going nuts

Well my parents have arranged for me and my husband and three girls to fly home for a week, we leave in 16 days.. I have gained so much weight and am going nuts to try and take it off. My husband says I dont look like I have gained a pound yet all of my clothes are tight and the scale sure does not lie.. SO here I am trying to get at least 10 pounds off in the next two weeks.. I am back on my OTC"s and my chest is already starting to feel the pressure... But I have no choice,, I can't let my family see me like this.. I know that many would say I am not overweight (even the doctors) yet I feel it, I see it.. How can I take this weight off fast... Please help..

Chey

Chey,

I am concerned. Your other post says your are thin, yet you also say you feel large and need to lose weight. What are OTC's (over the counters?), that make your chest bother you.

Body Dysmorphia is a condition whereby we preceive our bodies to be different than they are. i.e., too fat, ugly, not proportioned properly, and become obsessed about things like losing weight. If the doctors say your are not overweight, you may need some counseling help for your self-image. I'm sure you are aware of anorexia and bulimia. Do you suffer from this?

Be careful with over the counter diet aids. They can be harmful too your body. People have had heart problems from overuse of these products.

Juls

I do supposedly suffer from Anorexia or so they say.. I take pretty much whatever I can get my hands on for diet pills.. I know that none of this sounds right, yet I am so sure that I look sooo huge.. Thank you for your concern..

Chey

[Pony]

Chey,

I agree with Juls, I see lots of warning signs for you. Being underwieght or thin isn't a problem I face. I am in reality very overwieght. But I do know what it is not to be happy with yourself and not like the way I look. To be unhealthy because there is stress on my body because of the wieght.

You need to take a really honest look at yourself and hear what your doctor has said to you because you can also be unhealthy when you are using pills and other means of wieght lose that harm you. You defeat the very purpose that you set out to attain.

Can I ask a very personal question? Is weight a big issue with your family, or was it while you were growing up?

If so maybe you should seek some professional help with this. Seems like the hardest thing for you is to accept yourself for who you are. That's far more important in life than anything others have to say about you or your appearance.

Keep coming back here, we're here for you and woul like to hear more.

Pony

[Pray_Lady]

Hi Chey,

You got some great feedback above, I hope you can read it carefully with an open heart.

My understanding of anorexia is that there is a link to feeling like we need to be perfect for our families but we don't feel like we can ever measure up. And it usually doesn't have anything to with weight at all! But that is something we feel we can control, and the other "imperfections" seem uncontrollable or out of our reach.

Does that sound familiar to you?

My question for you is: Do YOU think this is a good time to go home? Never mind what parents think, hubby thinks, etc. Do you want to go? If you are feeling like you have to hurt yourself (and make no mistake, starving is hurting yourself) maybe this isn't a good time to go.

I'm praying for you and sending you hugs. You deserve good things and love from the people around you, and you don't have to be around people who are toxic or poisonous to your inner self. And you deserve love from yourself, too! You are worth it!

I'm so glad you're coming here for support. Good luck and God bless.

Pray Lady

[firefly]

Hey Chey,

Lots of folks have said some pretty important stuff in these responces. I don't know if this will really be anything new; here goes anyway.

I used to think the thinner I was, the more perfect I was. In fact, I spent almost every moment on it. I didn't have time for other things. More was never enough. Until I was hospitalized. That was the begining. That was about 18 years ago. Today, in my low moments, I still have times when I'm not happy with how I look. You see, my body's not air brushed, so I still have all my stretch marks. I've also got lumps and bumps, especially on my thighs. I'm a size 8-9 ( sometimes a 7, depending on how its cut.) These numbers are a point of pride for me 'cause I have wide hips and broad shoulders, so I'm not skinny. I'm solid, which basically means I've got to remind myself I've got curves. Now I go for long walks, do yoga and eat whatever I want, when I want. Now my moments are mine.

I hope this helps.

Peace,

firefly