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06-23-2008, 02:59 PM
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Welcome back Odaat, great to see you back trying to avoid OS. Great going with the power walk Cali. I find that even when I push myself too hard, (which is most of the time) even though my body might need time to recover, mentally I am alive. I walk as much as I can, if on my own I put my ipod on and blaze away but if the kids are with me then they tend to dawdle so we don't achieve much. It's supposed to be a great way to kick start the metabolism, and I find it a great way to think things over without all the daily interruptions. Jack, I will have to work out some techniques so I can be in cruise control, thanks for that.
__________________ Into each life some rain must fall,some days be dark and dreary. The Difficult is that which can be done immediately;the Impossible that which takes a little longer. |
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06-23-2008, 03:06 PM
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As of June 22nd: CALI -127 MIKE -42 ROXIE -21 JACK -15 ANANDA -1 PONY -1 ODAAT -working on 1 DAVE On hiatus: BARB DWYER GOLDIE NINA Best wishes all.
__________________ Into each life some rain must fall,some days be dark and dreary. The Difficult is that which can be done immediately;the Impossible that which takes a little longer. |
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06-24-2008, 03:48 AM
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I used to have "my thoughts create my reality" on my sig line...slowly over the last year and a half of having other materials in my life helping my with more positive thought, I came to the next realization that "I'll let go of what I was, accept myself for what I am-and become who I was meant to be"... every time I log on-I read that-and each time I read it, I realize that it is INDEED happening for me. I am learning to pay attention to the "emotion" that certain thoughts evoke. If it's "bad", I would always "stay" there in the past....but today I understand that if I don't shift the focus/change the direction my thinking is headed, then I will most certainly get "stuck" in it.... I get exactly what I am thinking about-and even more so when there is emotion attached to it! But just like my program, I have to work on this daily...cause it absolutely all starts in my head...and "grows" from there... I will NOT give negative thought any power today!
__________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be! |
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06-24-2008, 03:52 AM
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I got to 9:45pm last night. I spent a few hours in bed feeling very low, but thinking about it, thats better than I've done for months, so I don't need to beat myself up over it. Trying again for day one.
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06-24-2008, 08:32 AM
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As of June 23rd: CALI -128 MIKE -43 ROXIE -22 JACK -16 ANANDA -2 PONY -2 ODAAT -working on 1 DAVE On hiatus: BARB DWYER GOLDIE NINA Best wishes all.
__________________ Into each life some rain must fall,some days be dark and dreary. The Difficult is that which can be done immediately;the Impossible that which takes a little longer. |
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06-24-2008, 10:36 AM
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The Good, The Bad and The Ugly. Worst things first. There was no ugly. I did not eat in any disordered way. I had ample opportunity to sneak and binge and horde food all weekend long and I did not do it. So I guess that's really the good. I ate in an appropriate and sensible and PUBLIC way. At the end of the weekend, I threw out all the OS, and other processed foods, including those made with flours, etc. That is also tough for me to do, as it feels so wasteful, but if I don't, I'll be in it before I knew what hit me. The bad - I made the decision to have a single serving of an OS on Sunday evening. And while this wasn't the best decision I've ever made, actually I'm pretty happy with how I got through the weekend. I've done much, much worse. So please restart me at One for today, as Monday was an OS and processed grain flour-free day. Thank you all for all the support you offered me. It really did help. Peace. |
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06-24-2008, 02:13 PM
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Eating sweets will not help me balance my books Eating sweets will not help me balance my books Eating sweets will not help me balance my books Eating sweets will not help me balance my books Eating sweets will not help me balance my books Eating sweets will not help me balance my books Eating sweets will not help me balance my books Eating sweets will not help me balance my books Thank you!!!!!!!!  |
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06-24-2008, 05:01 PM
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My computer was down yesterday and part of today. I tired of being my family's one man "Geek Squad", so I went on a quiet strike...and left it alone. My 15 yo son finally called the cable service provider, followed the prompts...and didn't make it happen. I gave him a couple tips, and he got it done. We both feel better about it. I'm back on my recovery's slippery slopes...but I remain free of OS's. I hope I can really work a good recovery for the rest of today. Thanks for being here for me. |
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06-24-2008, 05:47 PM
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thanks jack....yeah i get tired of being the supposed expert with the comuters....i'm not really that good anyways. well...i made it....didn't cave in and am starting to feel a little better about this. roxie, cali, dave, odaat and poney.....  and anyone else who's around  |
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06-24-2008, 06:52 PM
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yup-it's what it's all about--sharing where we are at-everone keep on keepin on!!  I took another power walk today-one exact hour! I am sore LOL I must admit I am feeling really good...but I am borderline obsessed with losing another 10 pounds...I don't think it's gonna happen-for that's about what I weighed at graduation-holy cow! that's ok it won't last much past the reunion...after that I will REALLY need help staying off "slippery slopes" as Jack says. hope everyone is having a pleasant evening so far
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06-25-2008, 06:57 AM
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I'm back from the hour long exercise outside..it rained a little...and now it's coming down harder...but it's OK, because I won't melt. I'm having my oatmeal smoothie for breakfast, and I will try to be sober (free from my addictions) just for today. A joyful guy named Oscar helped me change a flat tire in Chicago yesterday, after he saw me struggling trying to get the lug nuts off. He wouldn't accept any money, even though he didn't have a job. I gave him the card of a guy I know who may be hiring... and I was awestruck by his belief that his HP would take great care of him. I hope I can begin to believe in an HP. My fear is I have been wrong about the "hole in my soul"...that all that is needed is for it to be filled with my HP's love. We'll see. Take care all. |
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06-26-2008, 06:38 AM
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I am ready to whine. I stubbed my finger on the keyboard again and erased what was coming out as a prayer. I will try again. I hope that the love of the god of my understanding is all that is needed to "fill the hole inside my soul" inside me today. I hope I don't cave in to any of my addictions today. I hope I am generally sober...sane...and serene for today. Thanks for being here. Take care all. |
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06-26-2008, 08:43 AM
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As of June 25th: CALI -130 MIKE -45 JACK -18 ANANDA -4 PONY -4 ODAAT -2 ROXIE -working on 1 DAVE On hiatus: BARB DWYER GOLDIE NINA Best wishes all.
__________________ Into each life some rain must fall,some days be dark and dreary. The Difficult is that which can be done immediately;the Impossible that which takes a little longer. |
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06-26-2008, 10:32 AM
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At this point just trudging...but making it....Just real confused this week...have to do more meditation and try to get back in flow with my HP... i hate ambiguoty, uncertainly and truley feel like i suffer when i lack the info i think i need to make decisions...guess this is a learning thing I'm OS free still...but if i don't change my pattern i wont be able to stay that way. |
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06-26-2008, 02:05 PM
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I am at a cross roads..the time has come for me to make a change... a relatively big one..I pray that I can do the next right thing every step of the way... I have been through a lot of change in the last few months... I CAN DO THIS! I have to make sure I don't "with-hold" food at this point..I tend to do that when I feel I have no control over anything that is going on...actually I am SO glad I have no control over this--cause it's a LONG TIME OVER DUE! I ate well today-no walk today probably tomorrow!
__________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be! |
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06-26-2008, 11:13 PM
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It's a little after midnight...and I just want to check in...I got through today...without caing in to any addictions...and for that I am grateful. I needed to stand up to someone who occuppies way too much space in my brain...and I did. I am still replaying the tape...which is not where I want to be. If I am serene, I don't feel like I will be replaying tapes of me or others. What happens...happens...and it's already in the past and I can't do anything to change it. I will hope that for the next 23+ hours today...that the love of the god of my understanding will fill the "hole in my sole" for the rest of the day. Take care all. Thanks for being here for me. |
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06-27-2008, 07:08 AM
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I'm in a blue-black funk and like Jack, I need to get rid of the rewind button. I'm just wallowing in some stuff and I need to just set that aside and continue to do what's best for me and not let otherstuff bring me down or derail my efforts. It's all about perspective and sometimes its hard to find. I don't know how sometimes I manage to get so lost so fast. I will treat myself to an hour of exercise and solitude today. I'm worth the effort. |
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06-27-2008, 09:34 AM
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As of June 26th: CALI -131 MIKE -46 JACK -19 ANANDA -5 PONY -5 ODAAT -3 ROXIE -1 DAVE On hiatus: BARB DWYER GOLDIE NINA
__________________ Into each life some rain must fall,some days be dark and dreary. The Difficult is that which can be done immediately;the Impossible that which takes a little longer. |
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06-27-2008, 07:53 PM
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yeah---I relate to getting caught in the "playing of the tape over and over".... Last year I was introduced to "The Secret" law of attraction stuff....it really is so true. I have expanded that to some other materials. I have learned how powerful "thought" really is..this particular material stresses that fact that thought coupled with powerful emotion is even more powerfully attracts more of the same on-to itself.... wow....that is huge for me.... I have slowly MADE myself think other thoughts--good thoughts when I find myself on that hamster wheel....something very recently (past few days) has started happening to me...something totally miraculous----and amazing......I don't know how or why---but I am starting to really be "ok" with ME.....I know in my heart that there are certain directions I must head...I know I am on the right track--with great people in my life. This thread had helped me so much...I really have grown here... thank you all so much for being part of who I'm becoming. ((((obvious sweeties))))) 
__________________ I've let go of what I was, I accept myself for who I am today- I continue to become who I am meant to be! |
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06-28-2008, 05:33 AM
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I've been screwy the last couple days...I missed showing up to run Friday AM...thinking it was Saturday...No energy to accomplish much at work...no energy to engage in my favorite hobbies or addictions...My health is ok...just the blahs I guess. I am still abstinate from OS's. I love the posts on how you share your ES&H. I am hopeful today that the love of the god of my understanding will fill the hole in my soul. and remove my character defects of gluttony and sloth. Dave, how are you doing? As always, I am thankful for your maintaining the log...but I miss hearing about your day. Take care, you mean a lot. |
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