#7 100Day Goal - Abstainance from Obvious Sweets - Want to Join? Please Do!

[smiling jack]

Another day of gratitude for not pigging out on sweets...and another 19+ hours today to show myself the resolve that abstaining from OS's today is the only way for me to manage this part of my addictive personality.

Take care all.

Dave* - 11/11 - 8 Days
Nina -11/16 - 3 Days
Ananda - 11/16 - 3 Days
Cali - 11/16 -3 Days
Jack - 11/16 - 3 Days
GG - 11/17 - 2 Days
Rox - 11/17 - 2 Days
Pony - 11/
Others - 11/

[ananda]

Still got a clean record here....I am trying to keep it simply choice to choice instead of beating myself up over all the wrong ones i make...and I see improvement going on right now.

[roxiestone]

I'm having difficulties getting restarted, so I'm back to day one today. Yesterday, by way of appreciation, someone brought me a pound (or more) of handmade sweets, of my personal favorite variety. I sampled. And then I passed along the rest of them to others. So while I violated the OS ban yesterday, in the past my behavior would have been to horde and hide the stash to binge on by myself and in private. So I'm considering this damn near a victory .

I know and accept that I do better completely OS-free, but I'm okay with my choice to sample and share.

[ananda]

I get that roxie.....I turned down OS today and made it another day, but I did get asked what kind of cake I wanted next week...chocolate or white and i gave an answer.

Not good...but I'll deal with it when the day comes.

If I eat something OS and stop immediately I've still done well...of course the problem is I can't always do that once I taste that sugary gooey good stuff...

I'll do what I can.

[Nina Kay]

I am also still OS free. So far, so good. I also have been wondering how Dave is doing. I do hope that he's okay. Maybe he'll be back soon. Way to go, Ananda & Jack. You're right Roxie, about the difference in how you are responding to sweets now, being so different than your usual response, being a very important VICTORY !!!! Progress, not perfection. You will and we will keep on improving steadily, if we just keep getting up and trying again, instead of throwing in the towel. Let's just keep coming back here and sharing our struggles with each other. Complete abstinence is best for me too, Ananda. It seems as soon as I touch something sweet to my tastebuds, it like reawakens the ugly beast within me and I have so, so, so much trouble reining it in once again. I would like to be able to steer clear of any & all OS, because I'm afraid that one of these times, I might not be able to reign the beast in again.

[smiling jack]

Ananda, Rox and Nina - What you have written is very, very true. It is a victory not to eat the whole OS...but I also can't reward myself like I can when I abstain. Sooner or later I will lose the victory of moderation and wind up going overboard...pigging out...eating one after another...eating out of the container instead of putting a couple scoops on a plate...starting with one taste and not ending until the box is empty.

I am copying what I wrote yesterday below...because I can't think of anything better to say today...except I am missing Dave also.

Another day of gratitude for not pigging out on sweets...and another 19+ hours today to show myself the resolve that abstaining from OS's today is the only way for me to manage this part of my addictive personality.

Take care all.

Dave* - 11/11 - 9 Days
Nina -11/16 - 4 Days
Ananda - 11/16 - 4 Days
Cali - 11/16 -4 Days
Jack - 11/16 - 4 Days
GG - 11/17 - 3 Days
Rox - 11/19 - 1 Day
Pony - 11/
Others - 11/

[spacecat77]

Hi,

Thanks for this thread! I found it just at the right time. I've been struggling with OS since I gave up drinking over 18 months ago. In the last few days I've stopped so am now on day 4 (although I am on holiday next week - eeek). I can eat a whole tub of Ben & Jerry's in one sitting on a bad day. Disgusting.
Do you think OS is a particular issue for people with other addiction problems? I'd be really interested to hear your thoughts and perspectives on it.
Thanks and well done everyone for your abstinence.

[Nina Kay]

Welcome spacecat. I hope that you come back here really often to share and let us get to know you better.

[smiling jack]

Dave, Ananda, Cali, Nina and me congratulations on having 10 and 5 days straight of no OS's respectively. The chips have been earned # and *

Ground Control to Spacecat - Welcome - we're glad you found our little group! We hope you find what you need to have a happy, joyous and free life. We are on the life raft from the Titanic...and at least we are off that sinking ship.

Some, but not all of us, are in AA. But, like you, I can eat a tub of frozen macadamian nut cookie dough before anyone else gets to bake cookies....which I can "hoover down" while others are happy with one or two. It's that feeling of shame and guilt over my OS eating habits that got me here. I have had some long stretches of OS abstinance...and times like now when getting a few days together is a helluva accomplishment.

Please tells us about yourself and keep coming back!

To be current, yesterday, I have another day of gratitude for not pigging out on sweets...and another 19+ hours today to show myself the resolve that abstaining from OS's today is the only way for me to manage this part of my addictive personality.

Take care all.

Dave# - 11/11 - 10 Days
Nina* -11/16 - 5 Days
Ananda* - 11/16 - 5 Days
Cali* - 11/16 -5 Days
Jack* - 11/16 - 5 Days
GG - 11/17 - 4 Days
Spacecat - 11/17 - 4 Days
Rox - 11/19 - 2 Days
Pony - 11/
Others - 11/

[dave47]

Thanks for your concern Jack and Nina, kind of you to think of me.
Slipped up again and today I am working on two days. I seem to have a good few days and then once the thought enters my head the dirty deed is virtually done. I think before I had weight to lose and that that was a big incentive, whereas this time I am telling myself to eat healthy but slipping up on occasion. Like others, if I didn't eat much of it, it wouldn't be a problem -sometimes I do however.
Welcome Spacecat, congrats on putting together a few days and on your 18 months without alcohol( I am at 14 months).
I can't speak for other people, but I think my two addictions are alcohol and OS. That voice that tells me it is okay to drink has been silent for a long while, although I know it still lurks. The voice that says it is okay to eat OS is quite prominent at the moment.
I have heard that some people develop a sweet tooth on quitting alcohol, must be the lack of sugar.Plus many people do have multi addictions, and transfer addictions.
As for the Ben and Jerrys- done that a few times, usually after polishing off a super size pizza!
Anyway, best wishes to all- it's turned a bit chilly over here today.

[spacecat77]

Thank you for the welcome Dave, Nina Kay & Smiling Jack and for sharing. It's really encouraging.
I was viewing myself as weak and beating myself up about this. It feels very related to my drinking as I got out of control with OS pretty much when I quit. Replacing one drug with another I suppose...
I know that when I am in control of OS, I feel healthier and happier. It's great to find some other people to support and be supportive with on this topic. Thank you!

[roxiestone]

I'm struggling to maintain my OS-freedom.

Here's to a good weekend for us all.

[cali]

Jack-I will have to come off the list. Today, so far, I actually have been os free. If I can string some OS-free time together I will come back and say so. Until then please leave me blank as far as time but still on the list if that's ok.

Sorry for all the flip flopping. I did make it to my two year sober mark though-so that I am happy about!

[Pony]

Hey everyone.... sorry I haven't check in for a while. I have had some family challanges here at home which left no time for me to be online. Part of it has been resolved so I should be around more often.

You will have to put me back at day one on the count.

[smiling jack]

Congratulations to GG and Spacecat for making 5 days continuous!!!! Here's your 5 day chip!! * It's terrific that you shared your experience, strength and hope!

Dave, it's great to read your post. Slips are OK because we are still making progress ...progress...progress. When I am so tempted...and on the occassions that I can walk away...I feel really good about myself. And when I slip...I feel a little lost...but all it takes for me to get right sized again is to come back and share. Thank you for being here.

I think my motivation before was just trying to get some control over the craziness of pigging out...now...the craziness is much less because I have strung a few days together...and I know I can come back here.

Cali, you have offered so much on this thread...you and everyone has been in my thoughts...even when I am not posting. There is always a seat for you in this thread or life boat or what ever it is. The same with you, Pony. I cannot do stay sober by myself.

Rox, everyone...thanks for posting. It helps me know that I am not alone in this.

Nina* -11/16 - 6 Days
Ananda* - 11/16 - 6 Days
Jack* - 11/16 - 6 Days
GG* - 11/17 - 5 Days
Spacecat* - 11/17 - 5 Days
Rox - 11/19 - 3 Days
Dave - 11/20 - 2 Days
Pony - 11/22 - Day 1
Cali - 11/
Others - 11/

[ananda]

I ate os yesterday...a binge really.

So far today I'm ok.

so today IS going to be day one.

Birthday nite tongiht, but I will make it somehow.

[dave47]

Thanks for the posts and hang in there all.
Congrats on your two years Cali, are you expected to bring in cakes etc.. to your home group? With the OS we will get some form of satisfaction one way or another, keep coming back.
Good to hear from you Pony, best wishes Rox, Nina, Ananda. Sounds like you are doing much better than you realise Spacecat, good to have you here.
Jack, I always have great time for you, and thank you for this thread.
Good day today, I want to get out for a run in the morning even though they forecast rain and snow. It is absolutely freezing so all I will have to do is emerge from under the duvet-we will see.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANANDA, hope you have a great day.

[smiling jack]

Congrats, Cali, I am sorry that I didn't pick up immediately on your two years sober in AA...for me, without AA...I wouldn't be here in the first place...Instead, I would be denying I have a food problem...I would be blaming others for causing me these problems...I would find fellowship with other practicing food addicts and be learning from them...

I wouldn't have learned how to enjoy exercise...I could go on and on...I appreciate so very much what others write, because it brings me around to places I need to go, that I wouldn't by myself.

Dave...it's a special time when one has the willingness to endure the sh*tty weather and get out there anyway...I've had that willingness and done it...but the willingness isn't permanent for me...enjoy the now...BTW, what is "emerging from under the duvat?"

Space...my shrink (who is also in AA) says food issues are different from alcohol issues...as are other addictions. Changing from food addiction is more of effecting a process...since one so often needs something to eat...than "simply" abstaining from booze and/or drugs.

Rox, Pony, GG and Ananda...thanks for being here. You mean a lot to me. I look forward each day to being here...taking small steps to work a program that I will never finish as long as I live...but I need to work my daily recovery program to have any soberity, sanity or serenity.

Take care all.

Nina* -11/16 - 7 Days
Jack* - 11/16 - 7 Days
GG* - 11/17 - 6 Days
Spacecat* - 11/17 - 6 Days
Rox - 11/19 - 4 Days
Dave - 11/20 - 3 Days
Pony - 11/22 - 1 Day
Ananda - 11/22 - 1 Day
Cali - 11/
Others - 11/

[ananda]

I meant my AA groups bd nite...not mine but thanks


I made it through bd nite without eating the cake or the pie, but then blew it today.

feel a little like a looser but I will get up and try again!!!

[roxiestone]

Checking in on Monday morning. Did okay OS-wise over the weekend, but still struggling to eat "clean" by my definition.

I'm struggling not to regain the weight that I have lost and I spend months gaining and losing the same few pounds.

[smiling jack]

Congrats Rox on making 5 days!! I like what you said about not losing the weight that has been already lost....I don't want to be the bouncing ball.

The five days, Kids, really, really, really shows a lot of strength. I've weakened yesterday and today. But, as Ananda says, I will get up and try again tomorrow morning. Good night.

Nina* -11/16 - 8 Days
GG* - 11/17 - 6 Days
Spacecat* - 11/17 - 6 Days
Rox* - 11/19 - 5 Days
Dave - 11/20 - 4 Days
Pony - 11/22 - 2 Days
Ananda - 11/25 - Day 1
Jack - 11/25 - Day 1
Cali - 11/
Others - 11/

[roxiestone]

Good morning.

I'd like to hear everyone's strategy or plans (if you wish to share) on getting through the holidays.

[ananda]

I'm gonna be outa here for a while. We have some family crisis stuff going on and I just can't deal with the eating stuff right now...I'll be back as soon as I can...it'll all be ok whatever happens, but i just ... you know...I'll talk to you soon.

[smiling jack]

Congrats Dave for the five days...it's an accomplishment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't get on the web this AM...and I don't know if it really effected my day...but I just had a lousy day accomplishment-wise. I had a fitness assessment that compared to where I was six months ago...which was a significant improvement over the prior six months...and I gave most of it back. The last couple weeks my exercise partner hasn't been around...and I haven't picked up the slack. If I have abstained from OS, I am pigging out on high fat, low protein food.

Rox, my strategies in the past have been to mentally picture what I want to be...and hold myself to it. I want to be trim...I want a flatter belly...I want to discipline my eating...don't look longer than a second at candy dishes...be courageous enough to tell people when they offer, No thanks.

Take care all. Thank you for being here. Good luck, Ananda...we'll look forward to hearing from you when you get back.

Nina* -11/16 - 9 Days
GG* - 11/17 - 7 Days
Spacecat* - 11/17 - 7 Days
Rox* - 11/19 - 56Days
Dave* - 11/20 - 5Days
Pony - 11/22 - 3 Days
Jack - 11/25 - Day 1
Cali - 11/
Ananda - 11/
Others - 11/

[roxiestone]

Courage and peace to us all.