Honesty

[renee18]

Honesty hurts. But I need to share this. ihave been under so much stress lately and what I eat has shown it. Today I eat a whole pint of ice cream/ some candies, i had for lunch pasta and red sauce and bread stick with a cookie and a rice crispy treat, then I had for dinner cereal, 6 cheese sticks with sauce, 2 cookies and two servings of ice cream and marshmellows on top. The sugar. When streesed or worried all I do is eat. But today I just realized I ate a whole pint of ice cream. I have never before been able to ea the whole thing. Normal I feel sick before finishing it. tonight I didn't. That scares me in that I am losing control over the food I am eating.

I was just wondering if anyone unserstand depression, eating disorders, and mentral cycles?

I feel fat now and my friend Mary said did you eat it all and I was so embarrssed to admit that i ate it all infront of a few friends. Should I say something to that friend?

Thanks for listening again

[Pony]

Shana, hon.... I so understand where you are at. Yes, I have been there a time or two myself. And it is embarressing to admit that to someone else let alone a crowd of people....no matter how big or small the crowd, when faced with it.. it might as well have been a whole stadium full of people is the way I would have felt. Your friend should have had more manners, let alone respect, for you not to ask you that in front of all those people.


Don't beat yourself up over it.... you can't change what has happened....but maybe it's time to dig out those tools you have to help you get a handle on what is stressing you out and make some plans to follow when you start stressing so as to not get to off by it.

We all have these days.... don't worry sweet girl....just get back to some basics....breath and go it a bit at a time.

[renee18]

Thanks Pony. I need help getting back to the basics. Where to I start again. it is 6:00am my time and I have woke up and cant sleep now. My tommy does not feel good now.

I am trying not to be too hard on myself but it is hard. I know one day at a time.

I am going to try and go back to sleep but no guarantee that I will get back to sleep.

love you

[Pony]

I Hope you were able to get back to sleep. I, too, am up early for a Sat. morning....but I don't get to go back to sleep...lol... I have "mom" things to do.


I know it is hard to start again, but you are not alone in this. Many times I have had to start again. Even right now.... I have started again, Yesterday was my first time back to the gym in so many.... many months. I have to restart my food plan....everthing. I have spent the last yr. and a half not doing what I should have and because of that, I have gained weight right out of my jeans. Well, I refused to buy new bigger ones, so.... I now have to take steps to get myself back on track and into those jeans...and then smaller ones as the next goal. So you see, we are together on this.

[renee18]

Thank you so much Pony. I thought I was alone in this but now I know I am not alone in this. Today for breakfast/lunch I had 2 small waffles with butter and syrup, bowl of cerel, and sugar donut. I had a lot of sugar. So plan dinner to cut back on the sugar.