:

Quote:

My addictions will tell that they are the way to happiness. I don't have to believe my addictions' lies.

I will get past this as long as I don't pick up. Sugar detox isn't fun and the cravings can be brutal-but I won't listen to "the lies" either!!

Quote:

The truth is it takes strength, that I sometimes don't have, to want to be OS sober

Yes it does!!!

GoldenGutters · 02-05-2009, 07:53 PM

I'm going to bed so that makes two full days without!

roxiestone · 02-06-2009, 07:12 AM

In preparation for the weekend, which is always my most difficult time, I will make a list of five actions/activities to take when I get hit with the urge to eat in a disordered fashion.

1. If left home alone, I will go to "my space" and read, plug into my ipod, journal or do some yoga.
2. I will work on my curtains.
3. I will wash my car.
4. I will organize the bookshelf.
5. I will fold clothes.

Thanks to all who share here.

Peace.

smiling jack · 02-06-2009, 07:43 AM

Yesterday was another OS and other addictions sober day. But, my character defects are lurking as I am letting the first character defect thought become a second and third thought. I have stopped at that...but it is like a slippery slope...

In the past, I liked to think life was OK on the slippery slopes. I was like a tightrope walker who loved the thrill of going across the wire over a river of alligators...and so far had only lost one leg and one hand.

The thrill now can be sobriety...sanity...and serenity. For now, "No, thanks." Look away. Cravings will pass. Take care all.

02-01-2009, 03:25 AM	#54 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,116	Completed 24 hours as of the end of 1/31/2009: Roxie-1/30/09 2 days Dave-1/30/09 2 days Jack-1/24/09 7 days Cali-1/30/09 2 days Ananda Cheese GG Nina Mike Pony Spacecat Others I really got a lot of what you two posted Jack+Rox over the past couple of days. Thanks so much. I am making a commitment to walk hopefully once a day to start-at least 4x a week. I was going that in the summer, before my reunion, and I felt great. I see now that I had a "contained" goal....I wanted to reach it for a specific reason, and I had...however I did not mantain it and like anything else, if it's not maintained it wears down eventually. Now don't laugh, but I got the "Dr. Phill" 7 keys to weight loss on CD from the library. There is some pretty powerful stuff on it. I need that constant positive reinforcement at least to start and get back on track. It really IS all in my power and my choice. I had an awesome food day yesterday-I went shopping at the grocery store and bought NOTHING junky then went to that orchard market and found tons of fresh fruits and veggies. I went to work yesterday and cleaned out my desk. I don't want to have a heart attack. I want to live!!!! __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!

02-02-2009, 11:02 AM	#58 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,116	Completed 24 hours as of the end of 2/1/2009: Roxie-1/30/09 3 days Dave-1/30/09 3 days Jack-1/24/09 8 days Cali-2/2/2009 working on day 1 Ananda Cheese GG Nina Mike Pony Spacecat Others nothing changes if nothing changes. I am glad I have kept coming back however this is simply rediculous. I have to move forward and just say NO! when it comes my way. __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!

02-02-2009, 07:45 PM	#59 (permalink)
GoldenGutters less hippo, more rabbit Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Concord, CA Posts: 1,809 Blog Entries: 1	I'll give her another go too. __________________ 99% Bonobo, 1% trouble

02-03-2009, 04:20 AM	#61 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,116	Good to see you GG! Glad you're back. I don't feel worthy to do the count because I keep choosing insanity. I won't walk away now though...I can't...that's the old "MO". I am here this morning to take responsibility for my actions, as being part of this count. I have about 10 hours right now. Completed 24 hours as of the end of 2/2/2009: GG-2/2/09 1 day Roxie-1/30/09 4 days Dave-1/30/09 4 days Jack-1/24/09 9 days Cali-2/3/2009 working on day 1 Ananda Cheese Nina Mike Pony Spacecat Others __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!

02-03-2009, 08:11 AM	#63 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,116	This morning is going very well-I had a protein shake to start the day. I am trying to "shut off" the internal negative chatter in my head the second it starts. I absolutely can do this. I have to be prepared and plan for the day as far as meals etc. Today is planned through dinner!! __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!

01-30-2009, 10:32 AM	#51 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 626	Way to go, Jack. My partner's daughter goes to school in Chicago - I know it's been a brutal winter there. My restart date is 1/29/09, so today I have one day under my "belt". Just for today I will make healthful decisions that enhance my life. Choosing to live and eat in abstinance allows me to live in abundance. It is not deprivation. The things that I choose to let go of are not good for me in mind nor body. Just for today, like others here, I will pass. I will live in the moment, even if in some cases, that moment is uncomfortable. My sincere gratitute to all who post here. Peace.

01-31-2009, 05:13 AM	#52 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 1,256	I want to be sober in all areas of my life today. I am happier, overall, with me when I am OS sober. I can convince myself that warm fragrent sweets will make me happier than being sober. But the consequences will always be that I feel bad because I cannot stop at one or two. I want to healthy in all areas of my life today. My addictions tell that they are the way to happiness...and sometimes I absolutely believe what I tell myself. Addictions are not the way for me to find happiness. It is in my rational self-interest to find happiness in sobriety.

01-31-2009, 11:40 PM	#53 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 1,256	It's after midnight in Chicago, so I am going to post for Sunday. I was waiting to be served cake at a family birthday...and I passed it the piece...and waited for one of my own...but it didn't come. So, I will take another 24 hours, though I was very willing to have a piece of cake just to be like everyone else at the party, I guess.

02-02-2009, 05:00 AM	#55 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 1,256	Oops.

02-02-2009, 05:04 AM	#56 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 1,256	Today is Day 9. "No, thanks." to offers. Look away from sightings. Cravings will pass if I am patient enough to let them pass. I can control my second thought. It is in my rational self-interest to be OS sober today. I have a good program. When I am resentful, I can rely on my program not to give in to my addictions. I can come here. I can work with others who are trying to get better, like me. The truth is, I want to healthy in all areas of my life today. My addictions tell that they are the way to happiness...and sometimes I absolutely believe what they say. The truth is it takes strength, that I sometimes don't have, to want to be OS sober. Take care all.

02-02-2009, 07:15 AM	#57 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 626	Good Morning. I had a successful weekend. It seems that my weekends have been my downfall recently. I had been slipping into "sneaking" behaviors. When my partner would walk over to the neighbors for a chat, I'd hit the Food. Not a good thing. So this weekend, I put a plan in place to go to my yoga/mediation space every time he left. Soon, I'd find myself reading and the urge would pass. I am grateful to have survived a weekend with no disordered eating. My thanks to all who post here. Peace.

02-03-2009, 03:11 AM	#60 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 1,256	Great to read your posts! I am trying to refine what makes sense to me. I am grateful to come here in Chicago's wintry early AM. Today is Day 10. "No, thanks." to offers. Look away from unhealthy sightings. Cravings pass when I'm patient. I can control my second thought and my first action. It is in my rational self-interest to be OS sober today. I have a good program. When I am resentful, I can rely on my program not to give in to my addictions. I can come here. I can work with others who are trying to get better, like me. The truth is, I want to healthy in all areas of my life today. My addictions tell that they are the way to happiness...and sometimes I absolutely believe what my addictions say. The truth is recovery takes huge strength, that I sometimes don't have, to want to be OS sober. Take care all.

02-03-2009, 07:46 AM	#62 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 626	Cali, thank you very much for your service. GG, glad you are here. I'm choosing sanity today. Please join me. Peace.

02-03-2009, 08:09 PM	#64 (permalink)
GoldenGutters less hippo, more rabbit Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Concord, CA Posts: 1,809 Blog Entries: 1	I'm back to working on one. I did really good until I got home from work today and ate my partners leftover oat meal that he loads with sugar which started my cravings. It wasn't a total binge out so I'm not sitting here feeling like a total hypoglycemic mood swinging cow. Anyways, I'm ready to try again! __________________ 99% Bonobo, 1% trouble

02-04-2009, 05:36 AM	#65 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 1,256	a sober day yesterday...but difficult now. Was in a flow yesterday...felt like all the stop lights turned green as I approached...people were there who I was supposed to see...people listened when I spoke. I don't feel the same today. I will need my program to stay sober.

02-04-2009, 06:59 AM	#66 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 626	Today I am in "people pleasing" mode. Last night I defined my feelings/boundaries with my partner and he was hurt/disappointed. As a codependent, I'm struggling today with the uncomfortableness of it all and food, in the past, has been my DOC push back the feelings and provide comfort. Today I will just sit with these feelings. I do not have to take action to try to stop them. Feeling uncomfortable won't kill me. I will learn and grow stronger from these situations. Today I will defend my boundaries and I will sit in the uncomfortableness of the feelings. I will recognize the feelings for what they are. I wish us all peace.

02-04-2009, 10:25 AM	#67 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,116	Completed 24 hours as of the end of 2/3/2009: GG-2/4/09 working on day 1 Roxie-1/30/09 5 days Dave-1/30/09 5 days Jack-1/24/09 10 days Cali-2/4/2009 working on day 1 Ananda Cheese Nina Mike Pony Spacecat Others __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!

02-04-2009, 10:31 AM	#68 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,116	I packed all the right food for work today. I have to look at harmful foods the same way I do alcohol and cigarettes. I don't drink "no matter what". I don't smoke "no matter what". I don't eat harmful foods "no matter what". despite eating something yet again last night that I shouldn't have, I am amazingly optimistic!! The cd's are helping. At every turn, I have to look at "me" and my choices, period. At the end of the day, I either did, or didn't. I really have to fight for my OS sobriety. I know that I am WORTH IT!!!!! __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!

02-05-2009, 03:42 AM	#69 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,116	Completed 24 hours as of the end of 2/4/2009: GG-2/4/09 1 day Roxie-1/30/09 6 days Dave-1/30/09 6 days Jack-1/24/09 11 days Cali-2/4/2009 1 day Ananda Cheese Nina Mike Pony Spacecat Others __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!

02-05-2009, 03:47 AM	#70 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,116	I did very well yesterday-last night, I planned out and prepared my food for today and tomorrow at work. I won't buy icecream for the little ones anymore-because it's never really all for them. If I don't buy it I can't eat it!!! I am learning how to do things differently not just for a quick weightloss, but for a commitment to fuel myself properly for overall health and wellness. I want that today. I don't drink "no matter what". I don't smoke "no matter what". I don't eat harmful foods "no matter what". __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!

02-05-2009, 06:24 AM	#71 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 1,256	Today is another day. "No, thanks.". Look away. Cravings will pass. I can control my second thought and my first action. It is in my rational self-interest to be OS sober today. I have a good program. When my character defects are starting, I can rely on my program not to give in to my addictions. I can come here. I can work with others who are trying to get better, like me. The truth is, I want to healthy in all areas of my life today. My addictions will tell that they are the way to happiness. I don't have to believe my addictions' lies. The truth is it takes strength, that I sometimes don't have, to want to be OS sober. Take care all.

02-05-2009, 07:53 PM	#73 (permalink)
GoldenGutters less hippo, more rabbit Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Concord, CA Posts: 1,809 Blog Entries: 1	I'm going to bed so that makes two full days without! __________________ 99% Bonobo, 1% trouble

02-06-2009, 07:12 AM	#74 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 626	In preparation for the weekend, which is always my most difficult time, I will make a list of five actions/activities to take when I get hit with the urge to eat in a disordered fashion. 1. If left home alone, I will go to "my space" and read, plug into my ipod, journal or do some yoga. 2. I will work on my curtains. 3. I will wash my car. 4. I will organize the bookshelf. 5. I will fold clothes. Thanks to all who share here. Peace.

02-06-2009, 07:43 AM	#75 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 1,256	Yesterday was another OS and other addictions sober day. But, my character defects are lurking as I am letting the first character defect thought become a second and third thought. I have stopped at that...but it is like a slippery slope... In the past, I liked to think life was OK on the slippery slopes. I was like a tightrope walker who loved the thrill of going across the wire over a river of alligators...and so far had only lost one leg and one hand. The thrill now can be sobriety...sanity...and serenity. For now, "No, thanks." Look away. Cravings will pass. Take care all.

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