Been clean for 50 days from everything

[TryingisDying]

and I have been in recovery for 15 yrs or so (bulimic/aneroxic) for my ED....HOWEVER...I noticed that since I am not using anything else I have begun to eat more and to obsess about my weight and beat myself up again.....SO NOT A GOOD THING

[Nina Kay]

Hey Trying,
I've heard that alot around here, about trading one addiction for another. It would especially give you trouble since you already had trouble with an ED in your past. By the way, Wow, 15 yrs is a long time and the amount of time that it takes to be considered a cancer survivor, so I consider you a real survivor and a recovery from ED inspiration. Please try, one day at a time, to not let anything or anyone take that accomplishment away from you. You've come too far to lose it now. Can you think of any hobby that you really do enjoy and love to take the place of doing something with your body? Something that you can really get involved in? Like Horticulture or something alive? Maybe even bodybuilding if you have to focus on body?! Just a suggestion, since you're replacing one addiction with another. We who have an addictive personality can get addicted to just about anything if we find that we enjoy it, so just make sure that it's not something that is detrimental to your health. Keep coming back here, no matter what. We are all in this together and we need to support each other.
(((((((((((((Caring Hugs)))))))))))))))

[Nina Kay]

By the way, CONGRATULATIONS, on being clean from everything else for 50 DAYS !!!!!!!!

[TryingisDying]

(((HUGS)))) thank you so much....Im waiting for the weather to change..I love my garden....I have been trying to just journal when I feel that control starting...

[Neagrm]

Hello Trying,

How are you doing today? It's great re the 15 years! Look at that feat instead of the thoughts that beat yourself up. You deserve some pats on the back.

That's a good idea about focusing on something you like to do like gardening. It's a great time of year to make plans for that. What do you like to garden?

Thanks for the reminder about journaling. That can be so helpful and I am trying to learn to do that more, a tool to use when coping with feelings. I like to write and can't understand why I don't do more re feelings and journaling. Ah, I suppose it's avoidance or something.

Anyway, you've got a couple good tools to use there. I'd be interested to hear how you're doing. Wishing you well...