Losing weight, need booze :(

[mimi54321]

I am having a nightmare, again.

I have suffered from Anorexia/Bulimia for many years, booze helped me stop throwing up - strange but true.

The problem I have now is after quitting drinking (well its been 3 weeks and I've only drank on about 3 days during that period) is..

I have started losing weight - which is great but my ED's have kicked back in and I've cut right back on food again. This in itself makes me want to drink because I get so tired.

I'm tired but also feel wired, its like nervous energy as I can't relax and my mind won't stop. Before, I would eat very little in the day and then the first calories I would have when I got home would be from booze.

I find it so uncomfortable to eat/relax/stay calm without the booze to facilitate.

Anyone else relate?

M x

[Pony]

I can't really give you any shared experience on this one, but did want you to know that someone is listening. Sorry you are having a rough time of it.

[BigSis]

Hi Mimi ((hugs))

What I find so difficult some days is to separate my addictions! What I know is that when I gamble - I don't eat. When I take percoset - I don't eat. When I drink - I don't eat. Those addictions numb/meet the same need as eating for me. That, by the way, was my voila! moment around eating being an addiction.

What I read up in the alcoholism forum, though, sounds very much like some of what you are dealing with - and it may well be a sympton of the alcoholism withdrawal and the related anxiety.

I also urge you to seek medical help and to read up on a condition called Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome - PAWS. There are some good books in that area - Getting Sober by Gorski and Miller and Under the Influence by Milam and Ketchum (and excerpted up at the top of the alcoholism forum here!: http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html (Excerpts "Under The Influence") ).

I wish you the best.

[mimi54321]

I have a doctor, she knows all of it, but there doesn't seem to be much they can do besides prescribing me valium, or equivalent, which the won't do because that is addictive.

I'm going to find a counsellor as soon as I start working and so far it looks like I might have something starting in a week or so which will help take my mind off things.

Also things are not going well with the boyf and I really want out as he is making me 10x worse in all areas. He puts me down, he threatens to split up with me - indirectly, he snores like a pig which affects my - already crap - sleep, he has terrible flatulence (!gross!!) and goes out drinking late a few times every week and does coke and booze all weekend.

OK, I know it sounds OBVIOUS that he is wrong for me, he does not support me through anything mainly because he doesn't understand it - or doesn't want to. He can't be bothered that's the way he acts. The problem is I suffer from such low self-esteem, I hate the thought of splitting up and I do love him but I need more now andhe's not ready to change for anyone, he still wants to be a lad, even though he's 32 this year - get a life!!

Anyway, rant rant, thanks for listening.

M x