Still Here.

[Nina Kay]

Hi. I just wanted everyone to know that I am still here. I do still have an eating disorder. I am still a compulsive overeater and an all around food addict. I am still a binge eater. I am still a sugar addict.

I do still care about each of you and I do want to encourage you and be understanding and supportive, as much as I possibly can. I have thought of each of you often. I haven't forgotten any of you. I'm sorry that I haven't been here much, lately. I do keep trying, but am pretty much braindead and drained from being so tired after each day of babysitting. I will try to do better to be here for you and for myself, but of course, I can make no promises that I can for-sure keep, but to try my best under the circumstances.

I am still abstinent from obvious sugary sweets, aspertame, & sodas. I have lost 21 or 22 lbs, with the support of you all, but I've started to gain some back slowly, lately, since I've not been doing good with my portions or choosing wisely what I eat and when. I do know that I need to set up an eating plan, write it down and stick with it, one day at a time. I do feel that I need to plan my meals the day before, and write it down, and stick with my plan for that day.

I haven't been getting any proper exercise, except for playing and tending to toddlers every day, but the Drs. say that it isn't the right kind of exercise, even if it is alot of physical activity. I know that I would do so much better in so, so many ways if I would get back to walking outside every day for 30 min. to an hour, but I just haven't figured out how to fit this into my schedule in a realistic way that I am capable of doing right now.

As for the sweets, I almost gave in last night to my favorite binge food, but my grown loving daughter stopped me for then, with authority and concern for me in her voice, as she said "No Mama" when I picked it up at the grocery store. I did reluctantly listen to her and today I am grateful to her for caring about my health.

I hope that each of you here, are doing great with your recovery programs and as I've said, I will try my best to get in here at least, once a day from now on. I am here to commit this to you, one day at a time. I do need you all and this forum for myself, as much as I do need to be here for each of you. I want to thank each of you that have done so, for continuing to come here for your own recovery, as well as to support others. You are wonderful and you are what keeps this forum alive and working. Thank you so much. ((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

[Pony]

Hey Lady, I am glad to see you. I have missed you being around, but as know what it has been like to be that tired. I, too, have the same problem and haven't been as "around" as I would like to be either.

I am happy that you are still hanging in there. I know how hard it can be to continue on without having the plans in order and the routine going. Just keep at it. I also got away from writing down my food and planning out my day. But somehow I have been doing good just winging it. I think keeping up with my exercise program is what is making the difference for me.

Don't worry about things around here, just come on in and get your support....you are always supportive and a big inspiration to me.

Lots of hugs from a friend.

[Biscuits]

Lovely to hear from you Nina Kay really missed seeing you around the posts.

It sounds like you lead a pretty hectic lifestyle, looking after small children is sure a job that wears you out, i remeber when mine were really little i never used to stop running around after them.

Just remember to take time for yourself too, you deserve it. I hope that you can come and post more but do what you can and when you can't don't worry about it just get the rest you need to look after yourself.

Lots of love and ((((((((hugs)))))))))))

[Nina Kay]

Hi Biscuits,
Thank you so much for your encouragement and understanding. I really appreciate you. I'm always inspired by your posts. Keep up the great progress towards recovery. (((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))

[Nina Kay]

Thank you so much, Earthmaiden, for being so understanding and empathetic about my extreme tiredness and my absence. I feel honored that you noticed that I was missing and even asked about me. That makes me feel good.

I'd love to know how you've been. I was glad to see that you had posted to my thread. I very muchly notice when you're missing too.
(((((((((((((Loving Hugs)))))))))))))))

[pedagogue]

Wow, I see a number of familiar names in this thread....*waves*. Glad to see your post, just "keep on keepin' on".

Some random things that came up while I read your post:

FoodSaver (vacuum sealer for freezing stuff)....awesome for preparing your meals ahead of time and freezing them individually. Portion control is easy when you do it from a place of strength, and not reactionary in the moment.

Not all exercise is equal. Getting your heart rate up (and substaining it) for 20-30 minutes will do a world more good than intermittent movement/exercise.

(this last one you can take or leave) I understand why people 'abstain' from certain things (i.e. trigger foods), but it I sometimes wonder if abstinence is always better then moderation (in the case of food). I guess there is one hurdle at a time, and this may be one down the way and not front and center.

Either way, it is great to hear from a name from the past (at least for me anyway)

-p

[Nina Kay]

Hi Peda, (Nina *waves* back)
Thanks for the helpful ideas. It's good to see you here again. I hope that things have been going well for you. How's your website going? I haven't even had a chance to check in there for a long while. I haven't been even coming in here as often as I need to. Anyway, take care of yourself and check in here as often as you can. (((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))

[pedagogue]

Glad I could help!

I try to stop by when I have a chance. I didn't realize i was gone for 9-10+ months last year! I've been swamped, but in a good way. The website is doing okay, though I need to find a new hosting company....my old one kept screwing stuff up. I should get it back up this weekend.

Anyhow.....best of luck, I"ll keep an eye out for ya when I swing by.

-p