Counting my blessings.......

[Pony]

I'll tell ya, it's been up and down lately. I get so mad at my limitations and try so hard not to let them get in my way....not to become my excuse not to do what I need to do. But.........then I know that acceptance of them has to be done as well. My asthma that I have had since child hood just gets in the way. All the time lately. I use the med's....regularly these days so that I can workout, but in the last few days even they haven't been working. I have not been to the gym, as I have said in another post, for most of this week.....again !

It bothers me because I am finally seeing some progress to my efforts and I don't want to stop. But taking this time out makes it so easy to just become to relaxed in not going. I need consistancy or it just doesn't work. It has been this way all my life. The progress is slow, but it is there in small little amounts. My ankles have gone down...more than it being water weight. My fingures/hands also. How do I know this.....I don't put clothes on my ankels and hands......no....I am wearing jewlery in sizes that I couldn't get on before. Some of my clothes are fitting much better also. It is working.

So because I have not been able to workout, I have been trying to watch my food even closer.......that's been....well, just ok. I have had some things that weren't such a healthy choice. Have been doing lots of portion control thou.

It's hard to accept these things without feeling like it's hopeless that I will ever reach my goal.


OK, well, about a week ago I went and had a small makeover, not sure if I already shared that info., for Mary Kay cosmetics. Yesterday was the second follow up they do to make sure you didn't have any reaction to the stuff and also to show you more of what they offer. We, my mom, oldest daughter, and a friend of mine, all had a full treatment facial and make-up thing. It was great. Learned alot about my skin and how to deal with it and how to apply some stuff in the correct way. It was really cool..... it was a great womens day !!!

Anyway, we also enter this contest that Mary Kay is doing for their little catalog. They are searching out some new faces to use......so we entered. The rep. took some pictures of us and is going to send us copies to our emails. Really cool.

It was a great mood booster to take the time out yesterday and do this. I didn't let the fact that I have no money right now get in me way. I just explained to her that I won't have any money until school starts again. But when it does, I have some products I am going to get. I never do this.....buy stuff for me....for my body or my skin. I never really take the time for this sort of thing, but I figure it's time. Why not? People are always telling me how young I look....that I don't look my age, well, I'd better take care of that or they won't be saying those things to me pretty soon. You know.

The other part of accepting things about me is that I have the Roceasa (sp?) on my face. So some of the age defying products out there I can't even use. Not to mention how it looks on my face. Like I needed anything else to lower my self-esteem....my opinion of my self when I look in the mirror.

Anyways, I also had a really good reminder that my HP is looking out after me and in always on the job. Before the facial, my friend and I, were cruising the neighborhood looking at a few yard sales and came across one that had roller blades....my daughter need new ones, so stopped to take a look.....well, they were so tried of already being out there in the heat and all, they gave them to me along with a bag full of clothes about my little's sizes. She said that I could have whatever I wanted there.....that they were tired and done sitting out there.....lol so I did....looked around and got a few things for my oldest duaghter also and my g-daughter and me. We found two little pony's that I have in my car now.

So in all I have had a rough couple of weeks with health issues and some other emotional stuff too, but yesterday, God have me a wonderful day and reminded me to be grateful and thankful for what I do have and the blessings that have been given to me as well.

hugs

[renee18]

Pony I am glad you checked in. It is great to hear from you. I am so glad that you went and got a make-oever. I love mary-kay make-up. You are so strong. your HP is looking out for you. I have seen my in the past week with all the blessing as well. keep your head up. I am so proud of you. Keep coming back and posting Pony.

love ya

[historyteach]

Pony,
I'm glad you did nice things for yourself! You deserve it!
I have roscea too...I understand....
Continue to do good things for you. And if you can't get to the gym, just walk for 20-30 minutes if you can. Every little bit helps.

Shalom!

[Nina Kay]

Hi Pony,
I'm happy to hear that your counting your blessings in the midst of your struggles that are keeping you from your personal progress. I do think that acceptance of your immediate circumstances is such a positive step. I'm so glad to hear that you are accepting what is. Otherwise you'll be just beating against a brick wall that won't move and it'll make everything harder for you. The acceptance is the hardest part though. At least it always is for me. I'm glad that you've realized that you need to accept your asthma for what it is and you've accepted that you need to do what is best for your health right now even though it's not what you want to do and you feel that it might be detrimental to your exercise program. It's inspiring that you're keeping such a grateful and positive attitude. Just do the best things for you and your health today, just one day at a time and I know that you won't see any negative results from your ordeal. Keep on keepin' on. You're doing great !!!
(((((((((((Get Well Soon Hugs))))))))))))

[Pony]

Thanks ladies. I am trying to keep on the brighter side...lol...but sometimes it gets a little dim and I have to remind myself of the pos. and when I don't remind myself.... HP does it for me. Gotta love Him. Your support helps keep me out of that dark place where I find it very easy to slip into in a heart beat.


Teach, the reason I haven't been able to get to the gym is the same reason that I wouldn't be able to go for any walks.... the exertion. I wasn't able to do any kind of extra activity. Sitting still I was having trouble breathing. That is why I finally went into the Med. Center and got the breathing treatment. I feel much better now, but still have a flare up on occasion. I had one when I was on the phone having a "words" with my mother about my priorities as a mom !! As if I didn't already know that after having raised three already. (one of the reason I hesitate to share a house with her)

Anyway, I do feel on the mend from this bout with the asthma. I am going to try to get to the gym tomorrow and see how it goes.

Thanks again for the support.