I just don't want to eat

[missy123]

So basically I have admitted to being an alcoholic. I don't drink everyday, just unbelievable amounts on the weekends really.

But now...I guess I'm becoming sober....I just don't want to eat. That's all I seem to focus on. I'm thinking about it and planning things around it and being secretive.

I eat my evening meal with my husband but there is nothing during the day. I wish I didn't have to eat at night. I want to get smaller and smaller and disappear.

I feel like if I do this then things might get better. It's really stupid. Because how can they get better if I get sick.

I hate food at the moment. I don't want anything in my body.

[mxchaos]

Wow do I know that feeling.

Wish I had some good advice but I don't. When my life feels out of control I starve myself but the thing is the more I starve myself the worse I feel. I'm currently working with a therapist and my GP on living a healthy life. Anorexia has me a step away from a feeding tube and a hospital stay not to mention my body weight is dangerously low and I'm malnourished.

I don't know where I'm going with any of this. I do know that I'm a drunk with sober time, an anorexic and a have bipolar. Life is unpredictable but a healthy life is one that I choose to work towards. I have great days and I have days that I struggle that's ok because they are much better than the days I drank till I blacked out.

Take one day at a time and choose the healthy way
good luck