I'AM AFRAID OF my HUNGER

[BUTTERFLY-7]

HEY:WHATS gang Ididn't have the courage to log on cause Ididnt think I had a problem with eating I'AM a gratefull recovering addicct is 12:23 a:m I just made two month's into recovery just now but I'am afraid of my HUNGER since I stop getting hide all I do is eat I tough it was because of the climax the weather here is cold so I don't get out much all I do is eat I'am scare I use to b a size 7/8(28)now as I'am typing my hands bump into my belly I is anoing and depressing to see my body go truogh this changes and I'am afraid that if I'dont stop eating it could get worse I'am a size 13/14(31)in just two months

[barb dwyer]

hey butterfly -

welcome to SR.

congratulations on being clean and sober first of all.
and not in jail.
and not dead.
let's just get the correct ducks in the correct order, ok?

I'm glad you found us!

read the stickies at the top of the page, and have a look around.

sounds to me your'e going through what *I* went through at the beginning of my own sobriety, and the first thing I had to deal with was severe malnutrition from years of alsoholisim and drug abuse.

I was terribly anemic.

So maybe on monday, get hold of the doc, and get some bloodwork done.
ask your doc about Campral, or some other post-quitting compulsion type drug that you might try that accompanies a recovery program.
they help.

are you in a program of recovery?

[BUTTERFLY-7]

thank u 4r ur reply no I'am not in a program I'am doing it thruogh internet 4r now

[BUTTERFLY-7]

I'didnt understand ur comment about ur not in jail or dead&to read the stickies what do u mean

[barb dwyer]

LOL

I mean that - when we give up one addiction - we usually go straight into another one - and usually - if we're an alcoholic or an acddict - we usually have to be in jail to give that one up.

sorry - it's a recovery kind of humor.

[Nina Kay]

Hi Butterfly,
I also want to welcome you to our little group here in the Eating Disorders Forum. I'm sorry that you've come to have this problem also, but since you do, I'm glad that you've found us. I hope that you'll keep coming back here as often as possible. You'll meet lots of people here who are very loving and understanding. I do hope that you'll read the Stickies at the top of this page as Barb has suggested. There you will find a treasure of information about eating disorders and there will be others that will come along soon to welcome you and to share with you soon.

[Gambaru]

Welcome! Do you plan your food? For me planning my food is essential (both in terms of the calories and nutritional value - carbs/ protein/ fat). It's hard for me to tell sometimes whether it's physical hunger, emotional, or spiritual.

Knowing my food is organised for the day, I know I'm getting enough carbs, protein and fat. I also have a small morning snack and one in the afternoon. If I feel hungry, I can ask myself where the hunger is coming from? Is it physical? Is it emotional? Is it spiritual? If it is physical, I can reassure myself I'm getting enough food today? If it's not physical, I can work out what to do about it.

[Gambaru]

(Nina nice to see you!!)

[BUTTERFLY-7]

THANH-U guy's 4r all ur 411&support I'm truly gratefull I'm so sorry 4r taking long 2 reply I've b'n bussy nothing has ghange in my food behavior I'just ear&eat my life away

[pedagogue]

There was an interesting article in Psychology Today about the chemical and biological factors of eating, and why so many people struggle with food. It gets a bit technical, though I thought it did a good job of explaining why the body does what it does, and why people can struggle with both eating too much (there is a tie in with opiod receptors, same stuff some drugs work on....and food was probably the ORIGINAL reason why humans have those receptors, and later on we found opiates in nature), and also wanting to restrict....and how restricting can lead to over-eating.

Here is an excerpt: Psychology Today: Consuming Passions

It is from the most current issue, which is available at Borders, etc. It has a sheep on the cover. It also has some good articles on being more positive, how men and women look at relationships differently, etc.

[Pony]

thanks Peda for sharing that article. I will take a look at it too.

Welcome, Butterfly, to this forum. It is not uncommon to have more than one addiction problem. many of us that give up one discover another, especially eating. Now that you are not using your doc (drug of choice) your actions stll turn to something that will give you a temp. high.... or numbing feeling to deal with whatever it was that you didn't want to deal with in the first place.

It really is a good idea to have some sort of program to fall back on for support and to learn how to deal with "life on life's terms" without turning to any other substance, including food to get through it.

There are plenty of online programs as well as face to face meetings. check in the links at the top of this forum page and you will find links to Overeaters Anonymous and/or Rational Recovery and I believe there might be one more to look at also. You may be able to find some help there. Also we have a wonderful bunch of people here just willing to be of help and support.

Again, welcome.