Working the steps. Step 2

[Nina Kay]

I felt that it might be good to go ahead and start the next step. I don't want to stall anyone's progress at working these steps at our own pace. So if you are ready, please share with us on this step also.

Step 2: Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

When I first read this step, I thought, "Well, I already know my God and I believe that He is all powerful, but that hasn't seemed to help me with my eating problem ever before." I've asked Him to help me a few times, but I decided that He didn't, because I was supposed to get control of myself. It was my responsibility and I should and could get a grip, if I wanted to badly enough. I felt so ashamed that I wasn't.

I eventually realized that it was my disturbed thinking that kept me from realizing that I was personally not powerful enough to handle this by myself and that I wasn't asking my God to help me with faith that He actually would. I certainly didn't think that I needed my sanity restored. I didn't even think of that, as I never thought that I had lost my sanity, in the first place. But later I realized that my way of thinking was very disturbed and was therefore insanity. So now I know that I am powerless over food and my compulsive behavior with food, but my God, my Higher Power, is very much more powerful than me and is capable of storing me to sanity where my compulsive behavior with food is concerned.

Thanks so much for listening everyone. It helps me so much to share this here and I hope that it will help everyone else as much, that desires to join in.

[cali]

Step 2:

Wow--thank you Nina-that is so powerful.....it occurred to me that I don't believe I have ever humbly asked God for help with my food issues......I ask myself why? Why would I NOT ask for help?? I don't know---perhaps a few reasons mixed together...

I can see clearly now after reading your post that during times of abstinence that I have had I always "relied" on something else to "get me through" weather it was caffeine or cigarettes-exercise etc...

I have never relied on the only thing that I really have when all is said and done--
my Higher Power.....

This was a big wake up call for me-thank you so much for starting this thread!!!!

[Neagrm]

Nina Kay, are you saying you needed to ask your God to help you have faith He would restore your sanity?

I know my HP is able to do what I cannot. But I am still caught in shame and guilt, stuck in it. Despite my belief, there is some sort of big block. Maybe it's a self esteem issue, not feeling deserving on a deep level despite faith in a HP.

Your bringing this up brings to my attention I really need to work on Step 2! I've just started working more in-depth on Step 8 with my sponsor. But I have a feeling Step 2 is a crucial aspect I need to return to every single day and it needs on-going work to have any real change.

Thanks!
Nea