Starting over again.

[Nina Kay]

Hello Everyone,
Here I am starting over again for the umpteenth time. It is under different circumstances though. The reason that I've stumbled so carelessly this time is because my whole world has changed in the last few months. I've moved back to my old home, which is one hour away from any of my 12 step meetings that were helping me so much. I wasn't working and now I'm babysitting several 1 & 2 yr. olds, so I'm very, very tired every evening. Too tired to even go to the grocery store or cook many meals that are healthy. I'm having trouble getting a chance to eat right, since there are no breaks with toddlers. I try to eat when they do, but sometimes there is one that needs something every minute, so I'll realize later in the day that I never got a chance to eat that last meal. This also affects my hypoglycemia in a negative way. So, basicly everything has changed in my daily routines and I'm having to try to get used to the changes and readjust myself in just about every way. It's taking me awhile to work into it all. I'm not a young chick anymore and my body seems to be determined to remind me of that even though my spirit is not listening. Anyway, I know that it'll take some time to get it all back in routine, but I am working on it a little each day.

I hope that all of you are doing well today, with your healthy lifestyle changes. I'd love to hear about your experiences, good or bad.

[logo]

Don't give up the fight. Welcome back to SR. I understand food is a drug. It has to be hard when food is everywhere. As a recovering drug addict I stay clear of people who are using. But how does a person stay away from food? My hope is that you will find a way to do what you need to do.

[Hope]

(((Nina)))
Hey sweetie, it does sounds like you're really busy these days! I definitely know how challenging it can be to take care of yourself when everything is hectic. You have such a kind caring heart and you're always thinking of others.

I'm sure that you will be able to find the balance that you need. I have followed your progress and I just want to let you know that you are doing GREAT! It may be a small setback and I know how disappointing it can appear, but in the big picture, this is really just a small bump in the road.

Just remember to take some time for you and stay positive! Staying positive definitely helps!

I can relate to what you're feeling- I really need to get back on track myself, lol, I let everything slide when I got really busy too.

I know that we are both going to get back on track. I just know it!

[Pony]

It's very easy to get off track when things change in our lives and we get off routine. But it's good that you recogized it and are taking steps to work your way back. It happens to all of us, what's important is that we keep right on trying and working at it.

We are all here to do this together.

[sugarssweetpea]

Oh Nina,
Hang in there. You have a lot on your plate right now. I know what it is like to take care of the toddlers (not only b/c I have them myself, but I do teach preschool as well). It is very exhausting I know. Give yourself some time to get adjusted & things will fall back into place with your eating habits. The good thing is that you are recognizing that you have not been eating as well instead of not caring. It is good to hear from you. Much love & much prayers to you.

[Nina Kay]

Thank you Logo, for your encouragement and understanding. I really appreciate your response.

Hi Hope4life, Thank you for your kind words and for your support. I've been thinking about how much the positive attitude and outlook makes such a difference. I'm sure that you're right and we will both get back on track. It may take some time, but it's a process.

Thank you, Pony for your supportive words. I know that I can always count on you to be there for me and with me. We are really walking this journey together. I know that you're right about the key to success being that we never quit trying. We should never give up.

Sugars, Thanks for empathizing with me on how exhausting it is to take care of toddlers. I really love them, but it is true that this job has really thrown me off. You're right about it being good that I do care about this. I have been to the point in my life when I didn't notice because I didn't want to care. Kindof gave up at one point. It's really good to hear from you too.

Ms B, Thanks so much for your response and your understanding. I really appreciate the practical list of items to keep on hand. It really is a good list for someone with hypoglycemia. Protein is the key to survival for me. I will print that list. Thank you for your support. As for my sugar and white food, I don't abstain, as yet, from white food, but I am abstinent still from obvious sugar, aspertame & sodas. This has made more of a difference in my life than I can ever describe.

Everyone, my update so far, is that I have gotten my breakfast back in order for the last few days. It is beginning to be routine again. I also have gotten back to taking my vitamins & calcium every day, which I had slacked off on during this life turnover. That's really important for me, as I already have bone loss and have lost an inch in height. The regular vitamins replenish what I lose with all of the stress in my life and I also take Milk Thistle to help with my liver problems. So as you can see, I really need to keep my vitamins and calcium in my routine. I'm trying to work on focusing on my lunch next. We'll see how that goes.

How's everyone else doing now?

[smiling jack]

Hi Nina,

I can't add anything more than the others have, other than my support for what you are doing. The line in the Serenity Prayer...."the courage to change the things I can...." is the courage and strength of your beliefs that you are showing.

CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU!!!

You are a shining example of how any of our lifes can be improved by living the 12 steps. You will get through this...and this too shall pass.

You're doing great! Take Care.

[Nina Kay]

Thanks Jack & Ms B, for your posts. Sorry that I'm just now coming back here. I really appreciate your encouragement & understanding. I'm still struggling with getting back on track, but I think that I really might be getting there a little at a time.

I'm still doing good with my breakfast routine. I've slacked on my vitamins, the last few days. I got some fresh air & sunshine last week, since it was pretty weather and I was able to take the kids outside. We're back to rain now, so I won't be able to get out for a while. I don't feel near as good when I can't get that daily dose of fresh air & sunshine. It's like I crave it.

I'm doing a little better with my lunch & dinner, but I still need to improve on it alot. I got really off with my mid-day snack, that I need to have, to keep myself from having a hypoglycemia attack. I started eating chips and those kinds of snacks again, instead of peanut butter crackers and fruit snacks. They are just easier to grab, since I have them on hand for the kids. I keep the others on hand for me, but I have been giving in to the temptation to eat those. I'm also eating too much in the evenings because I'm so hungry from running and working all day. I know that it's just going to take time and focus, for me to get it all back on track. I hope that each of you are doing well lately.