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ananda · 07-30-2008, 06:20 AM

Not making excuses..but I sleptwalked and ate last night....will talk to the doc about changing my nighttime meds...it's happening too often and this time it was chocolate that my son had.

Odaat...take the quiet time you need....Only you and your HP really know the whole story!

Love ya

roxiestone · 07-30-2008, 07:42 AM

I pray for peace and clarity for all of us today.

smiling jack · 07-30-2008, 07:49 AM

Ditto Roxie Take care all.

ananda · 07-31-2008, 06:42 AM

As of July 30th (Wednesday):

CALI -165
ROXIE -4
LILY -22
JACK -6
ODAAT - working on 1
ANANDA -1

On hiatus:

BARB DWYER
GOLDIE
MIKE
NINA
PONY

roxiestone · 07-31-2008, 08:40 AM

Good morning.

I'm continuing my OS (and other trigger food) abstinance. I am very grateful. I need to know and absorb the fact that eating in a disordered way WILL.NOT improve my current life situation. It won't. Eating won't fix what's eating me.

Peace.

roxiestone · 08-01-2008, 07:00 AM

Feeling better today. Went to a f2f meeting last night and think I will attend another tonight. I've been treating myself gently and kindly and so far am avoiding OS/triggers.

Hope you all have a wonderful day and weekend.

Roxie

ananda · 08-01-2008, 11:29 AM

As of July 31th (Thursday):

CALI -166
ROXIE -3
LILY -23
JACK -7
ODAAT - working on 1
ANANDA -working on 1

On hiatus:

BARB DWYER
GOLDIE
MIKE
NINA
PONY

ananda · 08-01-2008, 11:34 AM

I'm a mess! obssesive and overwhelmed.

Just hangin in there and hoping that by Monday I will be better, but starting to get fearful that I will just be more wacko!

glad to hear you are doing well Roxie. I'll think of you for inspiratin this weekend!:ghug

roxiestone · 08-01-2008, 07:56 PM

Oh Ananda, I'm sorry you are having a rough go. <<<<HUGS>>>>>

smiling jack · 08-02-2008, 04:07 PM

I've read good thoughts lately here...what I eat will not help what's eating me....WOW..
being sober is being healthy. Take care all.

**Pony** · 08-03-2008, 06:08 AM

{{{{Ananda}}}}

cali · 08-03-2008, 06:49 AM

((((all)))-
hope everyone is well--hanging on through the twists and turns in life.
Please take me off the list the list for now. Thanks and bless you guys.

ananda · 08-03-2008, 09:34 PM

hi all...thanks for the love and encouragement. I am slightly better today, but again did one day os free, then ate incorrectly today...although I didn't binge out. So I will continue to restart in my own head at least each time i mess up knowing that it will become easier each day I am os free.

I actually feel a little less wacko today, but...I still him far from being in any kind of balanced position in my life....just teetering ....

Thanks again all, I'll update the list tomarrow morning, and now I'm off to call my sponsor.

roxiestone · 08-04-2008, 06:29 AM

Good morning all.

Ananda, hugs to you. Cali, we will miss you - please check back in. Jack, as always, thank you for all you bring to our group.

I'm still hanging in there and redevoting myself to working my program.

Peace, y'all.

ananda · 08-04-2008, 06:31 AM

As of August 3rd (Sunday):

ROXIE -6
LILY -26
JACK -10
ODAAT - working on 1
ANANDA -working on 1

On hiatus:

BARB DWYER
GOLDIE
MIKE
NINA
PONY

smiling jack · 08-04-2008, 07:36 AM

Sometimes I feel entitled to pig out on OS's...."if you had to deal with what I have to...you would toollll" I am beginning to read about "self-justification"...lying to myself.

I hope to learn...I hope I finish it...I hope I stay sober today. Take care all.

ananda · 08-04-2008, 04:40 PM

I can relate Jack....if I want something bad enough, I can find a way to twist anything into a justification.

I actually haven't had any OS today, but I have majorly set myself to eat some later in the week and can't talk myself out of it. The justification just seems worth it in some part of my brain that I can't escape.

I will have to deal with it when the time comes. At least today I didn't feel like the justification for eating OS later in the week meant that I might as well eat some now.

smiling jack · 08-05-2008, 05:36 AM

I am working on my OS sobriety today, now, by being here. King Baby, me, can binge today if I don't keep working...sharing...being honest with myself and others.

I'll miss Cali and Dave, but you are here for me...and you help me stay sober. For that I am very grateful, because I cannot stay sober by myself.

ananda · 08-05-2008, 06:46 AM

I miss them too....like everything it is a we thing. I am seeing if a local friend who is diebetic would like to do this as well.

My friend said we would go out for a brownie this week, and all I really have to do is tell him when he calls that I can't do a brownie (he can). It's not like he wouldn't be supportive. Friends don't know quite wht to do cause some days I'll screw up and they support me, but don't want to get on me let me make my own choice.

I will ask to be willing and honest when the moment comes. I have been OS free for a day now!

ananda · 08-05-2008, 06:48 AM

As of August 4rd (Monday):

ROXIE -7
LILY -27
JACK -11
ODAAT - working on 1
ANANDA -1

On hiatus:

BARB DWYER
GOLDIE
MIKE
NINA
PONY

roxiestone · 08-05-2008, 06:52 AM

I'm doing some work with being "in the moment" and just sitting in whatever I'm feeling. I'm an emotional, disordered eater who ate in order to soothe and smooth. Life is not always smooth and easy. Feeling discomfort will not kill me. Eating will not fix what is eating me. I'm only adding to my load when I choose to eat in a disordered way.

I wish us all peace and clarity. Treat yourselves with loving kindness today.

**Pony** · 08-05-2008, 03:48 PM

sorry I haven't been posting here lately. I have been going through the grieving and loss process and food has taken a huge back seat. I am not doing as well as Cali did through her time of it.... I have turned to comfort foods mostly to keep from turning to other things in this time of weakness. I know that I should be using more of my tools to work this program for my health....but getting through just seems to be the priority. I don't feel that I can add anything good or positive for anyone at this time so I have been reading but just not posting.

Please forgive me if you are feeling abandonded here. I am around. It makes me feel good that you all here are very supportive of each other.... please keep it up. I will be back to post.

Day by day

smiling jack · 08-06-2008, 06:38 AM

Eating will not fix what is eating me I love it. How did you come up with this, Roxie??

I am here because I cannot stay OS sober by myself. It's important to me to not binge on sweets....to share ES&H with others...especially hope...I have heard despair listening to two others talk at AA meetings or with a friend...this thread continues to give me hope...and for that I am very grateful. Take care all.

smiling jack · 08-06-2008, 06:39 AM

Thanks, Ananda, for your willingness to maintain the list. I appreciate that it's there...and it helps.

roxiestone · 08-06-2008, 07:43 AM

Jack, I can't claim authorship, I just read that saying somewhere in some of my reading on ED and it made a good deal of sense to me.

Pony, glad to hear from you and certainly understand. Grief and loss are tough to get through without our old "security blankets". Treat yourself well and we look forward to having you back when the time is right for you.

Ananda, thank you for being so open and honest and uplifting. And as Jack said, thanks for updating our counts.

I am working on removing obsessive thinking from my life. Just haven't figured out how to do that without obsessing over it

Peace and hope to us all.

08-03-2008, 06:08 AM	#461 (permalink)
Pony Forum Leader Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: trail of discovery Posts: 2,391	{{{{Ananda}}}} __________________ "Failure is an EVENT, it is not a person – yesterday really did end last night, and today is your brand new day..." .........unknown The sun always rises, and a new day begins.

08-03-2008, 06:49 AM	#462 (permalink)
cali came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast Posts: 1,005	((((all)))- hope everyone is well--hanging on through the twists and turns in life. Please take me off the list the list for now. Thanks and bless you guys. __________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be!

08-05-2008, 03:48 PM	#472 (permalink)
Pony Forum Leader Join Date: Sep 2001 Location: trail of discovery Posts: 2,391	sorry I haven't been posting here lately. I have been going through the grieving and loss process and food has taken a huge back seat. I am not doing as well as Cali did through her time of it.... I have turned to comfort foods mostly to keep from turning to other things in this time of weakness. I know that I should be using more of my tools to work this program for my health....but getting through just seems to be the priority. I don't feel that I can add anything good or positive for anyone at this time so I have been reading but just not posting. Please forgive me if you are feeling abandonded here. I am around. It makes me feel good that you all here are very supportive of each other.... please keep it up. I will be back to post. Day by day __________________ "Failure is an EVENT, it is not a person – yesterday really did end last night, and today is your brand new day..." .........unknown The sun always rises, and a new day begins.

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07-30-2008, 06:20 AM	#451 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 10,122	Not making excuses..but I sleptwalked and ate last night....will talk to the doc about changing my nighttime meds...it's happening too often and this time it was chocolate that my son had. Odaat...take the quiet time you need....Only you and your HP really know the whole story! Love ya

07-30-2008, 07:42 AM	#452 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 398	I pray for peace and clarity for all of us today.

07-30-2008, 07:49 AM	#453 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 976	Ditto Roxie Take care all.

07-31-2008, 06:42 AM	#454 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 10,122	As of July 30th (Wednesday): CALI -165 ROXIE -4 LILY -22 JACK -6 ODAAT - working on 1 ANANDA -1 On hiatus: BARB DWYER GOLDIE MIKE NINA PONY

07-31-2008, 08:40 AM	#455 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 398	Good morning. I'm continuing my OS (and other trigger food) abstinance. I am very grateful. I need to know and absorb the fact that eating in a disordered way WILL.NOT improve my current life situation. It won't. Eating won't fix what's eating me. Peace.

08-01-2008, 07:00 AM	#456 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 398	Feeling better today. Went to a f2f meeting last night and think I will attend another tonight. I've been treating myself gently and kindly and so far am avoiding OS/triggers. Hope you all have a wonderful day and weekend. Roxie

08-01-2008, 11:29 AM	#457 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 10,122	As of July 31th (Thursday): CALI -166 ROXIE -3 LILY -23 JACK -7 ODAAT - working on 1 ANANDA -working on 1 On hiatus: BARB DWYER GOLDIE MIKE NINA PONY

08-01-2008, 11:34 AM	#458 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 10,122	I'm a mess! obssesive and overwhelmed. Just hangin in there and hoping that by Monday I will be better, but starting to get fearful that I will just be more wacko! glad to hear you are doing well Roxie. I'll think of you for inspiratin this weekend!:ghug

08-01-2008, 07:56 PM	#459 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 398	Oh Ananda, I'm sorry you are having a rough go. <<<<HUGS>>>>>

08-02-2008, 04:07 PM	#460 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 976	I've read good thoughts lately here...what I eat will not help what's eating me....WOW.. being sober is being healthy. Take care all.

08-03-2008, 09:34 PM	#463 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 10,122	hi all...thanks for the love and encouragement. I am slightly better today, but again did one day os free, then ate incorrectly today...although I didn't binge out. So I will continue to restart in my own head at least each time i mess up knowing that it will become easier each day I am os free. I actually feel a little less wacko today, but...I still him far from being in any kind of balanced position in my life....just teetering .... Thanks again all, I'll update the list tomarrow morning, and now I'm off to call my sponsor.

08-04-2008, 06:29 AM	#464 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 398	Good morning all. Ananda, hugs to you. Cali, we will miss you - please check back in. Jack, as always, thank you for all you bring to our group. I'm still hanging in there and redevoting myself to working my program. Peace, y'all.

08-04-2008, 06:31 AM	#465 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 10,122	As of August 3rd (Sunday): ROXIE -6 LILY -26 JACK -10 ODAAT - working on 1 ANANDA -working on 1 On hiatus: BARB DWYER GOLDIE MIKE NINA PONY

08-04-2008, 07:36 AM	#466 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 976	Sometimes I feel entitled to pig out on OS's...."if you had to deal with what I have to...you would toollll" I am beginning to read about "self-justification"...lying to myself. I hope to learn...I hope I finish it...I hope I stay sober today. Take care all.

08-04-2008, 04:40 PM	#467 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 10,122	I can relate Jack....if I want something bad enough, I can find a way to twist anything into a justification. I actually haven't had any OS today, but I have majorly set myself to eat some later in the week and can't talk myself out of it. The justification just seems worth it in some part of my brain that I can't escape. I will have to deal with it when the time comes. At least today I didn't feel like the justification for eating OS later in the week meant that I might as well eat some now.

08-05-2008, 05:36 AM	#468 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 976	I am working on my OS sobriety today, now, by being here. King Baby, me, can binge today if I don't keep working...sharing...being honest with myself and others. I'll miss Cali and Dave, but you are here for me...and you help me stay sober. For that I am very grateful, because I cannot stay sober by myself.

08-05-2008, 06:46 AM	#469 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 10,122	I miss them too....like everything it is a we thing. I am seeing if a local friend who is diebetic would like to do this as well. My friend said we would go out for a brownie this week, and all I really have to do is tell him when he calls that I can't do a brownie (he can). It's not like he wouldn't be supportive. Friends don't know quite wht to do cause some days I'll screw up and they support me, but don't want to get on me let me make my own choice. I will ask to be willing and honest when the moment comes. I have been OS free for a day now!

08-05-2008, 06:48 AM	#470 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 10,122	As of August 4rd (Monday): ROXIE -7 LILY -27 JACK -11 ODAAT - working on 1 ANANDA -1 On hiatus: BARB DWYER GOLDIE MIKE NINA PONY

08-05-2008, 06:52 AM	#471 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 398	I'm doing some work with being "in the moment" and just sitting in whatever I'm feeling. I'm an emotional, disordered eater who ate in order to soothe and smooth. Life is not always smooth and easy. Feeling discomfort will not kill me. Eating will not fix what is eating me. I'm only adding to my load when I choose to eat in a disordered way. I wish us all peace and clarity. Treat yourselves with loving kindness today.

08-06-2008, 06:38 AM	#473 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 976	Eating will not fix what is eating me I love it. How did you come up with this, Roxie?? I am here because I cannot stay OS sober by myself. It's important to me to not binge on sweets....to share ES&H with others...especially hope...I have heard despair listening to two others talk at AA meetings or with a friend...this thread continues to give me hope...and for that I am very grateful. Take care all.

08-06-2008, 06:39 AM	#474 (permalink)
smiling jack Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest Posts: 976	Thanks, Ananda, for your willingness to maintain the list. I appreciate that it's there...and it helps.

08-06-2008, 07:43 AM	#475 (permalink)
roxiestone Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 398	Jack, I can't claim authorship, I just read that saying somewhere in some of my reading on ED and it made a good deal of sense to me. Pony, glad to hear from you and certainly understand. Grief and loss are tough to get through without our old "security blankets". Treat yourself well and we look forward to having you back when the time is right for you. Ananda, thank you for being so open and honest and uplifting. And as Jack said, thanks for updating our counts. I am working on removing obsessive thinking from my life. Just haven't figured out how to do that without obsessing over it Peace and hope to us all.

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