celebration

[Biscuits]

Hi all

Well what can i say but an enormous thankyou to everyone who has supported me through this desease to get me this far. This far being 10 whole years of recovery from compulsive overeating - although there is a three week relapse in there that i choose to count as part of my recovery as i learnt the most important lesson from it. (I will never be cured!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

I never believed that i would be able to stop the destructive behaviours i practised around food, and was at rock bottom when i discovered that i was a food addict. I hated having to admit this to begin with because i felt so ashamed of myself, but looking back today over the last 10 years i see miracles strung all through it so i thought i would share some with you all.

1. I have not eaten chocolate for 10 years yesterday
2. I have not eaten any obvious sugars for 8 years, since my relapse
3. I have many normal relationships in my life today
4. I have put boundaries up and not let them be trampled down due to people
pleasing
5. I coped with my sisters suicide bid abstinently
6. I have a fantastic relationship with my husband (even the sex is good lol)
7. I am emotionally available to all the people in my life
8. I have stopped looking for a cure
9. I got through my child abuse therapy without food taking over my life
10. I am comfortable with who i am, i realise that i am as God chooses me to be
each day i walk on this planet.
11. I am happy (strange but i forget this one sometimes)
12. I feel enough today
13. Life doesn't scare or overwhelm me today
14. I can be anything i want to be, today i am a sexy, beautiful woman who loves and laughs alot

I know i'm waffling now, i could go on forever because i truly never thought that i would be free of this killer desease.

I know that i have so many people to thank but i also need to remember that this path has been a long hard journey that has taken me to some very dark places, with the help of HP and my recovery friends i have been able to take it slowly and not run before i could walk. I know that this journey is not at an end, i will continue to walk this path all my life and hopefully continue with many more years of recovery but this to is in Gods hand one day at a time.

Much love to all, my heart is singing and my body wants to dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[BigSis]

with the help of HP and my recovery friends i have been able to take it slowly and not run before i could walk.

Thank you, Biscuits.... I needed this today. ((Hugs))

[BeeBee]

No chocolate for 10 yrs and no obvious sweets for 8 yrs. I am in total awe of you. You rock in my world. Congratulations on your achievements, hard work and deligence to working your program. Blessings.

[Nina Kay]

Thanks so much Biscuits for sharing your victories with us and how you've accomplished them. You are truly an inspiration and I'm so glad that you've come here to this forum to share your experience, strength and hope.

12. I feel enough today.

I can't imagine ever being able to say this honestly. I know that's sad, but it's the emotional defect that is at the root of all of my problems, I think. Again, thanks for sharing and Congratulations for all that you've accomplished and learned.

[cali]

Wow biscuits-that is truly inspirational!!! Congratulations to you! Reading your post I was welling up with happy tears---I marvel at the folks that share their experience strength and hope in overcoming addiction---whatever form it takes on.

I am having a really tough day but you post has helped me turn it around.
Thank you so much

[Biscuits]

Thanks for your posts guys but i want to just say that i am no-one special, i remind myself daily of this.

God does for me what i cannot do for myself, i do the footwork and somehow i don't obssess about the food. When i came into recovery i thought that i would never be able to stop the self destructive threads that ran throughout my core but with the support of wonderful people who God put in my path i have been able to live a life that is free of food obssession. (At least 98% anyway)

This path has not been easy, quite the opposite there have been times when i have wanted to run away from facing my feelings and hibernate under the duvet with my false friend the food. God has always at those times given me the strength and willingness to go that little bit further.

I went to my meeting last night and there was a big fuss about me reaching this milestone, and i had to bring everyone back down to earth. Yes it is wonderful that i have reached this amazing time in recovery but i am still only one bite away from being an active compulsive overeater. I am no more important in fellowship than the struggling newcomer, i am there message of hope that recvoery is available but they are also my message that relaspe is possible to any of us.

My strength and abilty to abstain from active compulsive overeating is a combination of things that i do daily that allow me freedom from the food obsession, these things done together work miracles in my life but none more than the relationship i have with my higher power, i had never experienced true wholeness until HP came into my life. He is the light that shines out of my eyes each day, he is the hand that guides my food choices and he loves me just as i am. For this i am truly in awe of his power.

I love working this program, i did not have rules for how to live life before program, i just stumbled from one catastrophe to the next, these simple 12 steps are my blue print to life, they give me the ability to deal with daily problems that arise, nothing is too big to handle today and life good.

If i can do this then so can you, i am no one special, just an ordinary woman who was lucky enough to be chosen to go into recovery.

Love and hugs to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!