Struggling with excuses.....

[Pony]

Hey everyone, it's been kind of hard lately. I have really been off any kind of routine and my eating has been very irratic. My choice of foods haven't been to bad, but my protion control and meal/snack schedule is all out of wack. Since school started back and I am back to work, I have been so off all of my routine. I have not been to the gym in a few weeks, and I am not happy with myself about that. Schedules around here have changed and I have not evolved into the new routine to include my exercise program or get my meals planned correctly. In short, I feel like a mess.


I need to take some time out, get in a quiet place and do some planning for my week. Knowing it and doing it seem to be two different things...lol... which is really not a laughing matter but my silly sense of humor keeps it all out of my head.

Motivation....... I get so motivated and then distracted before I have the opportunity to act on it. But I am allowing that distraction and that's what makes me so upset with "me". I have wonderful support here from individual friends. It's me.... I keep myself from doing what I need to do. Excuses become convenient reasons for why I am not doing what I should do; not taking that time I need for "me" to work on "me" and so my excuse to fail gets set in motion as well.

I have some work to do. then come back here and hold myself accountable!!!

[Nina Kay]

Pony,
I wanted to let you know that I did read your post and I sure can understand what your feeling cause I'm there now.

In short, I feel like a mess.

This statement of yours, is so me right now. I've completely relapsed except for being still abstinent from obvious sweets. The rest of my so-called recovery program is totally a mess. I'm so tired lately and now, so I've got to get off this computer and go to bed. I really hope that you do get by yourself to lay out your plan for the week ahead, each week. I know that it's what I NEED to do also. I just wanted to come here to give you an ((((((((((((Understanding Hug)))))))))))))))

[Pony]

Thank you Nina. I love your hugs.

[roxiestone]

Sometimes it helps just to do ONE thing that's "on program", whatever that may be for you. Just find a single thread to begin to pull yourself back into focus.

It's just gets so hard, it seems, to maintain the focus and so when things go off the rails, what works for me it to take some time to reflect and plan for the future. I hope you are able to find your way. I hope we all are.