Update

[renee18]

Hey all. THings have been going much better for me the last few days. Eating has been okay but I still seem to be on a sugar high a little. Today's dinner was mostly health chicken fingers and a little fries. I got the small portion. that was fine with me.

Just wanted to check in. It helps to keep me in step

[Neagrm]

Hi, Renee, I'm glad you checked in. It's good to hear things have been better for you. I hope that continues. What do you mean re "still on a little sugar high?" Just curious what you might be referring to, i.e. struggling with temptations, or maybe, feeling the effects of previous sugar in certain ways?

I like the quotes at the bottom of your message.

Best of luck to you,
Nea

[Pony]

Hey Shana, sorry I missed this the other day....how is going now, hon??

I hope good.


I hope that you have a wonderful spring break and Easter!!

[Nina Kay]

Hey Shana,
Sorry I didn't get in on this at the first. I'm glad to hear that things were going better for you. I hope that they still are, but I'd love to hear how it's really going for you now. Let us here from you soon, k?!

[renee18]

Hey all. My Easter was good. I got to see my nephew. He is 8 months old now. What I meant by a sugar high was I ate a little sugar and I just want it more and more. That is how it has been all weekend for me. Cookies and cake. i have been using food for my emotions.

I am at a very stressful time of the semester and I today I went to a funeral for a friend of mine that i went to high school with he was only 21 years old and i know the family well. It made the news. It was such a tradgey and great lose. He did donate his organs and saved 8 others lives. That is the hope and good that comes out of this story.

BUt I have eat and eat to hide that pain. I ate 3 pack of fruit candys and a whole bag od gummy bears. yesterday I had probably 15-20 cookies.

I am hanging in there but it has been a tough day for me. I am just glad ot be back at school.

thanks for checking in on me
love you all

[Pony]

Hey Shana, thanks for checking in. Glad Easter was good, sorry about your friend, but yes, some good came out if his death by his donating organs that saved lives.

It is good that you recognize the behaviors with the food. That is always good to be real with ourselves about our actions. But maybe it's time to dig down and bring out those tools that we've learned on how to redirect that into more positive energy for yourself. Otherwise we get caught up in the cycle of using and guilt and using. Just a thought.

Glad you are back at school. Getting back to routine can help.


Lots of Hugs

[renee18]

Hey all. Today has been a long day for me and I need to get this out of me so bare with me as I vent..

My friend has an eating disorder I have written about her before on here. Well I have watched her get worse and worse and she does not want help. I wish I could do something else for her but know I can't do anything else for her just continue to pray like I Have been for the past year. I am sacred that she is going to die I really I am. There is nothing I can do
I have let the people at the university know this tonight and i hope and pray that they can do something.

[Nina Kay]

I'm so sorry Shana, to hear that your friend is getting so much worse. I know how frustrating and terrifying that it is to be so powerless to help someone that you care so much about and to have to just stand by and watch them grow worse, each day because they haven't yet personally made the choice to get help to stop their very harmful addiction. But try to remember as I try to, that when you pray for them, you are doing the best possible for them. God is more powerful than anyone or anything and if we have faith and we trust Him to know what is best for our loved ones, He will take care of them in the very best way. I'll also say a prayer for your friend. Let's think positive about her outcome so that we can send positive vibes her way and when we take care of ourselves and our own personal lives, they see how positive changes in our lives can make such a difference which might lead them to decide that they want what we have. These are just some thoughts that I have to remind myself when I get too upset about my loved one and I hope that they can help you with your anxiousness too.
(((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))

[renee18]

Thank you so much Nina Kay. it does help. I know she is in God's hands. Well all try to be positive and somedays that is not easy, but all of her friends try.