Back and still alive.

[Ginger]

Hello all,

Its been a while for me that I have visit this forum but glad to be back and read some of the stories.
I am also back with OA and 33 days abstinent and somehow this feels for real, more then it ever did.
I have a new sponsor and working step one which is a tough first step but in a way feels good to do.

I have a questions too :p

I was wondering if you have heard about mental detox (spiritual detox maybe)? What happened is that I forget whole conversations with people and when I tell them again the same story they say for example that I called them 2 days before for an hour or so and I realy forgot about that totaly. I can't even remember it happened!!! It sounds so insane and I find it a bit scary too.

Please, is there someone who can explain to me what is happening or maybe give me a link to a good site about this subject?

Thank you for reading this post and hope to read a reply on this weird situation.

Ginger.

[Nina Kay]

Hi Ginger,
Welcome back. It's so good to hear that you are back at OA and have 33 days of abstinence. I can't get to OA meetings at this time and I really miss my meetings. I have alot more trouble since I couldn't get there.

I can't really tell you that I know anything about the other thing that you talked about. I do have short term memory loss to a point, but not to that extreme. Mine is caused from Effexor, an antidepressant and I've used other antidepressants in the past that had a worse effect on my memory than this does, so if you're taking any medication, you may need to look into it's side effects. Otherwise, maybe some others will be along later that will have something to share with you about it.

I hope that you'll come back more often to share your ESH with us. We could sure use your support and we're here to support you too.

[Pony]

Hi Ginger, welcome back...good to see you.

I think that I would discuss the memory loss with a Dr. because they may be something chemically imbalanced within you body and might need correction by Medication or like Nina said any that you are already taking. Not knowing your age off hand, I will say that menopause can also bring on certain memory losses as well, which I believer can be helped medically. There are so many things that it could be....please check with your Dr. before thinking you are going crazy or something.

[Ginger]

Thank you Nina Kay and thank you Pony for the warm welcome, that feels soo good!

I got some information about that detox what is happening seems when you eat differently and act differently, body and mind will detox and because I just joined the OA programm again and with all those changes this detoxing can happen.
I am more confused then before, forgetting things, easily distracted sometimes, maybe most of the time hehe, more consious about ego stuff and what I am doing wrong and that seems so much.
I also need to discover sponser and sponsie releationship, I have a sponsor now but it so different then all the other relationships I had before. Sometimes I think she does not like me or dont pick up the phone because I did something wrong, I know, all ego stuff but frighting to experience!
I always want people to like me and feel hurt when they don´t , silly me.

Nevertheless, I am going to an OA meeting today, meet people, hearing the shares and that is hopefull.

Ah yes another difficult thing I need to learn.. it seems to be a program of doing it together while I am used to be doing it on my own. Learning, learning, learning.

Wish you all a good day,

hugs from Ginger.