Monday...New day...New week!

[Paulie]

Hello my friends -

I am starting this new thread so that I can remind myself it is a new day and a new week. I am starting today, Monday off great and with positive feelings towards myself. I am a good person who has achieved alot in my sobriety. I am kind to others and care about people and the world.

I am sharing this in hopes that others will use this thread to praise themselves this week, so that we stop punishing ourselves for our failures and praise oursleves for our achievements.

I hope you all have a great day and a great week ahead.

[Pony]

A very good thread Pauline. But, I willhave to think about it for a while. I'm so tired from working today (had a field trip to Dana Point.....7 1/2 hrs on the road) that I can't really think good thoughts. lol I did want to tell you "good job".

Hugs,

[Paulie]

It is Wednesday now...not Monday LOL! - but it is still the new week.

I am doing great and wanted to share that. I always share when I am not doing great, so there ya go LOL!.

I am feeling crummy with the step work I am doing cause it is bringing up alot of feelings that I have not thought about in a few years, but it is great doing it and I am proud of myself for the effort that I am putting into it. it is amazing to me in my writing how before it was about drugs and today drug and food issues keep coming up. It becomes more apparent all the time how in the past few years I traded drugs for food. The steps are amazing I know from past experience, I think that is why even though I feel crummy doing them, I know how I am going to feel as I progress through them and that keeps me going.

I have been telling myself everyday, several times a day that I am a good person and I deserve to feel good about myself. Sounds silly but I have to do this. I have stuck to my gym schedule and walking my puppy every night!!!I have stopped and thougth before I eat, and identified the behavior before doing it!!!

Okay - that is my morning ramble. I hope everyone else is having a good week too.

[Juls]

Pauline,

Thanks for the inspirational post. Since I've been so busy lately my eating habits have gone to "hell in a handbasket," (LOL, one of my favorite lines).

It's easier to eat well when I have the time to plan my meals, but I have to learn how to eat well when I'm busy. Any suggestions?

Juls

[Pony]

Pauline, You are doing great!! I'm proud of you too. And it's not silly to tell yourself all those positive things. I wish I could do it with more belief to myself. But I'm working on it.

I did get to the gym yesterday, but today was another long trip back to Dana Point to pick up the group we left there on Mon. Tomorrow I should beable to get in and get some "road work" done on me. lol And Fri. also. If Sat. is open around our house I may go try it on that day also. we'll see. Of course my eating has been a whenever I can method. But I have eaten some good healthy things when I got to eat. lol

Juls I know what you mean about a busy schedule and eating! If it's possible (and that's a big if) you might take time before you know your big russ of schedules is going to start and prepare some things ahead of time that you can grab and go with. Maybe??

Well I hope everyone else is having a good day.

[criscee]

Okay Pauline step works sucks. but it does get to the nitty gritty. the trade off is horrible. as for the busy schedule, i like my weekends. for some reason i find i eat less when i'm running around. i don't do well on the meal planning. cuz when i plan meals i feel like i've overeaten for whatever reason. but i had a good week for the most part. i've been in control, feeling good about myself. i had a couple of rough spots. didn't make it thru them all but i did walk thru a couple of them which is growth for me. glad to see a post from someone i've not seen before Juls. I love to see what you guys have to say. i'm taking my neice this weekend. a couple of friends of mine and my boyfriend are gonna take her to see Piglet's big movie and then barbq. it will be busy but i'm looking forward to it. hope you all have a wonderful weekend. hope the end of the week was good for y'all. check in soon.

[Paulie]

Hi guys -

Hope everyone had a great weekend. Mine was okay, nothing exciting and I kept things under control pretty darn well, even hit the gym on Saurday, but not making it this morning.

How was you bbq criscee?

Paul and I are trying to eat better together, it helps with us both doing it together, that is a good thing.


today is Monday again, a new day and a new week. I am going to give my self credit for what I have accomplished and not beat myself up for what I have not. Ihope you are all doing the same

[criscee]

Had a great bar b que Pauline. Had my neice for the weekend. what a good girl. she rocked. she's never been away from her parents for that long. it was alot of fun. scott was really good with her. had a couple of bad moments this weekend tho. i find that when i have too much time to sit around i get myself in trouble. i need to keep myself occupied and not lounge for too long. at least i recognize my triggers. wish i could just sit around and feel good about it but i dont. then i pound down the calories, feel bad about it and well it becomes a very very vicious cycle. next weekend, i'll get to my regular running around routine and it won't be so bad. but i'm okay today. happy, joyous and free. have a good one all.........

[Juls]

I have a problem with late night eating. If I'm up late, past 11, which I frequently am, I get very hungry. Right now it is 11:30, and I just finished eating a half of a baked potatoe.

Also I'm having a difficulty, because I'm having dental work done, and I can only eat soft foods. I can't chew apples, carrots, or anything crunchy.

I have lost 20 pounds though and I am maintaining that weight. I seem to be in that "stuck" place, or a plateu I believe it's called. I would like to lose 20 more. That's the weight I gained from being pregnant six years ago. I will be 48 next month, and I do want to start getting back in shape again, before it's too late. LOL

Juls

[criscee]

Nights are the very worst thing for me. I don't stay up late. but i wake up all thru the night. when i was in my other addiction i used to wake up and eat and go back to sleep. that has been so solidly ingrained. i wake up i eat. it's really hard for me not to eat during the night. if i'm in healthy mode, I will have a couple few bites of a yogurt or cottage cheese. but if i'm not i'm eating peanut butter and bread. this is the hardest cycle for me to break and my other disorder kicks in during the day knowing that i blow it at night. it's a very vicious cycle for me. i have lost 100 lbs since 2000 and kept it off. sadly the problem for me is that i suffer from an eating disorder that i developed when i quit doing drugs. So altho i would like to lose another 30 lbs. i am trying to do it healthy altho i am contending with this eating disorder as well. it's destructive and well the rest of you all know my drill. I really believe if i could stop eating in the night i wouldn't be beating myself up so hard in the day. hope y'all are doing okay today. i am so far so good. {{{{hugs to all}}}}

[Juls]

Criscee,

A 100lbs? That's great. I hope you feel proud of yourself for that accomplishment. I also wake up at night and eat, and I like to eat peanut butter too. I try to make it more healthy by getting the kind you grind fresh yourself at the healthfood store, and I omit the bread and just eat the peanut butter out of the jar off a spoon with some jam. I try to limit myself to 2 or 3 small spoonfuls. Peanut butter is a good source of protein, and I don't think I'm doing myself that much harm eating it. Also it's better than waking up to eat cookies or ice cream. LOL

Juls

[Paulie]

Criscee -

that is awesome!!! you go girl!! And today you are taking it just one day at a time. I am really proud of you.

You are in the habit of eating at night, it is all in your head. I know this because before I quit my second job last September I would get home from work about 3 or 3:30 and I would eat. Now I am in that habit, it does not matter where I am, home or not, I want to eat at that time. It does not matter if I did not have lunch until 2 that day, I still want to eat at that time, it is a habit. We have to replace those habits with other things. I have been trying to come in my office at that time and do something or taking my dog for a walk at that time, or something ya know. But during the middle of the night would be a bit harder, we need to think of something else for you to do when you wake up during the night. What do you think?

[criscee]

well i smoke too. but i eat then i smoke. all in the middle of the night. go figure. having a hard time today. i butted my nose into my friends affairs and she is mad at me right now. my boyfriend always tells me to mind my own. but i always have to face making an amends for my big fat mouth. so i'm trying not to take it out on myself. i'm very upset right now. she is one of my best friends and i shoulda minded my own business. so i'm fighting with myself in a lot of ways right now.

[Paulie]

Listen, we all make mistakes sometimes, don't beat yourself up about it. I did something yesterday that made my mom angry at me and I started to beat myself up too, and I stayed WAY out of the kitchen if you know what I mean.

You are a good, kind, sweet person, remember that and be good to yourself.

[criscee]

sadly i don't feel all that good right now. i'm sticking to my food plan so far today. luckily i've been in meetings and such so i haven't had time to obsess. i got an email from my girl. she told me she loves me but felt like i attacked her. i dont' know you guys. i don't always think how harsh i sound. i think i'm just laying it out but i guess it's harsh to folks. something else to work on. sad but under control. thank god i didn't lose a friend cuz of my big mouth. i'll not make that mistake again. i have said that before but i really learned something today. i don't want to feel like this again. i suppose i won't if i keep my mind on my own business and my nose out of my friend's. but i'm okay. thanks for the encouragement. i really needed that.

[Juls]

Criscee,

I agree with Pauline, don't be too hard on yourself. We all make mistakes, and one thing hopefully, about a good friend is that they will still love us even if we do.

I have received feedback from people that I can very very straight-forward and blunt sometimes. I don't realize it, and I don't ever mean to hurt someone. I've really worked at thinking about what I say before I say it. Fortunately I've never lost a close friend because of it.

Think some encouraging and nurturing thoughts about yourself today.

Juls

[criscee]

well it turned out positively. my girl and i are back on track. she has been in a strange place and didn't take things the way she normally does. but we are good now. i'm good too. getting ready for the weekend. happy about it. buying a new bed today. exciting. going to the alanon convention. gonna meet scott's mom there. she's an alanon. don't get much of a chance to see her cuz she lives about an hour away and scott works so much but that will be nice. that's all. thanks for all your words of support. i need them. i love them. i love you guys. have an awesome and blessed day.