Alcoholic Anorexic

[Corrie85]

THinking about getting sober and have been sober for 12 days now, has been pretty tough on me let alone now, realizing it's just my fear of relapsing. its always been this way, either to gain the weight and to forget aboutgaining it, drinking, and then once im sober for a short period of time its right back to being anorexic. does anyone else have this problem?

[Done-With-It]

When I stopped doing meth, I stopped cutting, and throwing up also. I did the meth mainly, esp. in the beginning to keep the weight off.
For me I had to stop it all, I was in therapy for all of it, so that helped.
But yea I can relate, I would just switch from one to the other, that's why I went full on and had to stop it all.
Hardest thing ever, I though I was going to die at times, but I did it.
Was totally worth it.

[Corrie85]

awesome, so how long have you been sober?

[Done-With-It]

Two years one month and three days, LOL

[Done-With-It]

It's common to switch back and forth between things like that, a lot of people tend to do it.
There's also a good site, somethingfishy.com have you been there?
They are great for ED's

[Corrie85]

yes ive been there, but my mind set right now is that i should lose a lot of weight since i gained 30 from drinking

[marcella98]

Corrie I am the same way. When I stopped drinking I picked up more and more drugs than before. When I stopped drinking and drugs altogether I started smoking again (even though I had quit smoking for two years before I got sober). Then my eating disorder came back with a vengeance. I hadn't been bulimic in years, and suddenly I found myself binging and purging and trying to get rid of the weight I gained from the alcohol.

I have almost one year sober now, yet I am really frustrated that I cannot find peace of mind in recovery from addiction. I may be able to put down alcohol and drugs but I immediately replace it for something-- binging, purging, cigarettes, whatever. I am working on a solution but until I get there it is a frustrating process and I understand exactly what you are going through.

One thing is for sure, picking up will not help. Getting sober and finding a program of recovery, and maybe a therapist might be a good start if that is something you can do.

[Corrie85]

thanks for sharing all of that, and im trying very hard everyday to do the right thing for me..