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[MeToo]

Hi, I'm new here.... I'm 41 and the mom of 4 great kids and the wife of a wonderful husband.....

I'm also struggling with an eating issue in that I don't eat and throw up every time I do....

I'm losing weight.... which isn't totally bad cause I have quite a lot to spare, but its not a good way to go about it and I realize that....

I'm also being treated by my family doctor for depression and have begun taking anti-depressants... (I think he hopes that the depression lifting will help with the eating thing)

I'm having a terrible time dealing with the fact that I'm this messed up in my thinking and this needy of help..... (nothing arrogant about me, eh? LOL)

and I'm tired of being in the bathroom every time I eat.... If I could know that I wouldn't go back to eating everything in sight, I don't think it would stress me quite as bad to eat as it does... but it seems that the harder I try to not throw up and just eat sensibly, the worse it gets.... =

anywho... just wanted to say hi.....

[Pony]

Welcome Me Too,

Glad to have you join our little group. Everyone here is trying to deal with one sort of eating issue or another so just jump right in and I'm sure you'll find someone here who can relate to what you are saying. Sharing your experiences and feelings and thoughts are a big part of recovery and many here could find comfort in sharing your same story of challanges.

Hugs,

[criscee]

am the same age as of yesterday. have the same issue. lost 100lbs for the mostpart sensibly now have a huge eating disorder problem. i sought help here cuz i didn't know where else to go. even when i eat sensibly it gets me freaked out. but have been in more control of it since i've been able to express my issues. i am not good at not eating so i would just go overboard. now i don't beat myself up. i eat what i want when i want it but i don't over do it. have had to walk thru uncomfortable situtations and talk myself out of the bathroom. it is truly hard sometimes. but i keep coming back and hope you do too. hey pony always good to see your name. i love the things you have to say.

[Newme]

I am new here, and can relate to your story. I have been in recovery from Bulimia for about one year, but have not fully dealt with my food issues.

I am trying to approach things from a 'healthy' perspective and have started a food plan.

If you would like to try a food plan with me let me know?

Hugs to you, I know how you feel, I really do. I don't quite know how I got to stop binging purging. I think I just made a choice that I'd rather be overweight then purge. For my daugters sake as well as my own. I made a decision to try to love myself in spite of a few extra pounds, but to try to live a 'healthy' life, KWIM?

I am a work in progress, and have occasional bouts with the big B, but am doing very well for the most part.

Now if I'd only stick to this fargen food plan

[criscee]

i'm listening. thank you for the support. it's so comforting to know that there are others who suffer and some who've overcome it. my problem is that i don't want to be as big as i was. that scares me more than anything. it was so unhealthy and really ugly. i don't want to be that. when i think i've over done it i get rid of it. so i'm trying to face what it is that triggers those episodes. so i'm always open to what folks are saying.

[Newme]

(((Criscee)))

I soooo know that fear.

All I can say is healing is a process. It wont happen overnight, but this is the beginning for you! Congratulations for taking the first on many steps I know you'll take to get well.

I am feeling great about planning meals, and managing my disorder.

I know you will be here someday too. I feel I am entering a 'new' beginning, and part of that is acceptance. 1. Accepting that I have to plan my meals each day. 2. Accepting that I may never be Courtney Cox. 3. Accepting that I have an eating disorder and like an alcoholic, I can not have a so called 'normal' relationship with food. I am one of the few Americans who admits I have a problem, and I am going to do something about it. Our country is dealing with one big 'eating disorder' as over eating is a disorder in and of itself. It's an unhealthy relationship with food (period). You and I are taking the higher ground by acting on what needs to be acted upon, right?

Also, I am patient with myself when I have a bad day. I tend to think in terms of grey when I back track, instead of "oh well I blew it lets pig out"...

Looking forward to 'growing' no pun intended togather
:Peace

[criscee]

you're absolutely right. we are all a bunch of overeaters in this country. and i too have to accept that i'm never going to have a perfect body. i'm really okay with that cuz i don't want to work that hard for it anyway. but i just want to look good in my clothes. i don't look too bad now. but i could look better. so planning meals is good. here's my problem.....i am not good at meals. i like to eat thru out the day. i eat a little here and a little there and then i don't feel like i'm depriving myself. i don't have enough control to eat just 3 times a day. but i plan what i'm going to eat thru the day. but what blows it for me is if i run into something i might enjoy more than what i brought to work you know? lol.......sometimes it's just comical.

[Newme]

Criscee~ thanks for the reply. I actually broke out my fruit so I have two fruit snacks for total of 5 munchy meals

It's food for thought for you anyhow. It's the only way for me. And, I have accepted it and enjoy it now that I've made it simple.

I have charts and info if you'd like, pm me your email and i'll send away.

Peace, keep me posted!

but what blows it for me is if i run into something i might enjoy more than what i brought to work you know? lol.......sometimes it's just comical.

Edited to reply to this...

One of the keys to abstinence is avoiding all binge foods. You could start there if you'd like.

For me that would be nuts, beer cheezit crackers (hot n spicy) ect. :p