Control issues?

[karlee]

Someone mention that my eating disorder may have something to do with an control issue. I wonder if thatmay be true. My dad was verbally abusive and controling with my mom. Then I married my husband at age 18. My husband can be a wonderful man. However, he can also have a horrible temper. He is also very controling. He tells me who I can talk to and who I can't. Where I can go and not go... and so on...He even gets upset and sometimes angry at me when I go to church. I have no friends because he doesn't like me having any friends I have never had a job since we been married. I had a job when we first got married. However, he was so jeolous thinking I was going to cheat or something was going to happen that I quit. Then I came down with some serious health problemsand now can't work....I have always had people
tell me what to do and when to do it.....My husband doesn't even want me to see a couselor because it costs money. There is no way he will let me go into a hospital or rehab center...It has been a long hard day...

[HKAngel24]

Karlee-
I am willing to BET MY LIFE on the fact that your ED is about control issues- most are- in some form or another.

From what you describe- it sounds like you are very controlled so in order for you to feel in control of SOMETHING in your life you have chosen food. I KNOW this feeling. It is very scary, very real and VERY painful.

You deserve a life of freedom from weight and food obsession.

Do you have health insurance?

IMHO if your husband truly understood the deapths of pain associated mentally and physically and emotionally with and ED he would understand that this could mean your life and your future and that getting the proper help is essential in any sort of recovery.

I urge you to take back power of your life- something you may not be able to do right away, but you can take baby steps. Look into treatment options. WWW.SOMETHINGFISHY.ORG has a treatment finder in which you can input your area and it will show you ED specialists. Please do something for yourself.

[Neagrm]

I agree with all HKAngel says. She is right on target. May you find the help you need and reclaim your self. Blessings to you ...

[Done-With-It]

Karlee, that was Big Sis and I, who mentioned control issues to you.

I still think you should talk to your counselors about going in patient,
the decision is really up to you not your husband...

(((Hugs)))

[HKAngel24]

Completely agree with Done With It- inpatient is a step to getting your life back.