I think I need help and support

Well I'm not very familiar with message boards and especially not familiar with asking people for help or support.
I am a single mom and Im in my 20's and I think that I have come to the conclusion that I overeat and need help for alcoholism.
I dont drink very often mabey once a month and only if my son has plans to stay at my sisters or something for the night. Then I go out with friends and we drink. When I wake up the next morning I never feel good about my self. I have always done something or said something that I regret, and it feels like when I'm drunk I'm totally some one else and I can picture who I am when I'm drunk and I dont like that person. I know you dont need to drink everyday to be an alcoholic so I'm thinking that mabey I am an alcoholic and I just go through dry spells.
My father was an alcoholic and one of my older sisters is in AA so I'm thinking chances are that I also have issues with alcohol.
I had a drug addiction from when I was 13 until about 18. I took anything I could get (pot, acid etc..) I was the girl who always got stoned with all they guys and I seemed to wear that title like a badge of honour for some reason. Any I quit all drugs when I found out I was pregnant 6 years ago and havent' touched them since.
I'm sorry I'm writing so much but I've never been this open and honest about myself and I figured if I'm going to ask for help and support I need to be. It also feels good writing all this, almost like a relief. I've never really told anyone ALL of my addictions.
Any way my main concern (besides alcohol) is my eating problem. I think I am an over eater. When I was in my teens I was bulimic (sorry my spelling isn't great) and anorexic. My weight got dangerously low. But now my problem is the opposite, I eat to much and am over weight. I guess I can't control my eating and didn't realize until I came to this site that people considered it an addiction. I was so happy to see people who have over come or are trying to overcome a combination of eating and alcohol addictions. I dont feel as crazy about myself.
Any way I'm sorry for writing so much , it just felt so good to get it out without the fear of being judged or the fear of the reactions on people's faces if I tried to tell them this.
I hope to control my eating and hopefully this is the first step for me.
Thanks for reading this and not judging me.

[Paulie]

reena7997 -

Welcome to SR, this is a great place for friendship and support.

First, never apologize for writing too much, we let go of what we need to at the time, you should see some of the books Ihave written here LOL!

Second, you are not alone, we are all here dealing with our addicitons one day at a time.

I am a recoverying addict with over 7 years clean and sober. I have had food issues all my life, except when I was using speed of course. When I first got clean and was working a strong program of recvoery I managed my weight, then a fw years into recovery, I started getting kinda full of myself and program lapsed, and I relapsed but with food instead of drugs and I gained 60 pounds. I am slowly losing it not just by treating myself better, eating better and exercising, but by dealing with issues within me. I am working a daily program of recovery again. Working with a sponsor attending meetings regularly, working with a sponsee again, and working with others here at SR. I tell you all this so that you understand me, sharing ourselves helps us connect and help each other.

Have you ever thought of attending a 12 step program? Not a requirement, just a question.

I am really glad you found us and I hope that you stick around and we get to know you better.

A new forum just started here called ACOA (adult children of alcohalics) take a look when you have time, you might find it interesting considering the history you mentioned.

Again, welcome and I hope to get to know you better.

[Rachael]

Congradulations on being able to say all that. Dont appologize

[Pony]

Reena,

I'd like to join everyone in welcoming you to this forum. It's always great to hear from someone new as well as from those who have been around because there is always something to be learned from everyone. Please always feel free to share whatever and as much as you would like to. We are all here to listen and support and recover together.

Yes I am one of those who is a firm believer in the fact that food issues are very closely tied that addictions. It's the addictive behavior and attitude that go with the emotional abuse we put ourselves through that tie it together with the drug/alcohol addiction. It is very common for an alcoholic to trade one addiction for another, and food is so hard to recognize as such because it doesn't make you high or lose control of you senses. Well.....I say Hah!!! It's just a different kind of high and as far as your senses go.....I have been known to polish off two or three helpings.....platefuls of food before I relized that I had done such a thing. Or a whole package of cookies.............and boy did I feel soothed.....that is until I realized what I had done, then I felt guilty and ashamed.

So relax...sit back....and type away and let us get to know you and you, us, it will be great!!

Pony