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03-02-2008, 07:49 AM
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Thanks for all the profound and thoughtful posts-nothing like that from me i'm afraid. Interesting what you say about coffee Cali, it's something i love and i don't wish to cut back on though. I do drink diet coke sometimes as well, but certainly not everyday and not too much either. Sometimes i make a list of things to do, and it does help otherwise i forget half of them. Other times the list gets binned-depends on my mood. Gamb, a guy at work went over there last year. He said it was an amazing experience and that he could feel history and the horrors that happened as he walked around. Best wishes to all.
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03-02-2008, 04:42 PM
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Dave - Don't put yourself down!! I just ramble. Ha See I can do it too. I've had a good day today. I got quite a lot done including food shopping and cooking for the next few days. It's really important to get that done and out the way. I made fish cakes which was rather amusing as they didn't quite stick together as much as they should have, but they'll be okay. I didn't procrastinate much either. I must remember things always take longer than I expect. I didn't do any work which I think is good for me. I used to work a lot on weekends but I decided to do it all tomorrow. I'm quite proud of that decision. I've also decided to go to Provence as I could do with some sunshine and I've planned my trip too.  All abstinently - wooohooo
__________________ Thought one: Just for today, I remember that my disease is progressive even if I am not active in it. Thought two: May I make the most of today and be a channel of all the good things in life. |
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03-02-2008, 08:10 PM
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| Gigi, BootLiquor, whatever....  |
As of March 2nd: Odaat#-252 Goldie#-176 Dave*-151 Gambaru-65 Roxie-23 Falloutcity-....................20 DAYS!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!  BrokenSword-17 Jack-14 Cali-14 Nina-12 Miss Communicat-11 Gotta love um-11 Sugar magnolia-6 Cupowater-on hiatus Barb-on hiatus Pony-on hiatus Mike-on hiatus Remember...You Are NOT Alone! 
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03-03-2008, 04:51 AM
| #104 (permalink) |
| Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest
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Glad to be back...and spending time reading all the post since Friday....WOW. I learned in AA that there are similarities and differences with us and our stories....I need to focus on the similarities. My heartache at the moment is my 15 yo son. While he has great character which will take him a long way, he hasn't accepted my premise that he needs to work very diligently everyday just to get average grades, much less the honor roll. He is currently living in Fantasyland...texting and talking to a girl he never met, who lives too far away. He is going to a parochial high school, and his grades are lousy. The struggle is wearing me out. There, I said mine. I don't want to be one the "pity pot" I am told in AA I need to accept life on life's terms. I do without alcohol or drugs...and for the most part, without obvious sweets. I was tempted over the weekend by cookies and brownies. I resisted, and I am grateful I had the strength at the time. I hope for another 24 hours of sobriety from OS today. Take care. |
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03-03-2008, 07:53 AM
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I hope he turns around Jack but you know boys....  Seriously you can lead that horse to water but you can't always make them drink. Is he stressed about the amount of pressure of the exams? Mum always told me providing I was doing my best she was happy. I always appreciated that.
__________________ Thought one: Just for today, I remember that my disease is progressive even if I am not active in it. Thought two: May I make the most of today and be a channel of all the good things in life. |
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03-03-2008, 08:57 AM
| #106 (permalink) |
| came-came to-came to believe  Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast
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Gam-you made me think of another song I love I heard sung by Sam Brown-she sang it at the "Tribute To George Harrison"-"Horse To Water"...Great tune-she's great! OK--yup I agree with the "no pity pot" theory absolutely...but for me the only way I can get there, is to talk about it. If I don't get to the other side of it (usually by some sort of action on my part) then It can very well turn into pity by just "talking" about it. Thank you Jack for that important reminder! Jack—thank you for sharing about your son. I am so on track today. Today, my motto is “no time like the present”! I want to get better and I am willing to do the work! Have a good day everyone!
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03-03-2008, 09:21 AM
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Cali - you're definitely not on a pity pot. We'd tell you if you were . Being on a pity pot is all about sulking and not moving forward - that's definitely not you! I like talking about things too as it's a great way to get perspective and feedback on things!
__________________ Thought one: Just for today, I remember that my disease is progressive even if I am not active in it. Thought two: May I make the most of today and be a channel of all the good things in life. |
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03-03-2008, 02:37 PM
| #108 (permalink) |
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Welcome back Jack, and thanks for explaining the situation with your boy. My nephew was very lazy at school and had no ambition, no matter what my brother tried. His leaving grades weren't good but he has gone on to do very well for himself and is a great lad. When i was a teenager i got on really badly with my Dad; obviously he wanted the best for me but as a wild tearaway i thought i knew it all. I think my attitude and my attitude towards him made things very hard for him, a common story i imagine. I don't think there is any pity pot about getting something off your chest, hope it all turns out okay. Had fruit for breakfast, ham salad roll for lunch; and for dinner i had pie, cauliflower and boiled potatoes. Only four mugs of coffee so far today Cali( kettles boiling). I read one diet plan that suggests three meals a day and hardly any snacking. Another suggests little and often throughout the day. I like the idea of combining the two, but i don't think that would get me very far.
__________________ Into each life some rain must fall,some days be dark and dreary. The Difficult is that which can be done immediately;the Impossible that which takes a little longer. |
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03-03-2008, 02:40 PM
| #109 (permalink) |
| Gigi, BootLiquor, whatever.... |
As of March 3rd: Odaat#-253 Goldie#-177 Dave*-152 Gambaru-66 Roxie-24 Falloutcity-21 BrokenSword-18 Jack-15 Cali-15 Nina-13 Miss Communicat-12 Gotta love um-12 Sugar magnolia-7 Cupowater-on hiatus Barb-on hiatus Pony-on hiatus Mike-on hiatus Remember...You Are NOT Alone! 
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03-03-2008, 02:53 PM
| #110 (permalink) |
| came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast
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Thanks Gam--- and Dave-you crack me up! I am just checking back to say that I REALLY feel like I am back on the beam---and the relief I feel is AMAZING!!! WOO HOO!!!!
__________________ I'll let go of what I was, accept myself for what I am- and become who I was meant to be! 2-15-08 |
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03-03-2008, 03:18 PM
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One day at a time Calil Remember we can fall when we least expect to slip. Dave - having three meals a day and two weeks works so well for me. It makes me realise that one of the reasons I was going for the OS between meals was that I was genuinely hungry. You don't need to have big snacks. Here's the food I had today. All in all 1500 calories - 100 higher than my real aim but that's life! B: Banana and mandarin smoothie, 1 slice of toast S: Sunflower seeds L: Homemade salmon fishcakes with roasted vegies, 1 pear ( I like to have my main meal of the day at lunch time if possible) S: Crispbread with cheese D: Roasted aubergine soup with quinoa, yoghurt with 1 clementine and 1 nectarine Oh I forgot I've come to a resolution about my holiday. It's great when these answers just come to us. I'm learning moderation in all aspects of my life and as much as I wanted to go away for 10 days, I really didn't need to, nor could I afford it. I'm quite excited as I'm going to take a trip down to the ocean in the southern area of England and just take each day as it comes. It's a perfect plan. I will then be able to afford to go to Auschwitz in May so things have worked out very well.
__________________ Thought one: Just for today, I remember that my disease is progressive even if I am not active in it. Thought two: May I make the most of today and be a channel of all the good things in life. |
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03-04-2008, 05:44 AM
| #112 (permalink) |
| Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest
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Congratulations to all on your insights into your own situations. And, my humble thanks for your concerns about my situation. For me, my wife and I visited my son's teachers yesterday, and adopted a tutoring plan that all parties have "signed off" on. We're hopeful again, and we'll see how it goes. I don't remember cravings or temptations yesterday. I hope for another 24 hours of OS sobriety today. Strength to all today. Take care. |
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03-04-2008, 11:00 AM
| #113 (permalink) |
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Glad you are so positive and full of life Cali, long may it last. The breaks coming up Gamb will keep you on track for the next few months, glad you have sorted it out and have something to look forward to. Jack, with issues on your mind you are still putting a run of abstinance together-congrats on that. For 19 years i have regularly bought my wife Milk Tray chocolates( they are MY favourites). It was Mothers Day on Sunday and after all these years of her knowing that half those chocolates were for me, she took great pleasure in sitting virtually on top me while eating them. The good thing was it didn't bother me one bit, and i did find the irony of it quite funny. As far as willpower goes though, just the smell from the chip shop and i'm in a trance.
__________________ Into each life some rain must fall,some days be dark and dreary. The Difficult is that which can be done immediately;the Impossible that which takes a little longer. |
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03-04-2008, 03:50 PM
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Another day of abstinence, another 24 hours to be grateful for. Food is good - am so amazed at the difference eating more food more often makes. Housemate has been rather grumpy the last few nights. I think he's ticked before he used to have just about full use of living room, but I'm now using my laptop computer in here at night instead of my room. Quite frankly, I don't care he doesn't like it. Tomorrow's to do list must be business plan and sending two bits of mail - there's a whole lot to do so one thing at a time. I'm tired tonight so night all. xx
__________________ Thought one: Just for today, I remember that my disease is progressive even if I am not active in it. Thought two: May I make the most of today and be a channel of all the good things in life. |
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03-04-2008, 05:01 PM
| #115 (permalink) |
| came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast
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I am starting to get that it's not what happens to me in my daily life, it's how I react to it that matters----or should I say that will keep me sane and afloat. This past week has been growth "full" for me. It will be interesting to see how this next appointment goes tomorrow. I know that things are going to come up that I am not necessarily over joyed to be sharing with this person but I have to remember that I am ready for this. Everything is in perfect order, and I am meant to do this. I already feel SO much lighter. I have been on a very strict intake since like Friday. I am not starving myself infact the opposite. I am doing what Gam is doing. I found the overall caloric intake that is right for me and I am sticking with it (low fat) eating like 5 times a day to keep the metabolism going. I feel better and amazingly enough can feel changes. But I am on this lifestyle/way of living kick...it's for overall health and well being. I don't want to hurt myself anymore. What a gift! Enjoy the evening!
__________________ I'll let go of what I was, accept myself for what I am- and become who I was meant to be! 2-15-08 |
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03-04-2008, 06:55 PM
| #116 (permalink) |
| Gigi, BootLiquor, whatever.... |
As of March 4th: Odaat#-254 Goldie#-178 Dave*-153 Gambaru-67 Roxie-25 Falloutcity-22 BrokenSword-19 Jack-16 Cali-16 Nina-14 Miss Communicat-13 Gotta love um-13 Sugar magnolia-8 Cupowater-on hiatus Barb-on hiatus Pony-on hiatus Mike-on hiatus Remember...You Are NOT Alone! 
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03-05-2008, 11:25 AM
| #118 (permalink) |
| came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast
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Right now I am thinking how can my resolve be so strong sometimes and at others see like I am constitutionally incapable of anything?? It puzzles me. What I do see is that when I am connected with AA and others, I do better in all areas especially with food. Today, I continue to do the next right thing with food. I am determined to make this a life change not just a quick-fix-lose weight thing. By the grace of my HP I will also remain abstinent from OS’s and stay on the beam. I will remember to check my thoughts if I don’t like the way my day is going!
__________________ I'll let go of what I was, accept myself for what I am- and become who I was meant to be! 2-15-08 |
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03-05-2008, 04:32 PM
| #119 (permalink) |
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Eaten a bit more today than planned, but i worked 15 hours from last night so maybe i am entitled to a bit extra;anyway most of it was okay food. I find that i try to work on my own peace of mind and not getting upset or rising to the bait. I feel so much better when my blood starts to boil and that voice of reason tells me that it doesn't matter, and i actually listen to it. Thanks to all for everything, this has become part of my daily routine(when possible), and helps me fight the good fight.
__________________ Into each life some rain must fall,some days be dark and dreary. The Difficult is that which can be done immediately;the Impossible that which takes a little longer. |
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03-05-2008, 05:37 PM
| #120 (permalink) |
| Gigi, BootLiquor, whatever.... |
As of March 5th: Odaat#-255 Goldie#-179 Dave*-154 Gambaru-68 Roxie-26 Falloutcity-23 BrokenSword-......................20 DAYS!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!  Jack-17 Cali-17 Nina-15 MisS Communicat-14 Gotta love um-14 Sugar magnolia-9 Cupowater-on hiatus Barb-on hiatus Pony-on hiatus Mike-on hiatus Remember...You Are NOT Alone! 
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03-06-2008, 12:19 AM
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I relate to what you are saying Cali so well. My day yesterday was so unproductive that it wasn't funny. In the same way I can just act now without thinking with regards to making good food choices, I have to do the same with work! I seem to have lost my motivation but act as if I'm motivated and then hopefully it will come back..... hopefully.
__________________ Thought one: Just for today, I remember that my disease is progressive even if I am not active in it. Thought two: May I make the most of today and be a channel of all the good things in life. |
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03-06-2008, 03:24 AM
| #122 (permalink) |
| came-came to-came to believe Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: east coast
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Dave-I like the way you put that about actually listening to your voice of reason. I have glimpses of that all the time with little things-and I am listening now too. I think afterward that if I hadn't listened, the situation would have escalated into something I wouldn't want to be part of today. Gam--I SO relate to you with the work thing...I act "as if" there a lot.....I know that if I can "make it" there I'll make it anywhere! I can see that I am already so much freer by getting a lot of my past off my chest. But now here comes the stuff that I need to work on and change in myself, so I can be more at peace with my current relationships with others in my life--- so I don't stay stuck. This is about change, plain and simple....I am ready to do the work---whatever it is that will help me be the person I am meant to be. I can’t even believe the transformation of my relationship with food over the last 8 days. This is so big for me. Again, it’s not just about losing weight—it’s taking care of myself, making sure I get what I need to be healthy……no, I am not used to feeling good----but it SURE beats feeling bad! Ok--I am off to get ready for work---I am learning to say before I go into the office that I am greatful to have a job!! It helps for me
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03-06-2008, 05:53 AM
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| Rockin 'n' rollin' everyday Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Midwest
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To all, I love the "voice of reason" phrase. I act irrationally when I choose to eat OS's. I cannot have one bite because, sooner or later, I will loose my "voice of reason" and listen to my "voice of addiction" in whatever form it takes. I, too, seem to be loosing my motivation for work, and am spending more time working out at the fitness center (which is good) and playing internet checkers....which is not so good. I am grateful I can find people who wil pay me money to do what I enjoy doing. Take care today....I want another 24 hours sober. |
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