#6 100 Day Goal - Abstainance from Obvious Sweets - Want to Join? Please Do!

[Pony]

Well, I have made it through today, but not without a challange. I felt like it was everywhere....I had to do a lot of distracting of myself to stop thinking about wanting something sweet.

[smiling jack]

Today is Thursday - no running - but I hope to get an hour in the gym sometime...volunteer fire department trainng tonight regardless.

No OS's yesterday. But my addictive mind already has me on slippery slopes in other areas today. I need to work my program to have any chance at a happy, joyous and addiction-free day.

Take care all....thanks for being here.

[dave47]

As of June 11th:

CALI -116
MIKE -31
GOLDIE -10
ROXIE -10
JACK -4
PONY -4
ANANDA -3
CHOOSE2B
DAVE

On hiatus:

BARB DWYER
NINA
ODAAT

Best wishes all.

[roxiestone]

Pony, I've been thinking about distractions myself. I'm almost tempted to come up with a list to keep with me at all times just so I will have someplace to go and just do something else from the list. I did this when I quit smoking a few years ago - I just created lists of things I would do in several situations - at home in the morning, at home in the evening, at work, in the car, etc. It really did help to have someplace concrete to go and then something concrete to do, rather than just wander around and ache.

I do know that I'm an absolute toddler sometimes, don't like to be told NO and a distraction technique works better than just trying to gut something out on "willpower" alone. I will try to work on a "go to" list. Thanks for the reminder.

Peace.

[ananda]

working on day one....the wierd thing is i so had a choice and debated it so long before I picked up that brownie....sigh

oh...in case any of you are seeing about our little tornato in manhattan ks....i am fine. our house wasn't hit and we are all safe. No work as it did hit the building next to my work building...and we recieved collateral damage.

was god punishing me for my brownie (just kidding, the effect is incured the moment of the action and is internal).

so start me on day 1.....i'm gettin right back on this horse!

[cali]

yeah....distractions and brownies.....
I don't know if you guys remember me mentioning the brownies that have been in my house from a prior event we had in my home...gourmet brownies....their presentation alone was beautiful borderline exquisite…I tried to get everyone I could to eat the DARN BROWNIES….no one wanted them….I don’t GET THAT!!!!!

The person I happened to be talking to said “that’s it-I’m throwing them out because it’s clearly bothering you”. I literally had to hold them before they were tossed into the abyss…the trash can was the fate of these beautiful creations…..now you guys might think I am nuts, but this was a big turning point for me.
I saw in a split second the hold that food used to have over me….and I only saw this because I said “no” to it and was able to see the bitter truth.

It amazes me that I said no and didn't cave....but part of me keeps looking over my shoulder wondering when I will.

[ananda]

thanks c - if i keep coming back someday that may happen for me!

OK so far....but no temptations since not at work.

[cali]

Yes ananda I know the feeling...your posts are very honest---you are willing to say where you are at and continue forward. Shame kept me from coming back so many times...in fact it has kept me from many things my whole life.
I lived a life feeling about myself, what I thought others felt about me...
talk about "bondage of self"....but it kept me stuck......I am just really starting to break out of it....this Friday chair commitment has really given me the opportunity to let the group get to know me, and get the hek out of myself.
There are three Fridays left including today. I think I'll talk about shame today--
Ever since I ordered the tickets for my 20th high school reunion, all that shame and fear comes rushing back....I have to remember that I AM NOT THAT PERSON TODAY and have not been for a long long time....but it sure hurts.

Today I plan to eat well and feel great about it! Have a good day/weekend everyone!

[roxiestone]

I'm still standing.

Peace.

[smiling jack]

I am p*ssed off that a thoughtful, well-composed recovery piece that I just wrote....just got deleted by me stubbing a finger on this @#$%ing keyboard!

Ah well...thanks for the suggestion on the "go to" list. I have a 10AM appt with the shrink today...and I will bring it up.

I bought "no sugar added" ice cream and ate it all. It had no suggar listed on the ingredients...but all the substitutes were there. The first day I ate a serving. The second day I ate directly out of the container. The third or fourth day it was gone.

I don't want to miss the ice cream taste during the hot months. I will need a "go to" for that...maybe a cold oatmeal fruit smoothie. Regardless, I am not ready to go back to day 1, yet. Take care all.

[ananda]

Yepppiiiiii another day OS free!!!!!!!

I am struggling with the craving more this time...but I guess only day 2 right now the moment to moment thing seems the better focus for me. One good choice at a time. I did choose to eat lunch and dinner and strawberry yogart for bedtime snack.....weekends are basically easier...the temptations are usually more intense with special social food available, but there are not as many of them...no dish of chocolate sitting out there to call my name.

roxie - are you OK? sound a little down?

Cali - thanks for your encouragement and example.

nite nite!

[cali]

The first day I ate a serving. The second day I ate directly out of the container. The third or fourth day it was gone.

boy do I know how that is played out, every stinking time for me!! That's why I can't eat foods that claim to be "better" (no sugar etc) cause my actions are the same on it.
When I drank 8/14/06 two weeks before I was to have two years, I started with "near beer" (non-alcoholic)-I bought a 12-pack and drank like eight of them....then I just started drinking the real stuff..it took me three months to get back to sobriety and thank goodness I have just over 1.5 years now...everytime I go to the grocery store I am "pulled" to want to try something that seems less sinful, but I know I will end up eating the whole thing...sorry for going off on that trail--just brought me back..

I went to a party last night and there was really amazing beautiful food choices...I brought my own dinner, threw it on one of their plates and no one knew the difference.
I am also on low fat so I have two demons to fight.
The cake they had was "pretty" but it didn't look as good as those brownies that still have me heart LOL
Have a good day--it's good to be alive!!!!

[dave47]

As of June 13th:

CALI -118
MIKE -33
GOLDIE -12
ROXIE -12
JACK -6
PONY -6
ANANDA -1
DAVE

On hiatus:

BARB DWYER
NINA
ODAAT

[dave47]

I don't touch NA beer either, playing with fire holding one of them in my hand.
The only time I remember drinking it was a few years ago when I went to an Irish pub which was notorious for lock ins. I was supposed to be at work at 8am the next day, so trying to be sensible I ordered two or three alcohol free beers. After a while I moved onto the real stuff and I remember looking at my watch as I left the pub-8am, I was supposed to be going to work.
I must admit to loving ice cream but I steer clear of even the sugar free variety, I would probably wolf that down as well.
Just in from work and the house is empty(bliss), so I can grab a couple of hours kip.
Best wishes all.

[smiling jack]

To paraphrase, I am powerless over alchohol, drugs, nicotine, caffein, obvious sweets, solitaire and other internet games and internet stuff.

My life becomes unmanageable with alchohol, drugs, obvious sweets, and the internet games and internet stuff. My recovery depends on abstaining from the above.

My botton line today is to abstain from each of the above. I will check tomorrow AM to and do an inventory.

[smiling jack]

I am walking away from only playing solitaire. I have higher priorites. Take care all.

[Lily]

So, how do i do this? you guys abstain from sugar?

I have gotten soooo huge since getting clean this last time. just huge!

I am a MAJOR sugar addict, chocolate, ice cream, etc.... I am depressed.... :-(

[dave47]

Hello Sheila, with myself I needed to tackle alcohol and being overweight. I always ate unhealthily and giving up OS was something I really needed to do.
As you probably know, when we give up alcohol the unexpected sugar rushes kick in, so many on the wagon seem to pile on the pounds. I kind of view it that if I don't drink I am in a stronger position to tackle all the other problem areas.
All we do is to abstain from the obvious that you have mentioned and anything else which we wish to include which we might binge on or we don't trust ourselves with.
Much of it would be entirely down to you, and being honest with yourself.
There are some decent people here and many emotional issues come in to play.
Feel free to have a go or just to post your views anytime, they will always be appreciated.

[dave47]

As of June 14th:

CALI -119
MIKE -34
GOLDIE -13
ROXIE -13
JACK -7
PONY -7
ANANDA -2
DAVE

On hiatus:

BARB DWYER
NINA
ODAAT

[cali]

Welcome Sheila-
When I quit drinking and smoking, I took to food. For me, my addictive personality will transfer onto other things if one is taken away. I have found that I can too keep food in check-one day at a time. Obvious sweets basically do to me what booze did--makes me fell bad about myself. Today, I try to follow my program to the best of my ability and understand where certain things/substances bring me...
I did not "get" this right away---I "slipped" a lot and went back to sugar-but coming here is really helpful-I see others working on wanting to abstain, and I learn a lot from everyone here. We are all just trying to better our "today".
I hope you join in so we can get to know you

So tonight is Billy Joel----WOO HOO! I am psyched!

[smiling jack]

"We didn't start the fire......." Cali, Did you send the link to the video of the Billy Joel song? That was so cool! I google Bo Diddley video's who I miss now that he's gone...but we saw him on stage a number of times...and he was a super entertainer...great songwriter...great rock composer....great guitarist.

Enough out of me. Welcome Sheila! Dave and Cali posts I second or third or whatever. It's me. I got sober from alchohol and drugs...but even before and after that I binged on frozen macadamia nut cookie dough...donuts...candy bars..ice cream...brownies...etc etc etc. I have been helped by sharing my experience, strength and hope...and receiving others ES&H. Stick around...and you may find this thread will help you know more about yourself. That has happened to me! Take care all.

[ananda]

OK guys, gotta get this off my chest! I'm still on track with no OS, but am concerned about my attitude. Since yesterday it's like I just don't really care, just going through the motions and seriously considered eating some OS a number of times. I think I only didn't a couple of times because my friends know I am doing this and I didn't want to look bad.

I'm feeling down this morning and don't know why so i'm developing a don't care attitude and even have thoughts of eating out of anger or pouting...sort of like drinking at someone just cause "you can't tell me what to do".

Please understand this has nothing to do with other people doing anything or saying anything....this is my personal insanity that has no basis in reality.

jeez don't know what's wrong with me today....

I am very glad others are doing well...am reading your posts....gosh i'm just so self centered today all i'm doing is talking about me!

thank you all for being here.

[smiling jack]

I posted a week or so ago about "stinkin' thinkin". Sometimes, I forget what got me here in the first place...shame in compulsive doing things not good for me...guilt in not being determined enough to stay away from bad stuff...insanity is my thinking it'll be different this time.

My addiction is out there doing push-ups and chin-ups when I am feeling sorry for myself. Thanks for bring it up Ananda, because it reminds me of what I am like.

[Pony]

Yep, I need to start over. the weekend did me in and I gave in.

Tomorrow is another day.

[ananda]

Just get right back up on the ?pony?????