I'm overeating to make me feel better...

[gracie202]

I feel like I hate my body right now and it's a major stress in my life. I honestly feel like I can not control my appetite sometimes. I don't know why I'm always so hungry, but it's like that little feeling of hunger never goes away.

In the past year, I've probably gained about 30lbs. I'm now the heaviest I've ever weighed. I'm only 5'3" and I weight 215lbs. I'm a size 18, and I've never been that big before.

My boyfriend and I just celebrated our 1 year anniversary. When we first met, I was a size 12. I know when people get "comfortable," they gain weight. But this much?

I just felt like venting a little here. I know NOT eating is not the way to go, but sometimes I think that I should just starve myself for a while and maybe all of this fat will go away. I'm aware that won't happen, but odd thoughts run through my mind at times of self-loathing.

[Jwife22]

I too am where you are. I am 5'6 and need to lose about 50 or 60 lbs to be back at my college weight.

I think some of us are emotional eaters. eat when happy, eat when sad, eat when anxious, eat when excited...etc.......I know for me I don't eat a whole lot when I am stressed but I sure do eat all of the wrong things.

Others, with more experience and knowledge will be along soon.
(((gracie)))

[elizabeth1979]

Hey Gracie,
Vent away!
Starving never helps, people get sick, or the minute they start consuming calories again, the weight reappears. Stress is a factor for me in weight gain. I gained 2 sizes when I was with my last boyfriend, went from a 10 to a 14..so I understand that...Ive since lost the weight and am smaller than I was when I met him..but Im happywith myself and love who I am inside so I want to take care of my outsides.

Self loathing only makes it harder to lose the weight when Im feeling down. THe best thing I could do was take care of myself to love myself so I wasnt filling that void with food. In the form of bubble baths, manicures, facials, music I love, anything that made me feel a little more special.

Take care of yourself and hope today gets better

[gracie202]

Originally Posted by Earthmaiden

Ya, I do that too and it's almost like I cannot stop doing it. My emotions are so tied to what I eat and how much. I can feel your pain. I'm 5'1" and am 202# Way too much for me. I went hog wild during the holidays and put on 7lbs. I feel miserable.

Oh we're very similar. And it is so difficult to find clothes that fit, which makes everything so much worse! Going shopping makes me have a mental breakdown.

[Pony]

Originally Posted by gracie202

Oh we're very similar. And it is so difficult to find clothes that fit, which makes everything so much worse! Going shopping makes me have a mental breakdown.

Been there....I am larger than you are and I understand about shopping. It's hard to find anything out there in my size that doesn't look like my grandmother would have worn it.....and some of the "younger" looks that are available are not conducive for looking good at my size. I mean I can't believe that they actually put out there low rise or hipster jeans for overweight women....I'm sorry but having half my stomach below my belly button hanging out is not my idea of looking good. Not to mention that it is just plain uncomfortable.

[gracie202]

Originally Posted by Pony

Been there....I am larger than you are and I understand about shopping. It's hard to find anything out there in my size that doesn't look like my grandmother would have worn it.....and some of the "younger" looks that are available are not conducive for looking good at my size. I mean I can't believe that they actually put out there low rise or hipster jeans for overweight women....I'm sorry but having half my stomach below my belly button hanging out is not my idea of looking good. Not to mention that it is just plain uncomfortable.

I have what is known as the "mommy-ball." Although I'm not a mommy and never was, I do have the pouch of fat under the belly button. My major problem is that I have a very small torso, so if I do buy jeans, they usually have to be low-rise jeans because otherwise, they come up to my rib cage!