I'm worried that...

[alex590]

I have relapsed into an eating disorder.When I was 14, I began to excessively exercise and not eat. I lost a considerable amount of weight. My parents finally noticed that I was 82 pounds at 14 and got me some help. I went into counseling for a while and got better, but of course, weight is always on my mind.

I came to this site recently because my boyfriend struggles with a drug addiction and it's been upsetting me. First, I was crying and depressed but now that's stopped and I think it's turned into something else. I've become absolutely obsessed with my weight again. Somedays I just don't eat...then I tried dieting and consume no more than 800 calories a day...

I'm scared. I feel I need to lose 10 pounds to be happy. What do I do?

[Nina Kay]

Alex,
I want to Welcome you to the Eating Disorders Forum and to SR as a whole. You've certainly come to the right place. Welcome Home. At the top of the first page of this forum there are posts that are called Stickys. There is alot of helpful information to be found there. I hope that you'll check them out and I hope that you will be able to make good use of the treasures there. I also really hope that you'll keep coming back here often to read past posts and to share with us, your feelings and struggles. Others will be along soon to share with you, their experiences. I'm glad that you've found us here.

[Afraid2Succeed]

Originally Posted by alex590

I have relapsed into an eating disorder.When I was 14, I began to excessively exercise and not eat. I lost a considerable amount of weight. My parents finally noticed that I was 82 pounds at 14 and got me some help. I went into counseling for a while and got better, but of course, weight is always on my mind.

I came to this site recently because my boyfriend struggles with a drug addiction and it's been upsetting me. First, I was crying and depressed but now that's stopped and I think it's turned into something else. I've become absolutely obsessed with my weight again. Somedays I just don't eat...then I tried dieting and consume no more than 800 calories a day...

I'm scared. I feel I need to lose 10 pounds to be happy. What do I do?

Hi Alex,
I don't pretend to know much about eating disorders, but I've heard consistently that people w/eating dx have 'control' issues. Your boyfriend has a drug habit that is out of your control. However, obsessing about your weight is something you have more control over. Just food for thought.

Stress is often a precursor to eating problems. If you have to free yourself of your boyfriend to be less stressed out, then so be it. I know a woman who went to medical school, became a doctor, but ultimately had to quit her job because it was too stressful and contributing to her eating problems. Talk about major life change!

I hope you continue to share your struggles with your weight.
Best,
Dave

[Pony]

Welcome Alex to this forum. I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling right now. My struggles are more with overeating then not eating. But there are members here that do share in the same experiences as you decribe. So I hope that you will come back and keep posting...they will be along to reply and share with you.

Dave above had some really good things to say....somethings to think about anyway.

[alex590]

Thank you all for your support and kindness. I noticed your good points, Dave. I have realized it is a control issue, and I know my problems with my boyfriend are attributing to it. It's hard to get it off my mind though..all I can think about it how much I need to lose, how much I weigh, how much my friends weigh, how to lose weight. I'm constantly looking up new diets...or cutting calories wherever I can.

It feels like I'm going crazy.