Hurting for loved ones

[Biscuits]

Hi all

I am an enotional wreck, i am burnt out with supporting someone whom i love so dearly (My little girl, my sweet 16 year old daughter). She has had a hell of fortnight with exam stress, pms and boyfriend trouble and over the last two nights it call came to a head. She and her b/f split and she sobbed and sobbed, i never realised that 16 year olds could love that much but she had totally given her heart to him and was in bits. I am greatful that i am able to support her today with an abstinent and sane mind but it is so exhausting. Not so much being there for her but the stuff it brings up for me.

If i'm honest i'm almost jealous of the fact that she is feeling her fellings so strongly and crying and sobbing as a way of release. These are tools i have only learnt to use over the last 10 years of my life, if i cried it always had a motive attached to it not to release how i was feeling. My mother has never known how to support me and although i forgive her for that today it still hurts when i think about it, i sometimes feel the little girl inside of me needs a hug and someone to tell her the moment will pass.

There's other stuff going on aswell that needs attention and i know that HP will give me the courage to get on and deal with these issues but right now fear is holding me back. I know i need to do another step four on a relationship that is going through alot of problems at the moment but i am as yet stuck in resentment so i am praying for this to be lifted and the willingness to be honest with my husband about it as it his mother who i have the problems with.

I am greatful today that i no longer turn my life over to the food and continue to keep working my program but sometimes i get tired and lack the ability to focus on what i should be doing to stay well. Sometimes i use other old tricks to escape life such as duvet therapy, i almost didn't go to work yesterday because in my head i had planned a day of movies and duvet therapy. Thank you HP for doing for me what i cannot sometimes do for myself as i did show up for life and did not isolate.

Anyhow i need to go and get ready for work today so i will keep putting one foot in front of the other following the plan the God has for me today.

Love to all

[Gambaru]

((((((Biscuits)))))) I'm sure your daughter really appreciated you being there. Keep taking care of your own needs, and I pray everything goes well with the discussion about the MIL.

[sugarssweetpea]

Biscuits,

Much love & much hugs to you. I admire you for staying strong & being there for your daughter in her time of need. I admire you for staying strong with your eating habits in the middle of a stressful & emotional time. I pray for God's peace for you & your family. The peace that passes all understanding. The peace that comes only from you, father. I pray you will continue to be obedient to God & His will for your life. In Jesus Name ~ Amen.